10 Tales of a Tiny & True Nature (722 hits)
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Submitted by kaos-king (antius777) (View user info) at 2008-09-27 03:05:55 EDT
I think there was supposed to be some kinda linkage here. What's that all about?
#1 - I'm the eldest of 5 boys. We all have varying physical features, each one looking like a different one in some way. Currently we range in age from 31, 26, 22, 20 to 17. If you take the first initials from our first names in order, it spells B_A_N_J_O, but replace the O with a Q. You laugh, but you'd be surprised how many friends and extended family members have to use this to keep all the boys managed.
#2 - My parents are coming up on their 35th wedding anniversary. They met at a branch campus of Kent State University and were attending that branch when the KSU National Guard shootings happen. Decades later when my father became an assistant professor at KSU, he was a guest lecturer on the 30th anniversary of the shootings.
#3 - Concerning the war, while I don't support the current nonsense in the Middle East, I have nothing but respect for our troops. This comes from my father who was a volunteer Marine in Viet Nam. Strangely, I've come to learn in recent years that my dad's "lost year" when he was supposedly driving a truck for a local company, he was actually outsourced by the NSA for 9 months due to his communications background in the war.
#4 - I switched schools during my 6th grade year due to a nasty strike at the one I was attending. I ended up going to the school system that my father worked for, one that was actually closer. Although young, I can say my life changed drastically and for the better with the switch. I've always wondered what would have happened would I have stayed there.
#5 - I was a regional level competitor in Shot Put & Disk during High School my first three years. My senior year I quit Track because I had too much fun getting drunk and smoking. I told my parents it was because I wanted to concentrate on my Art Work. Actually, I wanted to spend most of my time getting down my then girlfriend's pants.
#6 - After switching from Graphic Design to Studio Arts, I thought I would be happy. I completely burnt out in my 2nd semester of my 3rd year of college. I dropped out, having completed all my required classes, my electives and a good portion of my lower division MRC's. With something like 78 credit hours, I've thought about going back to school, but a large part of my really has no desire.
#7 - I'll state it again: Yes, I'm on disability for being crazy. I've been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder II and Agoraphobia. (Agoraphobia is NOT fear of crowds, but fear of lack of control.) Yes, I receive SSDI for this, a whopping $700 a month and I'm trying my best to get off it. Currently I need to stay on just to get MediCare since my meds cost over $1000 a month otherwise.
#8 - I'm able to work part-time and still get SSDI, and I do various things for a local bar/music venue. I also worked at a large music venue for two summers back in college. I've seen more concerts now than I care to remember and live shows no longer hold any kind of excitement for me. I've met a ton of musicians, too. You'd be shocked at how ridiculous some of them can act. And NO, I haven't met anyone THAT cool...
#9 - I was with my Ex for 7 years. She's now my best friend. We grew up together, but the chick I fell love with doesn't exist anymore. I still find her incredibly attractive, however, and all women have to somehow meet standards matched by her. I don't think I'll ever be in another meaningful relationship because I don't think anyone will ever live up to the expectations I place upon them. Unfortunately, even though I know I want my Ex in version 2.0, this doesn't help me.
#10 - Although perhaps not as bad as McCallum, I also would pretty much kill for my two cats. I don't really give a shit for anyone else's cats, just my own. I also have an irrational fear that I must "fight all dogs to the death." This came from my father who regularly told me the neighborhood dogs would maul me if they got loose. Thanks dad!
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Submitted by nargles (user info) at 2008-10-09 18:52:43 EDT (#)
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i like these a lot, i'm going to have to bookmark the whole page of them and read them all.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 16:42:33 EDT (#)
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Shadow - - There's a history of what could be described as "anxiety disorder" in my family, but nothing to the degree that involves the type of medication that I require. You can see it in my mom, grandma, and I guess you could in my great-grandfather. However, they come across as 'worriers' and I don't really react that way to situations. Now granted, due to that, my mom was a bit overbearing as I grew up but nothing clinically remarkable. And my dad's chill as fuck. All my brothers are relatively sane, except one that's a lil' hyper.
From what I understand, I showed bizarre signs from day one. I basically cried non stop the first 2 years of my life, thrashing so hard in my crib once a gave myself a hernia at 6 months old. However, at 2 years old I completely stopped and didn't exhibit any of the traditional "Terrible Two" symptoms. My mom likes to say I was pissed off 'cause I was bored the first 2 years of my life being an infant and all.
I had an awesome early childhood and my parents rule. My family is pretty tight and we all generally get along. Regardless, I was a pretty morbid kid come elementary school; thoughts of death & killing. I scored high on an aptitude test and was placed in Gifted Classes, but I still mostly hated everyone. These thoughts rollercoastered up & down, higher each time into my 20's when I was finally diagnosed. The thing is, now that the family knows kinda what to look for, it IS suspiciously absent in my siblings. Not that I think any of them hide it, just that I seem to be the only one afflicted.
Submitted by Lib (user info) at 2008-09-27 15:47:29 EDT (#)
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Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2008-09-27 14:59:07 EDT (#)
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I bet I could write lyrics about poop, though.
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2008-09-27 14:58:01 EDT (#)
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Shadow, you should send me some song lyrics. I write music, but have no talent for lyrics. Plus, your poop smells like coffee, which I find attractive.
Submitted by shadow (user info) at 2008-09-27 14:50:34 EDT (#)
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I haven't slept very much this week, and I'm afraid the next sentence will come out all wrong. Sorry.
Are you the only crazy one in your family? I'm always wondering at the nature/nurture link, probably because my mother was diagnosed with BiPolar mania, with a dissociative personality disorder and sociopath tendencies. She's a really sweet and charming woman who just doesn't really live in or deal with the real world on real terms. Her father had a nervous breakdown post WW2, but that seems rather understandable considering he and the wife were living in London and most of his immediate family was killed in bombings.
I have a real fear that my own brain might dewire into something else, I'm afraid that through the process of chemical reaction I could one day wake an entirely different person, perhaps a crazy person. That might not be all bad, maybe the new version would write better song lyrics. I suppose it really comes down to the fear of losing control.
Huh. Well now you know a little more about moi. Keep making art, I think the only reason I stay sane is because I write; even if nobody gets to read it.
Submitted by darkwulffe (user info) at 2008-09-27 14:30:59 EDT (#)
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#8 - I also worked at a large music venue for two summers back in college. I've seen more concerts now than I care to remember and live shows no longer hold any kind of excitement for me. I've met a ton of musicians, too. You'd be shocked at how ridiculous some of them can act. And NO, I haven't met anyone THAT cool...
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I have done the same thing. Although I have met people who are "that cool", and have found out that they really arent so cool...
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2008-09-27 11:42:54 EDT (#)
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gay
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 11:41:33 EDT (#)
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New cigarettes - Camel Crush.
They start out as regular smokes, then you pinch the filter to crush a small capsule inside, releasing menthol.
Not only do they taste good, but they're fucking TRANSFORMERS!!!
RedSkies will be buying a carton here shortly...
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2008-09-27 11:24:40 EDT (#)
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I like these, but am going to get sick of them very quickly.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 11:16:10 EDT (#)
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Locksly - it's a bit old... http://www.ubersite.com/m/101469
Monkeys - I understand that the drug companies have work to do; testing, trials, manufacturing. That's fine, but when a 1 month supply of one type of pill (30 pills) cost aprox $525 then that's absolutely fucking ridiculous. No way, it's not possible. Are there gold flecks in the tablets? Hell, they're small pills, I think gold IS cheaper!!!
Submitted by monkeyswithguns (user info) at 2008-09-27 09:27:38 EDT (#)
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#7 - I'll state it again: Yes, I'm on disability for being crazy. I've been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder II and Agoraphobia. (Agoraphobia is NOT fear of crowds, but fear of lack of control.) Yes, I receive SSDI for this, a whopping $700 a month and I'm trying my best to get off it. Currently I need to stay on just to get MediCare since my meds cost over $1000 a month otherwise.
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True! My household is currently getting assraped by the drug companies also, but at least the Lamictal finally went generic last month.
Submitted by locksly (user info) at 2008-09-27 08:58:43 EDT (#)
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#7 - I'll state it again: Yes, I'm on disability for being crazy. I've been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder II and Agoraphobia. (Agoraphobia is NOT fear of crowds, but fear of lack of control.) Yes, I receive SSDI for this, a whopping $700 a month and I'm trying my best to get off it. Currently I need to stay on just to get MediCare since my meds cost over $1000 a month otherwise.
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I imagine you have already covered this topic so if you could post the link to it - it would be good....
I am interested because apparently I'm a bit soft in the head also, a result of long term meds for a degenerative disease, tocut a long story short.
Submitted by ConorJS (user info) at 2008-09-27 04:36:05 EDT (#)
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Shoot people, not dope.
Submitted by shandythedog (user info) at 2008-09-27 04:25:47 EDT (#)
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to cure you ailments, i suggest some kind of radical dog therapy
i'm certain that if you can learn to love dogs, and be loved by them, all will be well
Submitted by experima (user info) at 2008-09-27 04:06:17 EDT (#)
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it's okay, B. i'm just amazed that this bandwagon is nearing the 100 'stories' mark after 8 months. i saved them all on my page if you want to read the others.
:)
Submitted by experima (user info) at 2008-09-27 04:06:17 EDT (#)
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it's okay, B. i'm just amazed that this bandwagon is nearing the 100 'stories' mark after 8 months. i saved them all on my page if you want to read the others.
:)
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:57:45 EDT (#)
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Thanks, Scourgey-poo!
Experima, I didn't realize that's what the linking thing was. Sorry, hon...
Submitted by experima (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:49:54 EDT (#)
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YOU LIE!!!!!!!!!!!
I didn't IM you. I sent you an email!
hahahahaahahhaah
just kidding B.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:40:40 EDT (#)
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i only did that because experima IM'ed me and told me to.
i was totally going to +2 this fascinating glimpse into the mind of a just barely medicated enough psycho.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:36:56 EDT (#)
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no link to the original auto -0
Submitted by experima (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:30:43 EDT (#)
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Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:25:34 EDT (#)
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HA! Maybe THAT'S the connection, ICO.
Maybe McCallum just needs some meds...
**runs**
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:23:53 EDT (#)
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Actually, the meds wipe me the fuck out.
I HAVE to chain smoke and suck down coffee like an addict just to stay awake half the time.
Submitted by ICO (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:22:56 EDT (#)
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I'd say literally agoraphobia isn't a fear of crowds, but of wide, open spaces. This coming from the Greek Agora (field). I do understand the reasoning (as far as phobias can be rational) behind the fear of not being in control in such open areas.
My own sister's bi-polar and she's also on anti-psychotic meds. She met a nice fellow who can somehow weather through all of her explosive behaviour and find the smart and funny person behind it. She's taken up being a housewife rather easily, and loves the fact that most days are neatly organised.
She also has two cats...
Submitted by FALLEN (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:20:29 EDT (#)
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I would think its the meds more than the coffee.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:18:06 EDT (#)
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Not so much right now.
Actually, I just put coffee on, too.
I've been pretty busy recently. Just finished a new painting, too. A pic of the Mad Hatter for a friend who's all into Wonderland stuff. Books and promotional crap, writing a new book and outlining the next one. I'm primarily fueled by coffee (2 pots a day) and cigarettes (2 packs a day).
Submitted by FALLEN (user info) at 2008-09-27 03:11:45 EDT (#)
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christ KK, don't you sleep?