Living in your own head can be a very empty existence... (761 hits)
Category: NoneRating: 1.57 on 26 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by JulsInsane <julsinsane.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2007-03-26 00:02:23 EDT
Living in your own head can be a very empty existence. When I was younger I was always very enamored with people who could find the subtleties in life, the nuances of art and literature, relating the minutest human interactions to philosophical axioms. The idea that my bad chest cold could be tied together with Claudia's sickness in Morrison's "The Bluest Eye" and then wrapped up in a neat package as a larger metaphor for the American medical system would baffle and amaze me. I could never really wrap my head around the notion of living in my own head; the world around me seemed to move at too fast a speed to be able to take the time and effort necessary to comb the inner recesses of my mind to organize the plight in Darfur thematically with "The Beasts of No Nation".
Contemplating my own existence was supplanted with thoughts of
sports boys cars money school clothes sex beer rock and roll dancing work job cigarettes laughing crying singing giggling absurdity buffoonery picnics firecrackers rugby friends fights poverty parents home checking account sickness medication burlesque couches furniture bills electricity food sports boys cars money school clothes sex beer rock and roll dancing work job cigarettes laughing crying singing giggling absurdity buffoonery picnics firecrackers rugby friends fights poverty parents home checking account sickness medication burlesque couches furniture bills electricity food sports boys cars money school clothes sex beer rock and roll dancing work job cigarettes laughing crying singing giggling absurdity buffoonery picnics firecrackers rugby friends fights poverty parents home checking account sickness medication burlesque couches furniture bills electricity food.
Never one to think too deeply into too much as to not fall into the trap of mental masturbation through self exploration, I still felt no lack of depth or self knowledge. Looking now at my sister in the full blown throws of her teen years dissecting her life with an affected air about her, that I can truly understand the joy of living my existence as a crow, distracted by any shiny thing that would glint in the sun off my peripheral. As an adult it would seem that we are encouraged to distance ourselves from the intensity of the friendships of our youth and begin a more pragmatic existence full of self knowledge and awareness.
So in an effort of conformity I have swept away the cobwebs of the inner recesses of my brain and found only the barest cornerstones of self doubt and disillusionment that I have quickly managed to build upon while toiling in this empty space. I have figured out the basis for all emo music, a general sense of boredom mixed with an abundance of free time coupled with a large serving of black eyeliner. I have analytically scrutinized the actions of others around me and managed in my own ignorance to let it become a reflection of myself. So I sit here in this empty space, the naked bulb illuminating the bare walls of this prison of self enlightenment and all I can think is FUCK THIS! How have I managed to become that thing that I hate most... a thinker, a soul searcher, and above all else the dreaded bloggish post writer. Living in your own head can be a very empty existence, so I have decided to move out.
User Reviews
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-04-17 16:18:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-03-30 15:41:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/100230
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-03-26 20:33:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-03-26 18:49:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
old picture, but I like it
Submitted by Coleslaw_Murphy (user info) at 2007-03-26 16:06:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
AUTO JUST-GOT-NEW-JOB +2.
You benefit from my happiness!
*resumes emo posturing*
Submitted by MidnightToSix (user info) at 2007-03-26 14:55:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
While there may be many paths to enlightenment, chances are you are just doomed to be a glorified monkey.
Submitted by St_Jimmy (user info) at 2007-03-26 12:45:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Almost a -2 for "The Bluest Eye" reference. I had to read that for an English requirement.
TERRIBLE!! I mean serioulsy, 350 pages about negroes eating cake. WTFM8?!?!
Besides, I'm pretty sure the Jews have cornered the market on "racial self-loathing".
Submitted by Hilarity_Ensues (user info) at 2007-03-26 12:32:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Just live life by brute force and ignorance. It's fun :P
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-03-26 11:39:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/87700
Shameless link whore...pictures at least.
Submitted by JoeyG (user info) at 2007-03-26 11:33:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Tracer0351 (user info) at 2007-03-26 11:17:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
!FIRE! !FIRE! !FIRE!
Submitted by ampersand (user info) at 2007-03-26 11:14:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You cut me real deep just now Shrek. I mean Juls.
You can move into my head if you want, there's lots of room.
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2007-03-26 10:35:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2007-03-26 10:20:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It's a much better place for a vacation, really.
Shut-ins of any sort ultimately become their own jailers.
Submitted by professorfuckface (user info) at 2007-03-26 09:57:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
emo tattoos are the stupidest fucking things I've seen in my life, I know emos are not thinking about the future, but they all choose these retarded designs either in full color or with whispy curls and lines about a quarter mm apart, if they look shit now they're going to look great in 10 years
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-03-26 08:57:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Let's do it.
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-03-26 08:29:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2007-03-26 07:02:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Great post... I liked:
"the trap of mental masturbation through self exploration,"
and
'as an adult it would seem that we are encouraged to distance ourselves from the intensity of the friendships of our youth and begin a more pragmatic existence full of self knowledge and awareness.'
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-03-26 06:59:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2007-03-26 01:23:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Yeah, I'd bang her into the ground/is that who really wears Reeboks?
Submitted by darko (user info) at 2007-03-26 01:21:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I am so attracted to that girl
Submitted by Progr3ss (user info) at 2007-03-26 00:59:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Was Sylvia Plath the first emo?
Submitted by JulsInsane (user info) at 2007-03-26 00:25:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2007-03-26 00:17:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
self-awareness starts with a buzzing sound...
------------------------------
the path to self-enlightenment begins with two steps, or two fingers... I forget which.
Submitted by Sphagnum (user info) at 2007-03-26 00:21:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
In your heeeaadd, In your Heeeiiaaaddd...
Zombie, Zombie!
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2007-03-26 00:17:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
self-awareness starts with a buzzing sound...
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-03-26 00:07:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Hey I know those hipsters!
More on the porn and panties exchange when I'm less high and more "not going to bed right now," Juls.
You're an idea person. I dig that.