Awake I dream (290 hits)
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Submitted by Zerachi (View user info) at 2007-07-11 12:48:45 EDT
Some things should be left well enough alone, so they say.
Who might they be? Certainly not I; and even were I they, I'd not refer to myself in third person. Or perhaps I would, were I they. I don't know how inflated their egos are. I of course, did not believe them. Were I they, I would have then been denying myself, or my own better judgment. That wouldn't be too far a stretch, but I'm not a schizophrenic.
I theorize: the subconscious is source for all creativity, due to its ability of breaking down past input to such an imperceptible level it's completely unrecognizable from its original context. Like it or not, nobody makes things up from scratch. Somewhere, their subconscious added on horns, scales, and colored that dog purple before pushing it into the fore-front of realized thoughts - barking mad, as are you. Perhaps it took the scales from a lizard, color from a balloon that your older brother popped when you were six, and horns from the moldy deer head that your uncle chuck "bagged with a pistol in 77'" (He really got it from a flea market, but don't tell him I told you.)
Given this theory as a truth for the sake of argument (suspend your belief for a moment, please. Just think of it like the time your step father told you that you needed to keep your door unlocked at night in case of an EMERGENCY.) Supposing this, then - would not ultimate creativity, ultimate memory be served by unlocking the subconscious, controlling it, bringing it to the surface? Failing that, perhaps converting portions of it to rational, realized, thought - some is better than none, if you can't have custody of both children then cut one in half. Remember to lay out a tarp - you wouldn't want to stain that nice new imitation cherry flooring that you just put down. Why were you motivated by home depot ads anyway? Don't answer that, it's rhetorical in nature - you'd only fuel my point.
I succeed, and it is glorious. Not to the full extent, no - but unlocked a vein of creativity, something for nothing - not at all as the candy that man promised you after school: no hidden cost. So many stories, plethora of information spewed directly into my active thoughts, similar to how the cat projectile vomited down the stairs after eating a rancid mole. Input excess, my mind reels. I need to process this, control, direct it. My wife is yelling at me, its 11:30 and I should be getting to sleep if I hope to be at work on time for tomorrow's meeting.
Wait.
I don't have a wife. How is she yelling? This is not optimal. I shan't accomplish anything with figments berating me.
Escape.
Out into the night, I wander. I search. Eventually, I drive.
I'm at work. It's dark, closed, locked. I have keys. I don't recall bringing these; do I still have them on me from this morning? Not that it matters. Inside is familiar, yet warped. Twisted, by the nether of darkness and lack of humanity - why do I perceive a familiar building creepy when I'm perfectly content to wander through black alleys?
The church bells ring and time marches on.
Church bells don't ring, they toll. Why are the church bells ringing?
Because that's a phone, not a church bell: answer it, idiot.
"Hello?"
Only a dial tone deigns to reply. Was there anyone calling, was the phone ringing? Why do I hear it, even now?
Probably the same reason I hear someone walking up the stairs. Lunging out of my office, I eye the stairwell suspiciously. Nobody is there; nor will they be for another eight hours. I can feel the blood pulse through my body, in every vein. Is this how addicts feel when they're in withdrawal?
I cannot sleep. This was brought on by not sleeping for days, but how can I sleep now? The phones ring and phantoms walk here; at home my specter of matrimony still waits.
I must sleep to dispel this façade, for awake I am dreaming.
If I dream awake a nightmare, will it fade ere I sleep? Shall its intensity rise, or diminish?
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Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-07-13 00:51:15 EDT (#)
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Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-07-12 02:32:05 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-07-11 18:04:37 EDT (#)
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It felt pretentious, I'm normally ok with that. But I didn't read it this time, so if I find out it sucks, I'll be sad.
Submitted by i_can_get_you_a_toe (user info) at 2007-07-11 17:46:30 EDT (#)
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i'm confused.
Submitted by lover101 (user info) at 2007-07-11 13:29:44 EDT (#)
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I dont know why I am giving this a +2. I dont even know what the hell it was about.
Submitted by simple_catalyst (user info) at 2007-07-11 12:49:19 EDT (#)
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