At a Million Miles an Hour (779 hits)
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Submitted by Arnie Geddon <wolfgangbreihtenreiter.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2007-09-18 09:33:26 EDT
When you want something that you can't have...or to quote that clown bruce springsteen, "I just act like I don't remember, and mary acts like she don't care."
jesus.
If you've ever thought something was real, yet stupidly, fruitlessly unattainable, then you might know what I mean.
That kind of something that you feel is so right, and also so wrong, but surely more right than wrong. That thing you refuse or can't give up on, it's the 'can't' that irks you most, regardless of all the things you've given up on before, and how that fixates you on why you feel so strongly - this time, and the confusion, giving up used to be instinctive, but now it's absolutely different..and what for...
It's like free-falling one way then being hoiked up by your chute, as a child I had this recurring dream/nightmare of mowing this neverending lawn...we had a holiday house my grandparents built on the Sunshine Coast, back in the olden days when the backyard that is now low-rise development was bushland, that to a nine year old went on and on forever, we hit golf balls with clubs made entirely of wood into the bush at the back, sweetly struck slices that punched the thick brush beyond the outback dunny and past the cringing dog on his runner (colloquial for bathroom, and cringing dog on his runner), the type of 'bathroom' that you filled with sawdust and the dunnyman picked up on his Monday morning dunny-run, the type of runner that made sure your dog didn't wander out onto the road and get squished.....in the olden days at the old house we also had milk delivered to our frontdoor by a milkman and it came in bottles with foil tops and pasturised cream in the necks, and you could walk down to the beach at Moffatts' without your parents worrying about kiddy fiddlers......and without suncream. There were still blue bottles and sharks, somethings never change....
good times.
And a jolting reminder of how old you've got...
so when you think of all that been and gone, and how you've soldiered through..the death/s of loved ones, including the dog that once rode that runner, and the dunnyman - or at least his route, or his vocation.......maybe he became the milkman.....i dunno, and hope not..
If you wake in the middle of the night, shaken awake by a reminder, and it's not about your mum who just passed, and it's recurrent like that fucking mower dream, you feel guilty for not dreaming about the mother you loved and then worry about the dream you just had. And especially why. A million miles an hour forward, and so many back.
Something for Kate - Captain1.mp3 (4 MB) [audio/mpeg]
User Reviews
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-10-03 06:18:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Are you playing hard to chat?
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-10-02 17:34:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/112150#2542623
You all snotty or summink?
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-09-22 17:21:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I didn't read this. End preface.
I didn't know you existed until today.
I thought you were a new alter.
Then I came here.
And I now believe you are an old user who has been hijacked.
Hello.
Who are you?
And why are you talking about me?
P.S. I am not a prostitutehead. A prostitutehead is a made-up word. Made up by you. Mystery solved.
Submitted by Surgeon (user info) at 2007-09-19 07:54:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
xenograft..
Submitted by BranDo (user info) at 2007-09-18 14:42:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I liked both very much.
Submitted by maiorano84 (user info) at 2007-09-18 13:58:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
flash flood in a plastic egg
this is the obvious boy hitting...
I saw a man hop a barb-wire fence
with a baby under his arm
a matress on the sidewalk next to a bike
chained to a tree...
earthsick
One out of three says I'm a lie...
One out of three says I'm alive...
and the other third can't even say hi.
and that's just a third of the time...
"I haven't yet written the scene's that make up my movie"
I'm american brood
21st century fair
mad rat...the latch...and fame of he in that flown maze
he shakes still coffe at the probable cigarette
this here is a banger for the lonely, my age, and in therapy...
bang
life grows in a cut
and bang
it's a sunny rut...
I don't care who thinks that it was them t'was money made the light bulb stem
the final marble of math does not go further than the loaf of bread
Wage
that's why I write lines for space...
in zero denial
come on tax-man repo this
A twenty odd year young man washes his hands
he drew a line in the sand a foot from the water and said
"free trips from here to the ocean 5cents"
then he threw up a stand, and made a few million clams
until a whale beeched at his feet
then he judged and he quit and he walkedbuck naked back to the pert city
where he then bent a railing around his throat for protection
see what I was trying to explain was
the way a boy on a bike floats across a busy intersection.
all the world knowing that he's only late for dinner,
and all that balance unferling across the sockets in his skeleton...
he's not the million parts soapy water of a bubble...
not the ninehundreth percentile.
I saw a woman still reading hamlet to her murmering baby
although I wouldn't know...
we were all watching a 64 inch screen play black
No one's plane had arrived yet
I over hear two dying men with a lead wisper say
"that there on the t.v. there is footage from the afterlife
live srtreemed straight over the child pipe"
wrists wreeking of cut glass...
cut...
it's the well water black of a digital clock..
it's what happens...
the first lie
is that you are unique in a remote way.
a natural please child
squeezing the earth around it's skin shedding fist.
as soon as the stick came off the sand...they knew...
that there was that magnetic something to the number seven...
~ Subtle
http://www.subtle6.com
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-09-18 13:09:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
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Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-09-18 13:09:36 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2007-09-18 12:16:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I've missed you - have MOVED! into the new home and everything... gonna try to email later today or tomorrow
Submitted by ArnieGeddon (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:50:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:36:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Baby is an awesome age. This week she has taken her 1st steps and also learned to say mama, dada and bear. Clearly a genius.
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nice. <imagines rooney arms held outstretched to steve mclaren, "b-b-ball...">
adorable. and clearly another genius.
g'night uber.
Submitted by rorrim (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:43:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
grunge..
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:36:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Baby is an awesome age. This week she has taken her 1st steps and also learned to say mama, dada and bear. Clearly a genius.
Submitted by ilikesteak (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:34:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
Wasn't a fan.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:19:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
hey sweetie
Submitted by ArnieGeddon (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:18:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:09:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well I never! Arnie- Fucking - Geddon!
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wry smile..
hi th1ndy, how's bubs, good age now huh?
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:18:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Cheers...
Submitted by SilvrWolf (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:17:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice work
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2007-09-18 10:09:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well I never! Arnie- Fucking - Geddon!
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-18 09:44:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
why not?
Submitted by Hilarity_Ensues (user info) at 2007-09-18 09:39:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I liked it.