UGR - I need a Wrench (729 hits)
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Submitted by drogoroch (View user info) at 2007-08-23 09:47:08 EDT
It starts and ends at the same time. All that was ends and a simple new existence begins. It isn't hard to do; you just have to want it enough. This is my third time now and it's getting easier all the time; the only thing to be aware of is making it look different each time. As I say it's what I do, and I'm good at it.
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The last moments are chaos. There are hands everywhere and panic sets in. You don't really hear the crash you feel it. It goes through your whole body; the sound just seems to be part of the physical impact. There was screaming but you don't really know where it's coming from, chances are that it could be you screaming.
You're then plunged into silence really and the wait begins.
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"How are you bearing up mate? Actually that's a stupid question forget I asked it."
"No, no I'm good. The nightmares aren't as bad now and the pain isn't as constant in my leg. I'm ready to be here."
"Well it's good to have you back bud, but make sure you don't over do it. We are all thinking of you mate; it's tragic what happened, really tragic. She was a great woman. If you need to go, if you feel you can't do anymore you just up and leave mate, we will all understand. We are here for you buddy."
"I appreciate that Frank, I really do, its means so much. I just feel that I have to get back to things. The more I sit at home the more I think about it, and Sarah, and I.....I just have to get my mind on other things."
"Well the door is always open Matt, pop in anytime."
"I will. Thanks."
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Applause hit you as you walk into the office for the first time. It's a strange sensation really; almost like you have achieved some promotion or won an award. Why do they applaud you? Well it's simple. They see you fighting against the heart ache and pain and struggling on to get your life back on track. They see you as a model of how we should all lead our lives.
It's also part of the reason I do it.
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"In your learned opinion Dr De Souza what was the state of mind of the deceased, Mrs Sarah Williams, prior to the accident?"
"Mrs Williams had been into see me frequently during the months leading up to her death. She was experiencing symptoms of depression and confusion. She felt that she was stating to, as she put it, 'lose her mind'. She explained of a number of situations where she had forgotten that she had done things, some as simple as where she had placed her handbag others more worrying, such as forgetting to bring the baby in from the garden on a sunny day.
"I put Mrs Williams on anti depressants and counselled her as best I could. In session she seemed to be lucid and coherent and I struggled to find serious cause for concern in her. She was a loving mother and happy wife. The death of her first child 2 years previously played on her mind, but not morbidly so. I did not see her as an imminent suicide risk."
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"Harold don't blame yourself. It wasn't your fault, if anyone should be blamed it should be me. I should have seen that she was unhappy and tried to help her more. Maybe if I hadn't been working so much then I would have been able to see what was happening, but....."
"Don't start that Matt; it wasn't you at all. You loved my daughter completely we could all see that. Christ I remember when you first came over to see us with Sarah. I don't think I had ever seen her so happy. You were the one for her she knew it and I knew it, and her mother knew it too. You went through so much together. When baby Jonathon died I thought she may have given up but you were there; you saw her through that and let her see a future and convinced her to try again. Christ how will we tell Catherine when she is older enough to understand? I just wished I could understand why she did what she did. We loved her. Where did we go wrong?"
I hug the old man in his grief and we cry together. Its part of it all, you have to get it right.
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"This has been a very hard case for me as coroner to deal with. It is hard to even imagine what must have passed through Mrs Williams mind before she made her decision to act in the way she did. In one act of selfishness a Mother and Father are robbed of a Daughter, a Husband a wife and saddest of all a child loses its mother. On review of the evidence I find that Mrs Williams was not acting in her right mind when she took the decision to drive her car off the road. I find no fault with the medical practitioners involved as it appears that Mrs Williams had become very good at putting up a front of seeming okay. My sincere condolences go out to those that she left behind. I close this as a case of Suicide."
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Some may consider it strange but you have to understand that it's a hunger. Normal food doesn't touch it. You can eat as much as you could possibly want and it still won't touch the sides. I actually find that it turns me off my food in the run up to it. It's all worth it in the end though. When the platitudes and the attention hits you its all worth it.
The only problem is making it look good. That's why I pick the ones I love. In order for it to work properly I need to feel genuine heart ache at the loss. I need to feel the wrench inside me.
When I look at Catherine in her cot I hope that I can keep her safe from it but, as my mother, baby Jonathan and Sarah could tell you I can't really make that kind of promise any more.
User Reviews
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-08-24 20:23:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent use of title, my dear.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2007-08-24 08:32:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was a kick ass tale...
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-08-23 19:31:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2007-08-23 17:36:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
well played sir.
Submitted by JulsInsane (user info) at 2007-08-23 15:54:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by JulsInsane (user info) at 2007-08-23 13:27:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Today has been really boring around here so Im going to respectfully request that one of you have a emotional meltdown, post nude photos of yourself, fuck another uberuser and then create ensuing drama, or post a photo of yourself in general touting your beauty despite your inability to fit through a standard 3-0 x 7-0 door frame.
GET ON IT!
MUSH BITCHES MUSH!!
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-08-23 14:55:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
s'alright
Submitted by SgtHartman (user info) at 2007-08-23 13:14:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
wild story, and my name is Matt. Oooooooooooooo creeeeeepy...
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-08-23 13:00:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I still haven't drummed up an idea for this title, but I'm refraining from reading yours at the moment so it won't influence me.
So far the only ideas I have involve:
A) a monkey ranch
B) some sort of time travel AND a monkey ranch
C) the untimely death of a plumber
Submitted by For_Pony (user info) at 2007-08-23 12:49:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Except for the lack of editing, this was a very enjoyable story. I look forward to seeing what you come up with in the next round.
Submitted by Director (user info) at 2007-08-23 12:40:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-08-23 12:22:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Good story.
I thought the father's dialogue and the coroner's dialogue could use a bit of work.
Submitted by azurefroz (user info) at 2007-08-23 11:54:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-08-23 11:36:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Thanks, I'll do that.
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:58:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by DrogoRoch (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:57:44 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:51:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice take on the title. It's a little unusual to see you writing seriously, I shall have to dig into your past at some stage and read what you've put out here.
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I've tried serious in the past and failed miserably. Try the Coffee and Jasmine stories I was actually reasonably pleased with that one, and it includes a wee bit of titilation too.
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:51:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice take on the title. It's a little unusual to see you writing seriously, I shall have to dig into your past at some stage and read what you've put out here.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:50:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:44:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by experima (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:38:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
nice one
Submitted by KazuSpeed (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:33:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Morbid. Seems like a form of Munchausen by Proxy Syndrome. good stuff
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:24:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I have one thing to say to you
Stapler.
Submitted by Amontillado (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:23:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by orph (user info) at 2007-08-23 10:03:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I really liked this one.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-08-23 09:58:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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