Well, I probably should've kept this to myself, but since you're here... (1090 hits)
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Submitted by ChaosJester (View user info) at 2007-12-24 20:58:07 EST
So, it's Christmas and I'm alone. As it's been since I was anything more than a wet-behind-the-ears teenager.
Fuck, I'm tired. I'm so weary of searching for someone, anyone, who can stand to look at me--all of me--and not turn away in fear/revulsion.
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After so many years of hiding what I am, it gets rather tiresome to pretend to blend in; to not stand out when mingling with the great unwashed masses. Of course, the isolation doesn't help matters much, but that's only a symptom of the problem.
The world that I exist in seems to crave only my subjugation; be meek, be submissive, be a slave and you will be loved/accepted.
I watch those tanned, toned, hairless, *soulless* bodies on television and understand that this is how I should look like.
I read about men who follow those that preach soft, fuzzy understanding and realize that this is what I must become if I ever want to be more/less than a rejected outsider.
Fuck That.
I'm more pasty that Casper the Friendly Ghost and I'm pretty sure that I've got a couple Sasquatchs in my family tree. I eat copious amounts of meat and I could honestly give a flying fuck about some obscure Native tribe in South America that's being wiped out by the logging/farming industry. Adapt/Conquer or Die, motherfuckers...
I, frankly, do not believe that Global Warming is solely (or even mostly) the byproduct of mankind's dominion over the Earth. You can disagree with me to your heart's content. Honestly, I would relish an honest and fair-minded debate over the matter. Me and mine would win. This might seem a rather arrogant and supercilious stance to take but, believe me, I've done more research on the matter than I probably would have liked. Aaaaand that's all I feel like saying on that particular matter here...
Fuck 'Zero Population Growth'. Humanity is simply not hardwired for that type of 'survival'. Like any other bit of Mother Nature (which we are a part of, no matter how much others might say we aren't) we're either growing or dying. We simply need to find new places to spread, much as our ancestors did. Yes, it's difficult and dangerous; why would we expect it to be otherwise? Who ever said that *any* of us would live to see the ripe old age of 50, 70, or even 90? Jaysus, I've traversed lands were 35 was considered to be a respected age.
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Okay, enough of the right-wing rant. It's just that I get so...angry when all I hear on the news is how fucked up everything is. I like to think of myself as an amateur student of History and, you know what? Things have never been better for the sheer percentage of the world's population that they are now. So much that is good is happening even as you read this, and NO-ONE seems to realize it. Roman nobility never had it half as good as the majority of 'third-world' citizens do today. Now, if only people would stop emulating the Nazi's 'Final Solution'.
(pant, pant)
Um, what was I screaming about? Fuck, I dunno. Booze is fun...
Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone. I'm an Agnostic, so this particular holiday doesn't have as much meaning as it might for some, but I still mark the day on my calender. As discouraged as I get sometimes with the Multitudes of Humanity, I do so relish all the amazing differences that we display.
Individuals disgust me so, so much, but Mankind in general makes me continually quiver with hope/optimism. It's a constant mystery to me why we, as a collective species, seem to always snatch survival from the jaws of extinction. I fucking-well love it, and I hope to witness this curious experiment for years and years to come.
So, until the Oceans rise up to recover their lost territory or Nuclear Fallout irradiates my backyard or any one of the innumerable Doomsday fates that may befall my species actually happens, I'm going to keep watching and smirking. For, if we can't laugh at ourselves, what else is there? As someone much, much wiser than myself once wrote, we laugh instead of screaming; we laugh because it hurts so very, very much to do anything else...
That's actually the cause of my handle. I'm not much for making others relax and enjoy themselves, I just chuckle at the uncountable ways in which I witness my species' folly.
Lots o' Loves and Best Wishes for the New Year,
--ChaosJester
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Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2007-12-27 09:46:40 EST (#)
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holy fuck am i tired. that has nothing to do with this post but I decided i needed to type something before I pass out at my desk and get fired.
Submitted by HotWillie (user info) at 2007-12-26 17:12:45 EST (#)
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I just chuckle at the uncountable ways in which I witness my species' folly.
To which species are you referring?
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-12-26 16:42:34 EST (#)
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Just for that, EI gets a hug.
HUUUUUUUUUUG!
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Of course, it was an extra-ghey Panda hug, but beggars can't be choosers, now can we?
Christmas sucked, but the next day was pretty neat-o. My neighbors invited me into their home to play bongo drums, gossip about other neighbors and drink homemade booze.
All-in-all, it wasn't bad.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2007-12-26 16:23:12 EST (#)
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The first line made me sad. You dont always have to be alone to feel alone. Hope you had the best christmas you could.
Submitted by MudWhistle (user info) at 2007-12-26 13:55:47 EST (#)
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if you can't laugh at yourself who can you laugh at
Submitted by Talibandrew (user info) at 2007-12-26 13:35:00 EST (#)
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I am always so disappointed every time I read your stuff, CJ.
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2007-12-26 11:44:48 EST (#)
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God damn it
Submitted by T_M_U (user info) at 2007-12-26 11:39:39 EST (#)
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PS- Pale chick rock and skinny chicks suck because you chip your tooth when you go down on them. lol
Submitted by T_M_U (user info) at 2007-12-26 11:38:05 EST (#)
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I don't know a single person who's not tired af all the bullshit.
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2007-12-26 09:27:45 EST (#)
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Submitted by Ltap (user info) at 2007-12-26 00:09:23 EST (#)
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Submitted by Susie_Derkins (user info) at 2007-12-26 00:00:39 EST (#)
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Fuck Christmas right in its huge festering red and green ass. Next year, I'm spending it alone and hopefully somewhere warm. Tidings of comfort and joy!
-Susie
PS. Everyone looks like someone: ChaosJester http://www.loservillex.com/horror.html
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2007-12-25 23:27:37 EST (#)
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Submitted by Lib (user info) at 2007-12-25 23:15:57 EST (#)
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I am ot dunrk
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-12-25 16:31:32 EST (#)
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Good fucking grief...
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2007-12-25 16:02:21 EST (#)
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dweeb
Submitted by AsshOly (user info) at 2007-12-25 09:45:23 EST (#)
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i read until the tanned, toned, *soulless* part and gave up.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2007-12-25 08:25:36 EST (#)
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Submitted by Bohme (user info) at 2007-12-25 04:18:42 EST (#)
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Why are you fuckers always drunk?
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They're not. People claim drunkenness when they post so that if/when the post bombs, they can say "Yeah, but I was drunk!" It's a little sad, and a little funny, and more than a little transparent.
Merry end of year celebration to you, CJ. I'm the opposite of you, though; Mankind as a whole saddens and confuses me (it's the way we creep across the planet like a disease, the way a huge group of people develop one mindless buzzing tone that can strip paint from walls and make your brain bleed) but individuals can be capable of such breathtaking cruelty and such infinite grace - often in the same person, in the same day - that it just has to make you stop and marvel.
Submitted by Bohme (user info) at 2007-12-25 04:18:42 EST (#)
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Why are you fuckers always drunk?
Submitted by HurtByTheSun (user info) at 2007-12-25 03:49:24 EST (#)
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Waaaah, etc.
Happy Christmas dude.
Submitted by HadToBeDone (user info) at 2007-12-25 01:18:06 EST (#)
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Normally you would get a -2, but this +2 has been donated in Stabkill's name. http://www.ubersite.com/m/113918
Submitted by Wildman (user info) at 2007-12-25 00:37:08 EST (#)
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<yawn>
Submitted by shandythedog (user info) at 2007-12-24 22:47:53 EST (#)
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and now, because it's christams, i will reveal the great secret to everything:
"the balance between competition and cooperation"
there it is
the great secret to everything
Submitted by shandythedog (user info) at 2007-12-24 22:46:51 EST (#)
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how is zero population growth achieved?
Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2007-12-24 22:35:41 EST (#)
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Okay, enough of the right-wing rant. It's just that I get so...angry when all I hear on the news is how fucked up everything is. I like to think of myself as an amateur student of History and, you know what? Things have never been better for the sheer percentage of the world's population that they are now. So much that is good is happening even as you read this, and NO-ONE seems to realize it. Roman nobility never had it half as good as the majority of 'third-world' citizens do today. Now, if only people would stop emulating the Nazi's 'Final Solution'.
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I normally don't agree with your views, but I think this was spot on.
Happy festivus.
Submitted by Wuzi (user info) at 2007-12-24 22:05:11 EST (#)
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As a girl once told me after I called her the wrong name while we were fuckin'.....
"Drinkin's not a fuckin excuse for being an idiot. Get off me."
Of course she was a dumb whore and you ain't half bad.
happy christmas cj
Submitted by MANICMOTHER (user info) at 2007-12-24 22:00:33 EST (#)
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Merry Whatever and Happy Hostilities, CJ.
Submitted by sadie73 (user info) at 2007-12-24 21:44:34 EST (#)
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MFC, Chaos.
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-12-24 21:30:19 EST (#)
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I laughed at your response. Happy holidays and you're not half as bad as all the other retards on here. Cheers.
Submitted by ChaosJester (user info) at 2007-12-24 21:22:53 EST (#)
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Sock it to me, bicthes.
Yeah yeah, this is SO Emo.
Fuck off.
I'm inebriated and it's Christmas.
I'm gonna be as self-indulgent and idiotic/dramatic as I feel like AND THERE AIN'T NUTHIN' YOO CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!
(maniacal laughter)
Um, what?
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-12-24 21:17:54 EST (#)
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haha. i laugh at your faggotry. what a giant emo piece of waste. once again...hahaha
Submitted by Leonore (user info) at 2007-12-24 21:12:38 EST (#)
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Happy Christmas, CJ.