School..........(nsfw) (732 hits)
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Submitted by <spitercents.at.gmail.com> (View user info) at 2008-08-20 01:31:25 EDT
67. Jesus fucking Christ.
The last time I got a grade that low was in middle school with a teacher that didn't enjoy my sexual advances.
I did well on most of the projects in the technology class. Unfortunately he started assigning us bookwork to "prepare for the technology final next year"(which I got an A on, fuck you good sir). He starting assigning us a boatload of work to do when he didn't feel like teaching.
I tried to do it at first, one or two pages, they were real nice, everything homework is supposed to be. Then he goes off for jury duty, for a week. He leaves the class bookwork with the sub, I figured I wouldn't do it, he would never collect it. Needless to say I was wrong , he came back and collects all the work. I didn't even have the pages I had done with me, having lost them somewhere. Instead I offered to let him blow me.....he didn't like that too much.
His counter-offer was a 65, one point above failing(so that he wouldn't "have to see my fucking face in his class again"). I accept.
Laziness is a huge factor in my life, it was the most important factor in the 67. Too lazy to do work or ask the teacher what I can do to help my grade.
When it comes to school I'm a lazy guy and I like to procrastinate. Don't get me wrong, I care, however, laziness combined with procrastination is deadly. First comes the procrastination, wait till the last day before it's due. That's when procrastination says to me:
"Now I have to cram hard and do this thing, and I'm a good student so it has to be done well. You can wait till the last day but once it comes you're going to have to sacrifice hours for the project."
At this point laziness steps in to say hello. The laziness tells me "you have waited this long, wouldn't it be great to just blow it off?"
Then the laziness does just that, it says, "Fuck it, don't do it, how is this one assignment going to change your life?" My laziness plays mind games with myself until I feel that even the most clearly worthwhile endeavors are not worth the effort. I used to feel guilty about fucking something up that I am partly invested in. It used to get to me when everyone turned their papers in and I had nothing. Sadly I have shot myself in the foot so many times that I've grown a bit of a thick skin.
The quarter was fine until the first assignment. I knew the first one was significant, because if I didn't do that one it would feed into the laziness, empowering it. I think about the assignment that day. Ultimately, for reasons I still do not fully understand, I don't do it.
It's a chain reaction with me , almost every assignment ignored. Page after page , never to be seen again inside my book bag. Then the progress report comes, "Major assignments not handed in"...
My parents have a funny principle about school, " grades aren't as important as homework". If your child does poorly in a class, that might be because he is not talented in that subject. However if your child blows off doing the homework, that's something better parenting can help with.
My parents make me feel guilty as hell and threaten me with punishment. I decide to make up the work.
It happens but it happens slowly... laziness is still there applying pressure. By the end of the quarter I have made up a lot of the stuff , it doesn't help too much because she just changes 0's to 50's but its better than nothing . The quarter ends and I am cautiously optimistic. I made up the work and things should be great right?. I figured my decent quiz grades might make up for it. Come time to look at my grade and no,not so much. I don't get the 70 , hopefully 80 I'm expecting but a cold 67. Internally I call the class a bunch of overachievers to make myself feel better, then I get annoyed at myself and finally settle into sadness and guilt, this lasts about 30 minutes before I get over it.
My parents get the report card and I take my public and personal vow to do better (both don't mean much).
The 4th quarter is my next challenge , the home stretch , the ultimate feat of overcoming the laziness of "once the year is over it wont matter anyway".
Things look pretty good , first day of the quarter , clean slate , sun is shining.
The next day someone asks me: "The memoir is due on Thursday right?". Oh right, that, the major writing assignment I had forgot about.
The days that followed I did an extremely good job of ignoring it. Thursday sucked, I didn't hand in the first major assignment. The teacher even helped add some guilt on that one: "what's going on with you?"
"blow me."
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Submitted by experima (user info) at 2008-08-20 12:47:49 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Linus (user info) at 2008-08-20 02:00:04 EDT (#)
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You suck major tits at school. I shit better grades.