Our last talk...... (429 hits)
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Submitted by raptor13 (View user info) at 2007-05-30 22:34:08 EDT
I remember seeing you in the hospital a few years ago on a very dark and cold winter night. Snow was blowing through the air in such a furious haze, I could barely see through the waiting room windows.
I saw you lying in your hospital bed in a paper gown a size too short for you, the tube covering your mouth and stifling your speech....but then again, you could barely speak anyhow..hell, you could barely draw a breath of air without horrible pain. You looked at me with dialated and tearful eyes and mouthed my name with a smile, Even in your last hours of life your sweet attitude never changed.
I walked over to where you lay and rested my hand upon yours, sadly noting how weak and pale that kind face of yours looked. You had lung cancer, the doctor said....you didn't have long to go. I fluffed up your pillow for you and then I did the talking for us, telling you what the family was up to, and a few funny stories I'd heard...you always liked those.
My mind flashed back to a time when I would hold your hand just like this, and you would tell me stories of what your life was like as a young lady in a time long gone by.
I loved those stories, and I loved how you were always there for me, even though you had numerous problems all your own, you still took time out to listen to a teenage boy's petty complaints about how life was treating him at the time. Petty, indeed...compared to what you were going through....it all seems so selfish now, but still you listened.
You used to watch my little sister and I play frisbee in your yard, watched us take our first steps, took care of us when we had the flu, fed us our King Vitamin cereal before school and watched A-Team and the Mario Bros Super Show with us, and now years later here I am holding your hand again. No voice from you this time, just the sound of your raspy breathing and the beep of the machines. Wiping the fevered sweat off your forhead watching you slowly drift out of our lives forever.....a kind face lost to the ages. I felt horrible leaving you that night lying there, but you had people watching over you helping you more than I could. I went into the cold damning god and fate itself for dealing you such an unfair hand. I'll come see you tomorrow, I thought.
However, you didn't have another tomorrow left in you. The cancer had finally taken its toll, and I suppose now it was a blessing. You went away while you were asleep and that was for the best, no pain in the end....which doesn't happen often with cancer patients from what I heard at the hospital. I looked at your face and barely recognized it, just didn't seem to be you. I just didn't want to remember you like that....and I don't think you would want me to either.
It's been years since that awful time, the family you created loves you just as much now as we did then. We'd give anything to hear your voice one more time...
I'm still thinking of you, wherever you are.
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Submitted by ticklish_squirrel (user info) at 2007-06-01 19:25:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
you broke my heart, bud.
Submitted by Progr3ss (user info) at 2007-05-31 21:16:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Abbey (user info) at 2007-05-31 17:14:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fortunately, something I have not had to endure.
Submitted by i_can_get_you_a_toe (user info) at 2007-05-31 16:56:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by BranDo (user info) at 2007-05-31 08:46:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Not 'kicker of all ass' but so damm close to home that it pushes up the tears in my eyes.
1 week from now it'll be 3 years for me and my family and I miss him still every day.
Sorry for your loss too.
Submitted by Void_Where_Prohibited (user info) at 2007-05-31 08:27:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
This could have been written better I think. It seemed a bit rushed. The topic itself could have inspired more imagery than it did. But overall, it was good. And I'm sorry for your loss.
Submitted by Fabish (user info) at 2007-05-31 01:36:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Yeah if this post relevant to reality then do your best to ignore the idiotic random "YOU SUCK" comments. They'll be everywhar.
Submitted by beeltea (user info) at 2007-05-31 00:28:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
meh
Submitted by captainamerica13 (user info) at 2007-05-30 23:04:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks, I figured I'd get it off my chest, maybe people would relate to this a bit....and see that this person was a human being, not a statistic.
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-05-30 23:01:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sorry. What I should have said was that I can relate very much. Just figured I'd let mine speak for itself. I enjoyed this..brings back memories.
Submitted by captainamerica13 (user info) at 2007-05-30 22:56:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
? Thanks... I think. I finally came back to uber after being gone a while and figured I'd post about someone close to me who passed a few years back. I'm sorry it happened to you too.
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-05-30 22:44:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Mine
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