Trazodone (1682 hits)
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Submitted by ^_~ (View user info) at 2003-07-25 09:39:27 EDT
Well, I got tricked into it again by my mother. Even though I am legally an adult and can make the decision NOT to continue, I somehow signed those papers and now my records are HERS. I agreed to one appointment to make my parents feel better, and now I go back on the eighth of August. After my FIRST appointment I get put on TWO antidepressants. One of them, might I add, is a SEDATIVE. SED-A-TIVE. It knocks me on my ass at night. With weird headaches in the morning. I also have a really dry mouth and NO appitite. I have lost 5 pounds already. I am dead meat. I also didn't do any of my internships this summer, and don't plan to. La la la la la. I am all shakey and my mind is fuzzy. I guess you can't be depressed when you can't think straight huh? My arm feels like it is floating and I can feel my heartbeat in the hollows of my chest up to my neck. My mom says, I am so glad you feel better. My little Tina looks better. Smiles can be deceiving. All I had to do was smile more, and maybe I wouldn't have had to go through this crap again.
Drink, this one's for you.
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Submitted by smokymtcsw (user info) at 2003-11-14 11:28:43 EST (#)
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By the way it feels odd putting made me smile for something that made emote but I do not think in a smiling sort of way. I think that while there may be some inefficiencies in testing method's it is certainly true that some people have a significantly higher level of comprehension than others but more frustrating, an ability to process information more quickly. This is somewhat akin to a car engine, now one could talk about how it is geared and the type of track for steering, and say that a Range Rover outperforms a Porsche offroad, and there are different types of intelligence with regards to math or quantum physics etc. but it is safe to say that some minds are yugos and some minds perform fairly nimbly in a variety of functions. If you can read twice as fast as a normal person with full comprehension it is frustrating how little other people seem to have read, especially when a normal person is probably reading Danielle Steele and has never picked up Flannery O'Connor.
About your feelings when you were 5, the main thing I find when talking to a number of my friends about their emotional or psychological insecurities (yes somehow that role ended up defaulting to me for several of my friends and then I became a peer counselor at law school) is that it is beneficial to them to feel understood and validated but shockingly therapeutic to realize their experiences are not all that odd. When I was a child I would sometimes go to my room and think I hate my parents and I wish they were dead, and I am sure in moments of rage lots of children felt that way. Now on a gradient from me, to the Mendendez brothers, I am quite removed when it comes to how I dealt with my feelings and how persistent they were, but I bet you are not as diseased or abnormal as you feel you are.
Finally taking care of yourself is about the few things you can control. Do you always feel distracted? Well if part of that is the nagging drip of a faucet, turn it off. If you cannot tune out other sounds, buy the Bose headphone looking things. You can always control what you eat, and when you eat it, so eat well, even when you do not feel like it. Also sleep! I know that is probably the hardest because while someone can say you can always sleep, it is often not that easy. But at least establish a pattern and routine and help your circadian rythym out. Also exercise to be able to sleep better. I wish you all the best!
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-11-13 20:03:50 EST (#)
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And thanks. :)
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-11-13 20:03:23 EST (#)
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Honestly, I don't believe there is an objective "smart." IQ, from a statistical and psychological standpoint, is meaningless, really, I've written about it somewhere else, but I don't remember where.
That said, one of the reasons I am interested in psychiatry, not psychology, is that I'd like to believe that these obsessions I cannot get rid of are the result of a disease, not a character flaw. So I prefer to study disorders as discribed in the DSM IV, and NOT philosophy books or the like, which I concider completely separate. While I realize some of what I go through is under my control, that doesn't explain why at the age of five I believed my parents were always angry with me. I hope it is medical, not me.
Submitted by smokymtcsw (user info) at 2003-11-13 19:41:44 EST (#)
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Is taking Adderal only every once in a while when you need to study for 12 straight hours bad for you? Tina what do you think about my suspicion that being really smart can drive you crazy? A person who is normal will generally discount the opinion of someone who is retarded, that is a given, but I do not think that people stop to discover that those on the end of the bell curve, say 135+ IQs have less in common with a normal person than a normal person does with someone who is slightly but not severely retarded. I think that was what got Murray and Herrnstein (sp?) in so much trouble, not the racism allegations, just that they showed that the brilliant are very different from normal people. You seem extremely intelligent, maybe you have cut yourself off from human interaction because you have not found people you respect or people you think can understand you. It is a tragic fact that the IQ in mental institutions is much higher than 100, despite the number of mentally retarded patients admitted. It is more than offset by the high number of brilliant but flawed minds. I would advise sunlight, exercise and eating well. Focus on that you can control and not that which you cannot. Take care...
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-28 19:07:19 EDT (#)
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I look hot in your bikini too. DID YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT?
Submitted by carmex9 (user info) at 2003-07-28 16:09:00 EDT (#)
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so how's it going today?>
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-27 12:35:50 EDT (#)
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LIAR!
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-27 12:27:23 EDT (#)
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+2 coz I think I look hot in my bikini. So there.
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2003-07-27 12:13:31 EDT (#)
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i already told you, Tina. you don't need antidepressants. you need friends. and me and Stanton really want you to come see us. talk to your sister. pleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaasssssssseeeeeeeee???
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:31:58 EDT (#)
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Yeah, I'm TOTALLY into that.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:31:01 EDT (#)
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Haha.
Soooo.....you like.....stuff?
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:25:51 EDT (#)
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So uhh... Tina. . . You come here often?
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:21:10 EDT (#)
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^_~
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:19:54 EDT (#)
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Ummm, I'm Sorry? I HATE YOU!
I'm a liar.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:03:12 EDT (#)
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You and Hidden and Insanethemind! What are trying to do, kill this poor girl?
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-27 10:01:50 EDT (#)
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Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! You Uber-boys will be the death of me!!! Damn you!!!!!
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-27 09:23:32 EDT (#)
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I've been in love with Tina for 64 days.
Submitted by PeopleAreStrange (user info) at 2003-07-27 09:17:22 EDT (#)
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TINA! Sorry love, I've been having an active weekend, Womad festival on the Friday, murder mystery party on the Saturday. Have just got home and am going out again soon.
Send me an email if you wanna chat. Hold in there hun.
xxxx
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 21:03:44 EDT (#)
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Weeeeeeeendyyyyyy. Aaaaaaaandreeeeeeew. Talk to meeeeeeeee.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 20:36:34 EDT (#)
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That is a very good idea. It seems to work for my cats. >^_^<
Submitted by carmex9 (user info) at 2003-07-25 20:13:33 EDT (#)
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try just sitting in the sun, i know that this seems sort of stupid but just sit in the sun.
it'll (hopefully) lighten things up, and give you some more energy.
it's rough being on meds
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 19:41:28 EDT (#)
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SOMEBODY TALK TO ME
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 15:03:10 EDT (#)
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Mmmm. Soup.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:45:35 EDT (#)
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Oh, somewhere dep inside of these bones
An emptiness began to grow
There's something out there, far from my home
A longing that I've never known...
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:35:21 EDT (#)
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Oh, there's an empty place in my bones
That calls out for something unknown
The fame and praise come year after year
Does nothing for these empty tears...
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:18:08 EDT (#)
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I let my doctors choose what they feel is best for me. There are many new medications in the bipolar spectrum that I cannont take because of my history of (borderline) eating disorders.
:)
Submitted by Insanethemind (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:15:35 EDT (#)
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Well, if you don't mind my recommendation:
1. If the shit (trazadone) isn't working cut it out, and try an rx sleep aid (I would go with sonata or ambien for a period of 3-7 days to test the waters) If you don't want to go the habit forming way, try seroquel: works like a charm for my brother in law.
2. Myself being bipolar, I am not sure what to recommend to stave the unipolar depression off, but I hear that new drug Lexapro is working wonders for clinically depresed individuals.
I wish you all the luck in the world, as I am 2 days sober, just got back on meds (Trileptal for mood stabilisation and Xanax for anxiety and withdrawals) and I start a new job next week. Jobs have always been hard for me to hold/apply for being bipolar. I'm quite capable, it's just Mr. Monkey on d back.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:05:52 EDT (#)
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But, since I didn't respond to regular medications, and becuase I stopped sleeping, I was put on Trazadone. :)
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:05:01 EDT (#)
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That's because Trazodone is a sedative. It was originally used as a typical SSRI anti-depressant, but it wasn't that good...however, it did work as a sedative. Very well, might I add. It probably would help bipolar disorder. I, on the other hand, have uni-polar depression.
Submitted by Insanethemind (user info) at 2003-07-25 13:01:17 EDT (#)
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Ive been seeing these sort of doctors for almost 9 years now, so I'm a veritable storehouse of pharmaceutical information. Trazadone, while I have never taken it, seems to be an okay drug. What are you taking at night as a sedative, SURELY not Zyprexa? Ambien, sonata I hope, or even Xanax.
Look man, there is no problem with being on medication, it's gonna be a life long thing for me, and I have learned to both accept and embrace it.
Are you bipolar? My friend that was on Trazdone is...
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:50:42 EDT (#)
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Oooo, clever. :)
Submitted by Can I Buy a Vowel <aeiou.at.wheeloffortune.com> at 2003-07-25 12:49:57 EDT (#)
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Mnfr hs lttl pns sndrm
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:48:46 EDT (#)
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NO!
Wait for someone special. I'm in SPECIAL ED, but thats not what I meant.
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:47:25 EDT (#)
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Lets go to Vegas?
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:44:13 EDT (#)
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Not til I'm married, buddy.
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:41:50 EDT (#)
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Tina, you need some good lovin'.
*crosses fingers*
pickme pick me pick me pickmee me me pick me
It tooke me 12 hours to find the asterix key.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:35:24 EDT (#)
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Noooooooooooooooo! My virgin eyes must not be tainted by the anatomy of a man!
Submitted by Manfre (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:29:54 EDT (#)
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Sounds like something I should be on at times...
Also if you have ADD you cant get Alzheimers... How can you forget something you didnt pay enough attention to remember in the first place?
Cheer up kiddo... If I show you my penis youll smile. Probably laugh too...
Now Im gonna crawl under my cube, avoid the filing, cry and then attempt to suck my own penis. Always failing because its not long enough for me to reach. WHY?! GOD WHY DO YOU TEASE ME SO!?!?!?!?!
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:20:10 EDT (#)
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Vitamin C keeps you from grinding your teeth if doing so is drug related...or so I've heard...I don't really know....I gotta go now.
Submitted by streetpunk (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:17:53 EDT (#)
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I grind my teeth all the time. Be careful, I have problems eating candy now.
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:16:01 EDT (#)
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I'm an asshole.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:12:16 EDT (#)
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My back is killing me. I have been gritting my teeth and my whole body without knowing it. Maybe it's my potassium levels. I haven't had my blood tested in months.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:09:51 EDT (#)
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It could be the drugs, but me not eating can't be helping either.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:07:17 EDT (#)
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Zippidy doo daa, zippidy day, skip skip hop hop.
Submitted by Phinch (user info) at 2003-07-25 12:00:00 EDT (#)
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I don't know anything about depression, but does excercise help? or hobbies?
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:56:08 EDT (#)
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damnit I hate when I forget to rate
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:55:32 EDT (#)
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Is this just an adjustment period with the new drug? I can't think this is normal, how can feeling worse make you less depressed? Maybe they have the dosage wrong, therapy is crap, but hey whatever works.
I have a prescription for adderall, no shit right. I think I'm the poster child for adderall. When I first started taking it, I was shaky and felt really light headed. I don't take it all that much now because I obviously am NOT in a high stress job anymore so it doesn't really make a difference if I can concentrate or not. When I get an actual work load and/or know that I'm going to go to dinner with the Queen, I take it to keep that stir crazy feeling down. If it's been a while, I get the light headed, shaky feeling again. Where was I going with that? Ah yes, that it could just be a matter of getting used to it.
Submitted by Fabish (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:55:26 EDT (#)
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It's great to have you back Tina. It's awkward how the mind will allow one to feel grief or sympathy for someone that I've never met, and don't even know, but just reading about your situation makes me want you to feel better soon. From what Razor says, you sound like an excellent person, too.
All seriousness aside, start taking acid and don't look back. I mean, you only live once right? Well that's what medical scientists keep saying on television.
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:48:37 EDT (#)
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Is it OK to fantasize about holding hands with Tina and hopping down the street, whistling?
Submitted by Judoka (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:37:03 EDT (#)
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I have battled depression all my life. My situation was very similar to yours. Luckily I found something that worked for me. The combination of an antidepressant (Welbutrin) and exercise. I still think talk therapy is useless. But I am smart enough to know that everybody has a different way of healing. Don't give up, make yourself do the various tasks that seem so unimportant. I will think good thoughts for you.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:33:06 EDT (#)
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It's otay. It's nice that you care so much. :)
Submitted by chicagogirl (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:32:00 EDT (#)
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ok sorry. I was not trying to directly imply anything.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:26:47 EDT (#)
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My mom may be overprotective, but she is a good mommy and I love her. I describe my feelings to the doctor. I can't function. That's why I have been getting help for two years. I have more than just depression going on and its something I gotta deal with. My mom is somtimes overbearing, but she means well, just like anyother parent. I was mad she called behind my back, but I needed it. My mom is a wonderful person.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:22:55 EDT (#)
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No, my mom isn't faking anything. I am depressed. I inherited it from her. Therepy and medication the first time around didn't help, but doing nothing hasn't helped either. I am kinda feeling hopeless right now, so logically I know that if my mom hadn't referred me, I would lay around in my room with the shades drawn and get worse. However, she so wants me to feel better, she tries to encourage anything happy out of me. Besides, usually you are the last to see changes in yourself.
Submitted by chicagogirl (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:15:23 EDT (#)
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I cant rate this a -2 or +2 . What you say frightens me. I am sorry if I do not know all of your history and if you have answered these questions already. Do you feel so depressed that you really cannot function a daily basis. My family has a history of depression and anxiety that some of us have controlled without the use of drugs. It seems to me when my anxiety is at his highest is during my monthly... I have not ever needed scripts because I am feel that I can control things on my own fine. Who describes your feelings to the doctor? Do you really feel as bad as you do even though your mother says you look good? There is a illness called Munchausen. It is basically a parent "faking" their Childs illness. Usually they are craving attention or pity from others and they use their child as way to get it. I am not a doctor so I am trying to recommend anything or hurt your feelings but if you do feel like you are not able to function normal because of others you might want to look into this.
Submitted by drink_DDT (user info) at 2003-07-25 11:13:00 EDT (#)
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I had an anxiety attack one time, in Korea.
I woke up with a start, my heart beating a thousand times per minute. I thought I was dying.
I staggered to the bathroom mirror and stared at myself, waiting for my heartbeat to slow. I looked so ugly and I felt like the world was collpasing, along with my lungs, but all I could think about was what a fuckup I was. At the same time I knew I was dead sexy.
After a few minutes I started breathing normal. I woke up a few hours later, really tired. I went to work and pressed on.
I'm drunk and worthless. Its good to have you back around here, TIna.
Submitted by hendrixjrr (user info) at 2003-07-25 10:57:40 EDT (#)
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Here's an antidepressant for you:
Tina, you are an absolutely beautiful person, and I can only hope to meet a girl with such a good personality some day. You're totally hot, even though I've never seen you.
Jason
Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2003-07-25 10:51:02 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2003-07-25 10:50:56 EDT (#)
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I am really opposed to medication, but I hope that it works out for you Tina.
You should come over and hang out some time.
Annie has started walking, and she's sort of talking too. She's got mama, byebye, dada, up, and uhoh all mastered.
Submitted by Hadooken (user info) at 2003-07-25 09:58:12 EDT (#)
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Anti-depressants didnt do shit for me but I hope you do better. I really understand how shitty you must be feeling.
Submitted by blujnbbyqn (user info) at 2003-07-25 09:54:49 EDT (#)
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Holy crap Tina! Call a doctor or get your mom and have her do it. That's not normal. Although, it could be that you haven't eaten anything.
I really hope that you manage to get through all of this in one piece. Your much too beautiful a person to drag that much heavy baggage around all your life.
Feel better, take care of yourself. Oh, and I missed you around here!
Michelle
Submitted by streetpunk (user info) at 2003-07-25 09:50:27 EDT (#)
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Hey, I just started my first dose of anti-depressents. I am taking welbutrin and it has killed my appetite too. I thought I was getting my appetite back last night but I was just stoned. This morning I was as unhungry as ever. Tina, you need a vacation. Why don't you go visit your sister and party with me and Andrew. I would totally make the trip. I think we are having the southwest ubercon in Austin next month. You should join us. :-) Anyway, much love and I hope you get to feeling better.
Peace,
STREETPUNK
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 09:49:29 EDT (#)
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My legs are shakey and my teeth are chattering. It could be just be panic so I will calm down.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 09:44:50 EDT (#)
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It's beating really fast. I'm kinda scared.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2003-07-25 09:43:21 EDT (#)
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I am afraid my heart is gonna stop. This usually only happens at night.