Uberotica 08': I was left out of the whore's picture (544 hits)
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Submitted by ilikesteak (View user info) at 2008-04-10 00:02:33 EDT
He had been the most supportive and amazing person I've ever been with. He was different from all the other guys. He didn't hit me, or cheat on me, or yell at me. He was perfect.
I couldn't stand it. I just can't get off on wanting it. Where's the hair pulling, scratching, biting? I miss the pain, leather, and shame. He was just too safe. He's got the sex drive, but can't do anything with it.
Even when I told him about what I want, it just wasn't the same. When he tied me up, we had a saftey word, instead of stopping when the man wanted to. When he put handcuffs on me, they had a saftey release and comfort grip to keep my wrists from getting raw, rather than the last guy, who used the pair he stole from the cop he stabbed.
There's no reason I shouldn't be attracted to him. He's smart, handsom, rich, sucessful, witty, and talented. It's the best and most healthy relationship I've ever been in, and yet I have no desire at all to be with him.
I can't handle the warmpth and openess of it all.
It's been a year and a half since I met him. I guess I've grown used to the fact that I'm in a loving and healthy relationship.
We have sex nightly, and I pretend to be into it. It's more for him than me. The last time I remember actually having an orgasm while he was there, was the time he was accidentally pulling my hair, but as soon as he saw it, he apologized so much that it ruined the night.
He makes enough that I can stay at home all day. All the housework is done within an hour, because he's meticulous with maintence and organized everything already. I get off watching Springer reruns, and Maury. I'm addicted to dysfunction and chaos. I started therapy, because I can't keep living like this.
Yesterday, I got a letter from a guy from my past. He just got out of jail, and wants to see me again. I checked with my therapist, and he thought it was a good idea to confront my past. We met in a motel room. At first I resisted, thinking of what my therapist keeps telling me, that I don't have to be unhappy to be happy. Then the memories of what we had together came flooding back.
I told my therapist, and he said that honesty was the only way to solve my problem. To get it all out in the open with my husband.
It's been eight weeks since I've stopped going to the therapist, but I havn't stopped going to the motel.
When I finally confessed, and broke down in front of him, he did something that suprised me.
He hit me. My lip was bleeding, and I think my nose may had broken.
I'm in love.
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Submitted by ilikesteak (user info) at 2008-04-20 13:30:48 EDT (#)
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Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2008-04-20 09:43:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Can't belive I missed this, it is frightening.
Fuck Steak.
I mean......FUCK.
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I DO occasionally write things.
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2008-04-20 09:43:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Can't belive I missed this, it is frightening.
Fuck Steak.
I mean......FUCK.
Submitted by littledan (user info) at 2008-04-20 08:15:08 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2008-04-11 17:34:49 EDT (#)
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Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2008-04-11 08:56:58 EDT (#)
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Submitted by lostnphound (user info) at 2008-04-10 08:57:23 EDT (#)
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Submitted by HurtByTheSun (user info) at 2008-04-10 06:47:31 EDT (#)
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First paragraph was painful to read.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2008-04-10 06:26:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Red is right, the ending was weak, but I really liked the dysfunctional element.
I dunno though, there's something off about it. Like it's been written by a mysoginist rather than a person who genuinly understands the need for humiliation.
Submitted by F.J.Bell (user info) at 2008-04-10 04:01:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Tasty
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2008-04-10 03:46:16 EDT (#)
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oh and rob berg, can i have your babies on ummm what's it called, ummm im just thinking, ooh yeah gmail or MESSENGER, sorry about that I couldn't remember what I was going to say, It was all genuine.
:)
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2008-04-10 03:40:24 EDT (#)
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NEEDS MORE BOOBS.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2008-04-10 03:20:55 EDT (#)
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steak ftw!
i love you steak.
Submitted by orphelia (user info) at 2008-04-10 03:17:15 EDT (#)
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Yes, you have!
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2008-04-10 02:42:05 EDT (#)
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Ending was weak my friend.
Submitted by loan_officer (user info) at 2008-04-10 02:23:34 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by HotWillie (user info) at 2008-04-10 00:22:07 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by ilikesteak (user info) at 2008-04-10 00:14:37 EDT (#)
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Honestly, I had a story to go with the title, but I skipped it in favor of this.
Submitted by ilikesteak (user info) at 2008-04-10 00:07:17 EDT (#)
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I win by default.
Submitted by Socialist_Joe (user info) at 2008-04-10 00:06:12 EDT (#)
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this makes me want a coke