UGR - Lips Like Morphine (619 hits)
Category: GeneralRating: 1.42 on 47 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (View user info) at 2007-09-04 13:32:28 EDT
I met her three years ago in a pub downtown. Just a pub, nothing special; a small bar, smoky, and dark it wasn't necessarily the kind of place people go to look for a relationship but it happened.
I saw her across the room and was taken in by her full ruby red lips. As I watched her I saw those lips part, ever slow slowly to reveal an incredible smile. I asked the bartender to drop her a drink for me and watched as he delivered it, pointing me out to her. She immediately got out of her seat and made her way through the smoky haze of the pub to come sit next to me.
Man was it heaven. As she neared I watched the sway of her lips, the bounce of her breasts and then I caught the most entrancing scent, her scent. Our conversation started easy and never stopped, talking about nothing and everything.
I asked her for he phone number and she sheepishly smiled as she handed it to me on a bar napkin. As the pub closed for the night I walked her to her car, her arm in mine, and as we reached it I turned her ever so gently toward me to give her a kiss. A chaste kiss, a small smack on the lips, that left me feeling euphoria I'd never experienced before.
I didn't bother waiting to call; she was far too enticing to let even an hour pass. I called as soon as I got home and we talked, as we had in the bar, about nothing and everything for the next three hours, well into the early morning. Before I hung up with her I arranged our first date for the next night.
Most of us have been on dates so I'll spare you the details but the reason I'm telling this story brings our kiss goodnight back into play. This time I savored her kiss, drinking in the taste of her and feeling that euphoria. She pulled away and I felt faint, numb, but happier than I'd ever been before. I know now where these feelings come from and can tell you that every kiss has been like this or better. Even stranger still is the fact that if I injure myself in any way her kiss seems to dull the pain, erase it from my mind in a way I've never experienced.
So as I said, that was three years ago. I now know I have a problem. I am addicted to her kiss. I can't get enough of it and sadly now that's the last thing I want. During these three years I've discovered things I don't like about her, little things really but when they're all totaled up I just can't see myself staying with this person. Unfortunately every time I've tried to talk to her about it I find myself kissing her and thoughts of leaving are erased by the blissful feeling of nothing and then we continue on.
That's how it's been. Worse though is that if I don't see her, more importantly, if I don't kiss her I start to feel horrible. I get sweaty and shaky and feel an incessant urge to find her and just kiss those lips. My friends know how I feel about her and have seen the effect this relationship has had on me and the first few times I talked about leaving her they supported me.
They supported me as friends are supposed to, helping to remember not to call her, not to go looking for her. They supported me until the night they tried to actually stop me from going to see her. They were staying with me, knowing that I was trying to break free from her and knowing I needed the company. They were staying with me because they saw my need to be with her as unhealthy and destructive.
We were sitting in my living room and I casually mentioned that I'd called her and had plans to see her that evening. My friends were, as always, upset with me for giving in yet again and tried once again to remind me why I was trying to get away from this woman. They told me that the way they saw it they were losing their friend to her and that my health was suffering too. I got up to leave and they told me they couldn't let me go, that they would not let me go to her.
Even as I felt powerless to stop it and knew in my heart that it was the last thing I wanted to do I struck out and hit my friends. I fought them then and there in my living room and as they lay there on the floor imploring me to see what this relationship was doing to me, I stormed out and ran to her. I ran to her kiss and drank it in feeling the release and relief I'd come to count on from her.
So now, after losing my friends and feeling the decline of my health, I've learned why I run to this woman. It's not because I love her or because I'm lonely or because of any reason normal people might have for continuing a harmful relationship. It's because I am literally addicted to her kiss. I received an anonymous letter today from someone who knows my girlfriend. They've given me enough information about her to make the letter credible and more importantly what they disclosed makes sense in a scary way.
In short the letter said that the sender had been in a relationship with her and had gone through all that I've been through. It went on to say that the sender had to go to treatment for an addiction to morphine even though they'd never used the drug themselves. All of the symptoms, all of the irrational need to kiss her, everything I've been through was described in great detail by someone I don't know and I totally believe them. Further the sender detailed several deaths of men she'd been involved with in the past, all ruled suicide or overdose by the coroner but all so easily placed on her, specifically on her lips, her lips like morphine.
I am not willing to go through any more withdrawal. My life is such a mess that I can't stand the thought of struggling through to make things right again. I honestly have nothing left to live for and so I've decided to end this relationship in a way that will prevent her from using her lips against any other person. I'm pretty sure I'll end up dead even as I hope to kill her and so I'll tell you my plan so that no one thinks this is some romantic double suicide or mistake this as a couple of junkies overdosing because they can't control themselves.
My plan is this. I'm going to kiss her to death. I'm going to savor every second of this final kiss and deliver to her, in the same way she has delivered to me, the very thing she's used to keep me coming back but I'm going to make it count. I have three vials of morphine, enough to kill a horse really. I will put the first in my mouth even as I walk through the door of her apartment and I will kiss her, holding her tight, locking my lips to hers to ensure no drop is spilled. If that doesn't seem to be enough, I'll open the second vial and pour it into her mouth and continue our kiss. Death may be too good for her and I know she won't feel it in any meaningful way but it feels right to me and I know I'll enjoy slipping into death in such a sexy slow way.
This is my letter and I suppose you could call it a suicide not because I do intend to die with her today but I want the world to know what this woman has done, this woman with lips like morphine.
User Reviews
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-09-06 23:48:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Have company, deadline's near- will comment in detail later <3 -lishy
Submitted by AllyJeans (user info) at 2007-09-06 10:54:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Haha, what a way to go.... I knew a guy with lips like Coca Cola, but he only gave me headaches and acne ;)
Submitted by Nyrea (user info) at 2007-09-05 12:15:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
No Comment
Submitted by zwerg (user info) at 2007-09-05 09:39:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
No Comment
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-05 08:30:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
What Fey said...
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-09-05 08:11:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
It's all been said.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-05 04:11:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by DrogoRoch (user info) at 2007-09-05 04:03:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I do feel that we both kind of flunked a good title here, but I have to admit that yours was a hell of a lot better than mine.
* Dips hat in your general direction *
Submitted by Stagger_Lee (user info) at 2007-09-04 22:17:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
No Comment
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2007-09-04 21:00:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Great idea, poor execution...
Submitted by forthewin (user info) at 2007-09-04 20:11:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I wanna girl with lips like morphine.
Submitted by Empathetic (user info) at 2007-09-04 20:02:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck Uniter.
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-09-04 19:39:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by DeadToast (user info) at 2007-09-04 19:06:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5VNe9NTOxA
HOLY JESUS FUCK! I love 50's Christianity propaganda!
Submitted by sideshow (user info) at 2007-09-04 16:44:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Crazy.
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2007-09-04 16:08:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
And that should do it. Nice work.
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2007-09-04 16:07:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
So a 1.66666 you shall receive from me.
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2007-09-04 16:07:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I liked this, a tad more than your opponent's...but it does need some further development.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-09-04 15:27:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
rick dees on KIIS
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 15:19:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
well we do have those kinds of sausage here too...... erm..... nevermind. i do not own a cheesehat. I am a transplant here and only feel so at home because of all the lovely lovely beer.
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-09-04 15:17:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
no i had no idea. i like summer sausage, but other than that, not so much.
my friend has a cheese hat. we wear it sometimes when we're feeling festive.
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2007-09-04 15:12:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
thhhhhhhhhhpt
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 15:10:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I could give you the freshest ghola. big round squeaky curds. did you know sausage is also very popular here?
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-09-04 15:04:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
i sure do love cheese. cheese curds, o god how i love cheese curds.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:51:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
not really trying to defend it. I aggreed with the comments just saying I didn't think it was that bad either. i ask for honest rating and have no problem with it even though my campy ass today may seem less than enthused. eh whatever you know I love you ghola. come to cheeseland and I will show you the cheese.
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:41:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
don't waste your time defending your writing saying things like "it wasn't THAT bad."
Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:36:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:33:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
it WAS rushed and underdeveloped. I didn't work all last week and squeezed this out this morning in between working and shit cause I won't have time tonight. still like the idea and didn't think it was THAT bad.
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:30:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
okay idea, but same as badlands says.
plus a few dozen typos.
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:28:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Felt rushed and underdeveloped to me. Ok, I guess.
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:18:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
For the record...I'm a receiver...and I think drogo's was better, but that's just me.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:18:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
ii don't hump. I make luuurrrrve.
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:15:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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ShapeShifter and Brdn_Nkd will now hump.
For the easily offended: please turn off your monitors.
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Submitted by RabiedRooster (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:13:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was even better than that other one. Amazing story seriously had me fixed to the screen. Or maybe thats the weed, but just wow
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:07:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
+ FUCKING 2
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:07:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You will not outdo me, GYPSY. I shall prevail!
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:06:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Typo there, too...but since whining and crying is your thing I'll up your rating a tad.
haha, go look at the rating i just left you on your blog post. love you long time.
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:04:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
"I asked her for he phone number and she sheepishly smiled as she handed it to me on a bar napkin. As the pub closed for the night I walked her to her car, her arm in mine, and as we reached it I turned her ever so gently toward me to give her a kiss."
Typo there, too...but since whining and crying is your thing I'll up your rating a tad.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:04:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
thanks ballare, I intentionally went literal with it because I liked the idea, the idea of being addicted to a person's kiss. I mean sometimes i think we all feel like that a little when we find love or maybe I'm just sooper dooper gay and sensitive and stuff.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:02:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
that's not how I roll. I rated it as I saw fit. not horrible, not great and I even responded to the matter at hand.
and just because I feel like being an ass doesn't mean anything. tis the internet, thicken your skin up a bit yo. go read some of my old stuff or something to make up for your indescretion (or however the fuck you spell that) and then go outside and play a game of hide and go fuck yourself.
Submitted by Ballare (user info) at 2007-09-04 14:01:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Much too literal for such a cool title, but oh-so-well-written...
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 13:56:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Nope, I'm your typical, suck ass noob I guess. I'm pretty worthless so far until I can establish myself a bit better. Feel free to give me the obligatory -2 noob cunt review though seeing how you are acting like a bitch savant named Gretchen.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 13:52:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
that's fine nancy. At least you fucking read it. that's all i'm asking for here.
do you write anything? I looked and I saw one blog type post (which I will now finish reading) and a bunch of theme day posts. whatever.
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 13:50:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Read it and IT DID STICK OUT LIKE A DRAG QUEEN, so my rating is where it should be...you can continue crying now.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 13:47:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
well thank you for the intelligent fucking rating. I actually did read through it and missed that shit at the end. I posted it, came back to the post, and it stuck out of that paragraph like a straight man in a drag show, or something.
anyway, i'm irritable and have not had a good week and so I say to you sir or madame kindly go fuck yourself.
Submitted by ShapeShifter (user info) at 2007-09-04 13:38:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I like the blatant note not 30 seconds after you post this about 'not proofreading.' Seriously, look at your time difference and tell me that you were in such a hurry to post this that you couldn't take the 30 seconds beforehand to proofread this? I didn't bother reading this because of that and I think my rating is justified.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-04 13:33:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
suicide note damnit...... fucking proof reading (or the lack thereof) strikes again.