Sidewalk Reminiscence (906 hits)
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Submitted by OathMeel (View user info) at 2007-07-19 08:33:52 EDT
Sunday, April 16, 2006
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I hate how life is sometimes just like a country song - a long, slow, sad one that stays in your head for days.
As I sit here typing this I do believe that I'm as sad as I've been in months. Just yesterday I was riding my bike innocently enough down the street when there just ahead of me was walking a couple of young people.
A man and a woman strided carelessly down the sidewalk, hands held, both with beaming smiles on their faces taking in the midday sun. On the right was Tara, my ex-girlfriend. On the left was a tall, broad, handsome man of probably 30 years or so.
Tara and I were together for about a year. I will say that the year we spent as a pair was one of the most blissful and memorable years of my life. I remember making love to her with the french doors open ... watching her sleep early in the morning well before either of us had to get up for work. I remember how her dog had an insatiable appetite for belly rubs.
I really don't think there is an evil or ill-willed bone in Tara's body. She always was ultimately compassionate and respectful with only the highest regard for matters of the spirit. Though deaf in her left ear, Tara could pick up on any vibe, anywhere.
She was amazing.
She broke up with me for the last time by sending me a package of all the personal effects I had left at her house the last time I stayed with her. A belt, some shirts, my old Specialized biking hat ... all carefully folded and shipped with care along with a 5-page letter explaining her decision.
Tara was 38. I was 26. This 'relationship' didn't stand a chance and we both knew it. It was she however who had the wherewithal and courage to up and sever ties with both our interests in mind.
But none of this makes it any easier today.
As Tara and her beau passed me on the street I tried to get a solid look at her. I couldn't, because the glasses she was wearing were very mirrored. What I could determine though was that she was very, very happy. Walking hand-in-hand with a healthy, smart (I'm sure) and kind man who I hope takes excellent care of her, she was smiling broadly right at him, looking up with an expression of care and perhaps even love on her face.
I had to stop pedalling about 30 yards after I passed them. I put both feet down on the concrete, straddling my bike, and silently wept for a few seconds. Though she may be off to a new relationship with someone fantastic, she's still inadvertently yanking the strings sewn into my heart.
But as much as it hurts to miss her, I know there's no sense in stewing. Nor is there any sense in hoping for a rekindling of any sort as I'm sure she's learned better than to date men so much younger than herself.
I think I've only felt this low about a relationship-gone-sour when my heart was first broken about 10 years ago. I wish it got easier to stomach with age. Unfortunately it doesn't.
Through my few tears I made it the rest of the way home and parked my bike against the wall of my apartment. I took my helmet off and pet my dog Loki, who was, as ever, happy to see me. I shook off my gloves and plopped on the couch, sighing heavily.
There I sat feeling sad and rejected, thinking to myself:
"Well, at least she's happy."
And I guess I can be glad about that.
User Reviews
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-07-25 03:02:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
heh you do make me laugh, then I wonder why and just shake my head and trot along.
Submitted by PhillipTheGreat (user info) at 2007-07-25 02:08:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
YOU HAD SECKS WITH YOUR DOG?
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-20 08:23:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Lungy and Fatlina, don't you two get it?
OathMeal = ubersite whipping post
The sooner you stop hemming and hawing about the why's and why not's of my actions here the sooner you'll grow to appreciate the awesomeness I emanate with every review, post and uberboard submission.
-2's and infantile insults are merely fuel. So keep it up.
:o)
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-07-20 04:19:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Yeah...
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-07-20 04:17:34 EDT (#)
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In fact I bet you sat up all night with your eyes squeezed tight, desperately trying to think of a good insult... "hmm.. now what can I call that internet person that I don't know?... old..fat... aaaaand.. oh yeh ugly! That'll make her cry"
grow some brain cells.
or try and get your own personality instead of stealing Cauls favourite insults.
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-07-20 03:48:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Holy shit the wife is old.
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-07-20 03:35:21 EDT (#)
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I kind of liked the post, but why be a constant dick in your reviews? No offense intended, of course.
My wife's 11 years older than I am.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-07-20 03:22:23 EDT (#)
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ha ha ha ha
your 'insults' are very weak. Work on them.
Submitted by i_can_get_you_a_toe (user info) at 2007-07-19 21:32:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
No Comment
Submitted by Zeglamancer (user info) at 2007-07-19 19:49:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This story could only have been better if the new man had jammed a stick into the front spoke of your tires as you passed, than him and "Tara" walked over your mangled crying form in the mud. Effectively transforming you into a bridge for them to cross the mudstream.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-07-19 19:39:51 EDT (#)
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'uberboard: scourge is jealous of orgasmo and stagger lee and weeps bitterly at their uber-popularity HAHAHAHA'
is this the fifth or sixth dollar you've wasted on me this week, loser? get a life you obsessed freak. OR lose the life that your body presently possesses. that one would actually make everyone a lot happier.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 17:48:06 EDT (#)
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the review below was hilarious
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 17:27:39 EDT (#)
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Merlina, you are fat and ugly. I imagine my life is head and shoulders better than yours on account of that fact alone.
Please stop going out of your way to fuck with me and I promise I won't make you out to be the worthless hag you are.
Submitted by allonym (user info) at 2007-07-19 17:19:27 EDT (#)
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So the new guy was 8 rather than 12 years younger?
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-07-19 17:07:30 EDT (#)
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What's on tap for dinner tonight, Swanson?
Is it the meatloaf with mashed potatoes (for one), or the spaghetti and meatballs (for one)?
Submitted by Director (user info) at 2007-07-19 17:07:25 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Unabonger (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:07:43 EDT (#)
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Shut the fuck up, Oathmeal.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-07-19 16:53:28 EDT (#)
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Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:32:54 EDT (#)
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No, THIS is shit.
Is everything in your life as fucked up as your taste in Ubersite posts, bitch?
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oh, on the contrary sweetheart, my life is awesome.
Unlike yours I'd imagine.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-07-19 15:32:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This is a very appropriate post coming from the spokesperson for Swanson's LonelyMan teevee dinners...
Submitted by no1hasdis (user info) at 2007-07-19 15:19:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Rejection is something I would expect you to be quite accustomed to by now.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 15:09:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Hi Beano!
:o)
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2007-07-19 15:00:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Totally awesome man.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:43:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Bob, you are so cruel.
*cries*
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:41:51 EDT (#)
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Haha.
You got crumpled.
By a chick.
Submitted by icarus1987 (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:36:03 EDT (#)
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And from what you said,
I know you've gotten over meeee
(This one goes out to you, roidspaz)
It'll never be the WAY it used to beeee
So if it's gotta be this waaaaaaay
(Pedal your bike and sob quietly, you ginger mangina)
Don't worry BAY-BY I can TAKE THE NEW OKAY--
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:33:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by storm (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:20:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
ATTENTION:
PSA: OATH IS OFFICIALLY 0-5 IN CHESS WHEN PLAYING AGAINST ME.
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Lies.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:25:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
http://stuff.ubersite.com/1166494364105132438/1/InternetWonder.mpa
Submitted by storm (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:20:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
ATTENTION:
PSA: OATH IS OFFICIALLY 0-5 IN CHESS WHEN PLAYING AGAINST ME.
Submitted by icarus1987 (user info) at 2007-07-19 14:02:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:40:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:49:09 EDT (#)
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this post was shit, so you got a shit rating. way to be a fucking crybaby about it you mentally unstable bitch.
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I agree with scourge.
This IS shit.
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I would like to add:
You called me up this mornin'
Told me 'bout the new love you found
I said I'm happy for ya
I'm really happy for ya
Found someone else
Guess I won't be comin' round
I guess it's over babe
It's really over babe
Wooooaaaaaah
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:42:26 EDT (#)
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Hows everyone doing tonight!!
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:40:24 EDT (#)
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Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:49:09 EDT (#)
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this post was shit, so you got a shit rating. way to be a fucking crybaby about it you mentally unstable bitch.
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I agree with scourge.
This IS shit.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:23:37 EDT (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/110281
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:16:33 EDT (#)
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Wow who peed in your weed, Unabonger?
Submitted by Unabonger (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:07:43 EDT (#)
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Shut the fuck up, Oathmeal.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 13:02:13 EDT (#)
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lol
I <3 caul
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:51:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
either way...stfu
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:39:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:10:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:31:54 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:30:20 EDT (#)
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i've never cared about theory in music.
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Ah.
That would explain why you fucking suck on the guitar.
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you're so badass.
are you basing yourself on that stupid soundbit i posted where i was more trying out someone's zoom pedal than actually playing?
ok.
i have no decent recording gear to prove otherwise and it's not like i give a shit.
all i know is that what you posted sounded very novice and your tendency to measure your guitare skills with other people is something typical of n00bs who don't know better.
you'll understand that when you reach maturity...that is when you stop injecting yourself growth hormones that turn you into an enraged child.
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What I put into my body shouldn't really be any of your concern.
I can appreciate, however, your point about measuring my guitar skills against others. Why do you think I do that? Perhaps it's because I really AM that good and want ALLLLLLLL of ubersite to know it.
...then again, maybe it's a ploy for heat and attention. YOU decide.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:38:17 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Tom (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:22:32 EDT (#)
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I don't know what you did exactly but you're a fuckin' lightning rod.
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Well whatever I did it surely had nothing to do with asking Ghola for a date.
I don't fuck with emo hicks.
Submitted by Tom (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:22:32 EDT (#)
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I don't know what you did exactly but you're a fuckin' lightning rod.
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:16:23 EDT (#)
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Attention. Heat.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:10:28 EDT (#)
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Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:31:54 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:30:20 EDT (#)
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i've never cared about theory in music.
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Ah.
That would explain why you fucking suck on the guitar.
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you're so badass.
are you basing yourself on that stupid soundbit i posted where i was more trying out someone's zoom pedal than actually playing?
ok.
i have no decent recording gear to prove otherwise and it's not like i give a shit.
all i know is that what you posted sounded very novice and your tendency to measure your guitare skills with other people is something typical of n00bs who don't know better.
you'll understand that when you reach maturity...that is when you stop injecting yourself growth hormones that turn you into an enraged child.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-07-19 12:06:40 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:53:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
I always need heat and attention you fucking failure.
And you always deliver, scourge. Always.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:51:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
uberboard: 'Oathmeal is just pissed because Ghola wouldn't go on a date with him. Poor, lonely 'roid boy.'
she told me this was true, btw. glad to see someone put it up on the board.
now i'm done with this post, you don't need any more heat or attention.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:49:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
it would be the best, and only, action you ever had you fucking pathetic pile of shit.
this post was shit, so you got a shit rating. way to be a fucking crybaby about it you mentally unstable bitch.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:46:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Fuck you Scourge. Lick my asscrack and enjoy it you ugly son of a bitch.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:41:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
emo garbage
Submitted by icarus1987 (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:36:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
IF YOU SEE ME WALKIN' BY
AND THE TEARS ARE IN MY EYE
LOOK AWAY, BABY, LOOK AWAAAAAAAAAAY
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:31:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:30:20 EDT (#)
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i've never cared about theory in music.
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Ah.
That would explain why you fucking suck on the guitar.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:30:20 EDT (#)
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i don't know what's the locrian mode but i'm assuming with the rest of the sentence it's something about music. i've never cared about theory in music.
all i care about is facial products and the amount of sessions remaining on my tanning salon subscription.
Submitted by orph (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:29:31 EDT (#)
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Not bad.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:26:31 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:20:41 EDT (#)
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Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:11:10 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:57:15 EDT (#)
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that's disconcerting.
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Was 'disconcerting' the word of the day at www.esl.com?
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are you saying it's a "big" word?
i use "déconcertant" in french and i remembered the translation from the movie Saving Private Ryan when Tom Hanks reacts to the german propaganda officer : "'Your statye of liberty is kaput'...how disconcerting" or something like that
anything else you wanna know, Anabolicus?
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Yea, there is one question that's been nagging me recently.
Why is it that the Locrian mode isn't like any of the other modes? I mean, it's not a true scale shape and it doesn't follow any of the patterns that the other modes do.
So like, wtf?
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:25:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
i'm always amazed how some people here don't even know ordinary words from their own language.
i guess when you talk like kinda like, you know like, like totally and like you know kinda like tottaly like most anglo-speakers, you don't have much use for words, eh?
Submitted by experima (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:24:01 EDT (#)
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hi, B!
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:20:41 EDT (#)
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Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:11:10 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:57:15 EDT (#)
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that's disconcerting.
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Was 'disconcerting' the word of the day at www.esl.com?
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are you saying it's a "big" word?
i use "déconcertant" in french and i remembered the translation from the movie Saving Private Ryan when Tom Hanks reacts to the german propaganda officer : "'Your statye of liberty is kaput'...how disconcerting" or something like that
anything else you wanna know, Anabolicus?
Submitted by storm (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:20:17 EDT (#)
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You are a fucking cry baby!
DO a barrel roll!
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 11:11:10 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:57:15 EDT (#)
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that's disconcerting.
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Was 'disconcerting' the word of the day at www.esl.com?
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:59:01 EDT (#)
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No ones ever asked me out :(
*hint* hint*
God, I so know that Drogo will, luckily he seems to be busy today
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:57:15 EDT (#)
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that's disconcerting.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:56:31 EDT (#)
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Aulain you watch your fucking mouth you little faggot lest I mark you as the next victim of a severe crumpling.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:52:03 EDT (#)
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if u ask me...all those georgia people are candidates for zyklon-b soup
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 10:44:08 EDT (#)
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FOR THE RECORD I NEVER ASKED GHOLA OUT. THAT IS A VICIOUS RUMOR AND YOU PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH.
GHOLA IS HALF MAN. SHLONGY IS HALF WOMAN. THUS, THEM MEETING AT SOME OBSCURE BAR IN THE SOUTHEAST WAS DESTINY.
KINDLY GET OFF MY NUTS ABOUT LIKING THAT SKANK SHE IS A WORTHLESS, STEAMING HEAP OF DUNG WHO WRITES LIKE A CHIMP AFTER A LOBOTOMY.
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2007-07-19 09:51:36 EDT (#)
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While I must say you're a goddamn pussy, your dog's got the same name as mine. The world's a cosmic fucked-up place I tell ya.
Submitted by lover101 (user info) at 2007-07-19 09:50:40 EDT (#)
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she left you because you have a tiny pee-pee
Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2007-07-19 09:50:31 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by SunnyG (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:50:49 EDT (#)
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Everything you ever wanted to know about sweetkisses
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Submitted by SunnyG (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:48:03 EDT (#)
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know what you mean.
Submitted by sweetkisses (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:47:03 EDT (#)
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Jesus Christ you are a fucking eyesore. Get off this website, dumbshit.
Submitted by raebuf (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:43:56 EDT (#)
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Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:39:32 EDT (#)
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have you posted this before?
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Yes.
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:39:32 EDT (#)
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have you posted this before? it's very familar.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-07-19 08:37:57 EDT (#)
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Go eat another Salisbury Steak.