Forget Me Not (897 hits)
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Submitted by LittleMonster (View user info) at 2007-07-25 18:46:43 EDT
Apparently I have to let you go now. It's a funny concept to me, seeing as we left you behind nearly a year ago. That's how I see it. We left you behind. The days rolled by and the nights got cooler, but for you, they stayed the same. For you they would always be the same balmy summer night. We would see countless days of rain and you would always be left with the one, beautiful summers evening, with clear skies and still water. Just the sticky, sweet smell of rotting fruit and the occasional sound of nails scratching sweaty, mosquito bitten skin to ruin our home grown perfection.
I didn't even realise I hadn't left you there. I didn't notice that I carried on like I would see you each morning, or that in the fullness of time I would come to sit by your side and take it for granted. Yet this evening, when the people we cared most about, told me I need to leave your memory sat on our balcony, I knew that I had never walked even a mile without you.
You hated to walk. Walking was for people with too much time.
How can I say goodbye to you, when it's not just you I'm letting go of? I'm not just saying goodbye to you, I'm saying goodbye to our dreams and our plans. I don't want to think of a future without us sharing our morning coffee and I don't want fight with anyone else over the comfiest seat on the sofa. Where's that disapproving stare at my morning cigarette? Why didn't I even realise it's only your voice in my head welcoming me home at night? Why only last week did I realise how strange it was to only be making sandwiches for one at lunch time, or how I have begun to use pickle again, when I had stopped because you hated it? I never got to show you the bottle of Branston "smooth" I found. You always loved the pickle, but not the chunks. Two days too late Branston brought out smooth pickle. I know exactly how you would have smiled and I know you would have demanded it with every meal for at least three weeks. I would have rolled my eyes and you would have playful let out a long-suffering whimper. It was the way of things.
You don't belong here any more. Not in my world or my heart, you haven't for a long time now. I can't pretend that you do. I don't look at the shirt you once loved, or buy the milk you always favoured. I don't miss you in the mornings or when I'm tired home from work. I don't catch my breath when I see your picture or if some one mentions your name.
Did I mention I'm a liar about you these days?
Have I ever told you quietly in my sleep, how I don't speak about you to anyone? Does it hurt you? They ask me about you. It's "healthy" to talk about you. Maybe it makes you sad, to think that I don't want to share my memories. I pretend I haven't heard when you come up in conversation; I turn my head and light another cigarette. I pretend you never existed. I look unflinchingly in to our friends' eyes and ask "who?" when they look to me to be consoled. I know they hurt too and I hate seeing them going over that last night in their own minds. They want to forget you though, they think that the more comfortable everyone becomes at accepting your absence, the easier it will be to forget you. To forget how responsible we all are for what happened.
We are responsible. You know and we know.
So. Where does this leave us? I think I'm supposed to be looking at the future for the first time without you.
Maybe I could try do that tomorrow, or maybe we could just keep things as they are. This way I can fall asleep and pretend tomorrow you will be lying beside me like you are supposed to be. That tomorrow you would have forgiven me for the silly fight about the cracked windowpane. More importantly though, that tomorrow I would tell you so honestly and simply, so you could never question it or doubt it, just how much I loved you.
I'll start forgetting you tomorrow. Promise.
User Reviews
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2007-11-25 17:47:32 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
fuck
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2007-11-25 17:47:18 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-11-20 09:11:29 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
BEAN
Good read, finnish it though, or just have it continued on another post.
So how goes it? been more than a while since we caught up. Life not kicking you too hard I hope.
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Life is fuckin awesome... being a dad rocks !!
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-10-20 04:53:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sleepless hours and dreamless nights and far aways
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
Heaven knows and lord it shows when I'm away
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
Same old show in a different town on another time
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
Even though you're far away, you're on my mind
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
And I'd like to change my life, and you know I would
Just to be with you tonight, baby, if I could
But I've got my job to do, and I do it well,
So I guess thats how it is.
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
On the road it's a heavy load, but I'll get by
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
Pay the price, make a sacrifice, and still I'll try
Ooo ooo ooo, wishing you were here
Submitted by steph (user info) at 2007-09-06 23:50:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Loved this.
Submitted by Ballare (user info) at 2007-09-06 13:03:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by AllyJeans (user info) at 2007-09-06 12:49:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow. I don't know what else to say.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-08-09 02:28:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow. Perfect.
Apologies for the linkwhore - is a post with the same name..
http://www.ubersite.com/m/108765
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-07-31 14:20:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was really good.
Submitted by vergedor (user info) at 2007-07-31 14:07:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You call her previous post a boob shot?
She's completly dressed and show a bit of cleavage... and you get an "unforgetable" memory?
I recommend you stay in your redneck trailor park. If you go to Europe, you wont ever be able to forget all the advertisement thrown at you. These are real boob shots.
Anyway, I enjoyed the read
Submitted by Prime36L (user info) at 2007-07-30 18:27:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Somewhere in here is a Kelly Jones/Stereophonics song trying to get out.
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-07-27 17:23:20 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-07-26 19:55:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Lovely.
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Thank you
Submitted by sir_cowman (user info) at 2007-07-27 08:01:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
auto +2 little monster
Submitted by haikumikoo (user info) at 2007-07-26 23:04:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 for reminding me of this song The Beatles (George singing) covered on some live at the BBC thing.
"I forgot, to remember...to forget"
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-07-26 19:55:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Lovely.
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-07-26 18:00:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Christ, the people who I have been missing came out to rate.
WRITE SOMETHING YOU BLOODY LURKERS!
Good to know your still here. Cheers for stopping by.
YES I'M TALKING TO YOU
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-07-26 17:53:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Shlongy....How could I possibly live up to the last? *cringe*
Though I could try and better it. Baby oil and lesbians? Or just crashing surf and a see through bikini?
When do we get your cleavage shot?
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-07-26 13:45:16 EDT (#)
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Yeah...how about an updated boob shot?
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-07-26 13:26:32 EDT (#)
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The boobs live on
Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2007-07-26 09:48:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-07-26 09:33:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
very nice
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-07-26 08:59:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
HI TITS MCHEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Submitted by czwij (user info) at 2007-07-26 08:46:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
fucking hell guys!
how could you be so shallow and concentrate only on one thing.
she puts her breast into a post and all you can think about are the sexual connotations that it may bring.
some people!
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-07-26 08:10:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-07-25 19:45:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
How could I ever forget those tits?
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Damn good writing, but unfortunately, the only thing I can think of when your username pops up is all that wonderfully untamed cleavage...
*sigh*
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2007-07-26 05:06:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Condolences.
Submitted by Ducky (user info) at 2007-07-26 04:58:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by DrogoRoch (user info) at 2007-07-26 04:28:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Beautiful LM, really beautiful.
Submitted by orph (user info) at 2007-07-26 04:04:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Sinistral (user info) at 2007-07-26 01:29:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-07-25 19:45:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
How could I ever forget those tits?
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That is EXACTLY what I thought when I first saw the title. Shame on me.
Submitted by Stagger_Lee (user info) at 2007-07-25 21:46:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Not smiling exactly.
Submitted by Director (user info) at 2007-07-25 19:46:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
nice.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-07-25 19:45:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
How could I ever forget those tits?
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2007-07-25 19:33:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
wonderful.
Submitted by experima (user info) at 2007-07-25 18:53:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
<3
Submitted by ikari_shinji (user info) at 2007-07-25 18:50:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
*applauds*