Autumn Thoughts... (515 hits)
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Submitted by ChaosJester <jesterfool18.at.excite.com> (View user info) at 2007-09-20 07:54:20 EDT
The day is bright with the promise of crisp, chilly Fall. It's the sort of day that seems to demand that sweaters be worn and long walks be taken through leaf-scudded streets. There is something particularly vibrant about Nature's last gasp before the icy grip of Winter stifles all but the hardiest of flora.
In case you hadn't noticed, Autumn is my favorite season.
I can't wait for Halloween. Perhaps it's because my birthday is so close to it, but that holiday has always been more special to me than just about any other day.
Right now, I'm thinking about small children dressing up in colorful costumes and shrieking with unconstrained delight as they imagine the mounds of sweet loot yet to be gathered. I'm also thinking about how much I miss parts of being a child.
I think that I'd be a good father, but how does anyone really know? Sometimes, when I'm looking out of my second-story window at the rural country-side that I presently call my home, I imagine what I'd teach my imaginary child. I like to think that I'd be able to instill all the values that I mostly taught myself; how to be honorable and strong, to understand the difference between benevolence and malice, to know when to listen to the head instead of the heart.
I spend most of my time alone in my head, so there's lots and lots of opportunity for introspection; some might say too much. I guess that's why I love Fall so much. People seem loathe to break that instinctive stillness that seeps into every aspect of days like this.
My favorite times to be awake are when it's either very early in the morning or very late at night. I do so enjoy that eerie feeling of wandering around usually crowded places when no one is about. A part of me relishes the faint notion that I am trespassing.
Right now, I'm sitting on a small hill in the middle of a pasture lush with winter grass, listening to the wind playfully ruffle at my clothes. The only conscious thought I have is a paradoxical one: Wouldn't it be nice to share this feeling of still solitude with someone?
Is there a difference between being alone and being lonely?
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Submitted by i_can_get_you_a_toe (user info) at 2007-09-20 18:14:58 EDT (#)
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not bad.......except for your retarded reviews.
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2007-09-20 13:17:03 EDT (#)
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i like candy
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-09-20 13:03:01 EDT (#)
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Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:24:21 EDT (#)
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LIES below.
...And I meant jealous about the 'homo' part, not the bald bit.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:20:59 EDT (#)
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i can be bald anytime i like!
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:20:22 EDT (#)
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jealous below...
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:19:07 EDT (#)
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bald homo
Submitted by DirtyHarry (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:16:53 EDT (#)
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Yes there is a difference
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:11:40 EDT (#)
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Awwwww, Drogo-my-sweet.
Glad you thought so.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:11:06 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by DrogoRoch (user info) at 2007-09-20 10:08:16 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Hilarity_Ensues (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:00:54 EDT (#)
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Awesomeness in a can.
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You baldy lump of wonderfulness.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:54:04 EDT (#)
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rewrite line 2 of your mini rant so it makes sense please.
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:41:16 EDT (#)
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*briefly stops drooling*
...strange probable alter below.
*resumes drooling*
Submitted by darth_morgen (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:35:24 EDT (#)
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Thank you, Captain Fucking Obvious
What the world needs is more people going around underling what we say by saying it again. You want to be the mutant head that lives on my shoulder like Men in Black II? I'll say something, and then you can say "Yeah!"
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:30:21 EDT (#)
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hence the difference between alone and lonely.
Submitted by darth_morgen (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:27:48 EDT (#)
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Is there is a difference between being alone and being lonely?
Ever have a moment, you're sitting up in bed at 4AM, your girl is lying next to you sound alseep, she barely spoke a word to you all night, tears welling up in your eyes as you realize that this person cares about you as much as she might care that tomorrow is another day.
Try being with someone and feeling lonely.... trust me, it's much better to just be alone.
"It just makes you want to ... kill"
~R.P. MacMurphy
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:25:09 EDT (#)
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Excuse me please, I have just spilt Eucalyptus essential oil all over my fingers and I keep sniffing them.
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:24:13 EDT (#)
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*drool*
*drool*
...BRAAAIIIINNNNNNNSSSSSS...
*drool*
*drool*
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:21:56 EDT (#)
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Noonie is like a sexy wookie.
Just with less hair.
She likes joob joobs.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:20:56 EDT (#)
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Is there a difference between being alone and being lonely?
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yep.
ps - autumn is the best season.
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:09:30 EDT (#)
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Arg! Nonsense...making...brain...lock...up.
Damn you...Em.
Dammmmmn...uuuuuuuuuggggggggghhhhhhhhh....
*drool*
Submitted by MudWhistle (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:04:55 EDT (#)
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oh and i hope you understand, my stabs are just jokes bro, i'm not being a dick...ok well i am I just don't mean it.
here read this http://www.ubersite.com/m/76333
something very similar to what you've posted here.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:04:54 EDT (#)
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You may or may not know that a Jabberwokys best friend is namely the squirrel, they start mating when they are a year old! It takes about six weeks from the time the squirrels mate until the baby squirrels, called kittens, are born.
Twice a year, in the spring and at the end of the summer, the female squirrel has two to five kittens
Now tell me you dont feel fuzzy inside :)
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:02:58 EDT (#)
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Submitted by BranDo (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:25:53 EDT (#)
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Sounds very universal, maybe you're growing up to be an adult.
One can be lonely without being alone very well, this too is a mind thing.
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:01:13 EDT (#)
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Ah, Em.
You random reviews never fail to hypnotize my Jabberwoky in a splendiferous display of Ewok celebration...
Submitted by MudWhistle (user info) at 2007-09-20 09:01:11 EDT (#)
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i think your fundamental reasoning is flawed bro...you don't need a 'thing' you don't have to have a shtick, you don't have to...be...anything but human (and that's debatable to some extent)
i find plenty of solitude within my marriage...the wife either lets me off to do my thing because she understands that its something i require to become unscrambled or she joins in...we've had many a morning on the lake, the two of us...saying nothing just enjoying the earth
i guess its a matter of the right person, maybe you'll find him.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:59:06 EDT (#)
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Buy some supermn pants CJ, you will feel amazing then :)
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:56:55 EDT (#)
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I think you're missing the point here, MW.
1) Being a whiney, emo goth is sort of my thing.
2) While I have been known to inspire scream-filled flight at first sight by your average chica, my solitude springs more from my own personal choice rather than a simple inability to socialize.
Submitted by jamowilly40 (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:51:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by DudeThatsBOSH (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:49:01 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by MudWhistle (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:50:46 EDT (#)
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hahahaahah....must have missed that part...yes it does indeed take a female of the species to reproduce.
my suggestion...stop being a whiney emo goth faggot and women will like you more or at least you will be more approachable and then you can let the real charmer in you show.
Submitted by DudeThatsBOSH (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:49:01 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:48:14 EDT (#)
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I've always wanted chill'un MW, but first I need a) someone who I actually WANT to make a new human being with and b) a somewhat stable lifestyle. There is much that I have yet to do and most of that is not conducive to raising wee ones.
Still, thanks for the thoughts.
Submitted by MANICMOTHER (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:46:51 EDT (#)
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I miss my solitude
Submitted by MudWhistle (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:40:44 EDT (#)
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while I agree with most of your sentiment here I can't help but feeling that in life...you are a watcher...keeping yourself (or attempting to) from the harsh ups and downs out of fear or some other reasoning.
if you think you want children...fuckin do it bro. my wife asks me all the time, as we are considering a third child...'honey are we sure we want to bring another child into this world with the way things are and will we have enough time to spend with each of them to ensure they learn to be good people' and so on and so forth...you know how women are. I tell her that I like the idea of strength in numbers, the larger my clan the larger the positive force in this world.
its foolish to think that you will have to teach your children everything, they do in fact learn many things on their own...by watching and observing. think about it...did you learn to be strong because everyone around you was strong? I doubt it but rather you witnessed all sides from the weakest of the weak to the strongest of the strong and decided for yourself where you would land.
now i'm rambling...but I reserve the right to so now and in the future and also to add as many...as I like to what I say.
also, i find nothing quite as relaxing as rowing my canoe out across the lake on days like today or climbing inot a tree stand before the sun comes up and riding the emotions that nature inflicts upon me.
Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:36:24 EDT (#)
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I do so enjoy that eerie feeling of wandering around usually crowded places when no one is about. A part of me relishes the faint notion that I am trespassing.
That is a great feeling
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And what Merlina said.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:31:46 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Hilarity_Ensues (user info) at 2007-09-20 13:01:43 BST (#)
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to know when to listen to the head instead of the heart.
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Have another +2 b/c I still haven't figured out how to do this.
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Listen to your gut, truest emotion. The brain is confused along with the heart.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:28:10 EDT (#)
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Is there a difference between being alone and being lonely?
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Absolutly. I am never lonely, yet spend most of my time alone, by choice..
Lovely post
Submitted by BranDo (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:25:53 EDT (#)
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Sounds very universal, maybe you're growing up to be an adult.
One can be lonely without being alone very well, this too is a mind thing.
I'm going for walk in the woods now, Germany is glowing in the autumn sun.
You'd be a great dad the way I see you.
Grow some hair.
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:06:09 EDT (#)
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Me neither, Hilarity.
But I think I get closer every time I fail at it.
Submitted by Hilarity_Ensues (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:01:43 EDT (#)
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to know when to listen to the head instead of the heart.
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Have another +2 b/c I still haven't figured out how to do this.
Submitted by Hilarity_Ensues (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:00:54 EDT (#)
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Awesomeness in a can.
It's kinda scary that you wrote this, almost like you're reading my mind. And yes, there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. A huge difference.
Submitted by hour_man (user info) at 2007-09-20 08:00:51 EDT (#)
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My favorite times to be awake are when it's either very early in the morning or very late at night. I do so enjoy that eerie feeling of wandering around usually crowded places when no one is about. A part of me relishes the faint notion that I am trespassing.
fuck yeah... you bald strangely shaped headed man.