Detonation (567 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: 1.91 on 22 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Maddog (View user info) at 2009-05-19 13:05:52 EDT
continuation from http://www.ubersite.com/m/122233
Matt sat on the couch, pondering and planning his next action and slowly sipping at his bourbon. Two hours had gone by in a flash. He looked up when he heard the front door open and listened to the dogs scrambling on the hardwood floors to deliver their frantic greeting to Ellen.
"Hi, hon", she said, as she walked into the living room, dropping her bag on to the table. The dogs following like a hopeful entourage. "Have you thought about dinner?"
Matt shifted on the couch. "No, not really", he said. "We need to talk about something first".
"What's that?", she asked.
"The pictures on your laptop," he answered.
"Oh", Ellen replied, in a soft voice.
Matt found it telling that Ellen didn't bother to ask which pictures, or question what he was talking about. They both knew without saying.
"Who are you fucking?", Matt asked.
Ellen seemed a bit stunned by his point blank question asked in such a matter of fact way. It took a second for her to reply. "Nobody", she said.
"Sorry, I don't believe that", Matt said quietly, but firmly.
Maintain, maintain, maintain, Matt thought to himself. Don't get emotional with this. Control the flow of the conversation, ask the right questions. Matt struggled to maintain the quiet cool, the calm exterior of a seasoned interrogator. He struggled against the roiling and churning in the pit of his stomach that threatened to break through with power and fury of a hurricane flood.
"Take a seat and let's try this again", Matt said, letting out a deep breath. "What's going on with the pictures?"
What followed were questions and answers, then more questions and more answers. Matt read Ellens' posture, her body telling a story that belied what was coming out of her mouth. Matt flashed back to his days as a crisis negotiator. He knew that it's just as important HOW a person says something as what they are actually saying. Sometimes it's MORE important. It's a message of truth that people don't even know they are sending.
At first it was outright lies. Then this changed to half truths. Finally, all of the details came out: He made her feel pretty. She was flattered he showed an interest in her. It didn't mean anything. She still loved Matt. The words cascaded from her mouth along with her tears. Matt hardly listened. It was all becoming a dull hum between his ears.
What was happening with Ellen? Happening to him? Happening to their relationship? None of it looked good. In fact, it looked downright shitty.
"I just don't know if I'm ready for all of this", Ellen said.
"All of what?" Matt asked.
"Having a baby. I don't know if I can handle it right now" Ellen said.
Wham! Matt felt as if he had been kicked in the guts. A mushroom cloud filled his horizon. He felt the roar and the heat of a thousand kilotons blowing past him. He struggled to maintain his composure as he saw the walls collapsing all around him. What. The. Fuck??? How often had they talked about starting a family? How many times had Ellen told him in almost pleading tones how much she wanted a baby? And now this.
A flash of clarity came to Matt. It was as if he had stepped back and saw the whole picture and it suddenly snapped into focus.
"You think you are missing out on your youth, don't you?", Matt asked.
"It's just,,,I,,,I don't want any regrets. I don't want to think I missed out five years from now", Ellen said.
Matt felt his jaw clench, his teeth grinding from the pressure. He was was angry and hurt. Wounded and bleeding, watching the his life slip away with every heartbeat. Seething rage boiled beneath his calm veneer like an active volcano. He was mad. Mad at Ellen, mad at the situation and mostly infuriated with himself. He was angry because he understood what Ellen was saying and as much as he hated to admit it, part of him agreed with her.
"NO!", he thought. "NO, NO, NO!!!, I don't want to understand. I don't WANT to empathize. I want to scream and shout and put my fist through the wall and cry until my lungs bleed. I want to hate her for hurting me. To make the whole world hurt as bad as I do right now!!!"
Matt knew deep down, down in that primal part of him, that he had no control of Ellen. He couldn't keep her from doing anything, ultimately. He knew that if she wasn't happy, there would be no point in being together. All that would result from that would be a forced, wooden relationship building resentment and hate until it reached the tipping point and dissolved amidst hateful words and lawyer fees. No. He couldnt do that. He WOULDN'T do that.
Matt let out a long sigh, the air rushing from his lungs and looked at his wife with a level gaze. "You have a choice to make then, don't you?" he said.
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Submitted by orphelia (user info) at 2009-05-21 00:26:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I really tried below.
sorry again.
ps I'm sure this happened before and I have a feeling it was on an old post of yours too.
Submitted by HeyJude (user info) at 2009-05-21 00:24:11 EDT (#)
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Submitted by DreamWeaver (user info) at 2009-05-21 00:23:31 EDT (#)
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Submitted by DreamWeaver (user info) at 2009-05-21 00:23:20 EDT (#)
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sorry
Submitted by orphelia (user info) at 2009-05-21 00:09:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
omg sorry sorry that was so meant to be a +2 I am just so bunged up with a cold
omg i really didn't mean that
sorry
Submitted by orphelia (user info) at 2009-05-21 00:08:46 EDT (#)
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Submitted by HurtByTheSun (user info) at 2009-05-20 12:54:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Again, top notch.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2009-05-20 12:35:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ah... Using Uber to cathartically deal with a break up. I remember those days. As a piece of writing, this is all very nicely put together and I am enjoying it.
Submitted by F.J.Bell (user info) at 2009-05-20 04:57:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Don't you have your own boat? Don't worry, there will be plenty more girls that want to be with a guy who has his own boat.
Tight writing, very enjoyable.
Submitted by RoadSong (user info) at 2009-05-20 00:15:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2009-05-19 16:17:19 EDT (#)
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Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-05-19 19:34:37 BST (#)
Ranking: 2
I totally understand and relate.
A lot of people here sort of "preyed" upon my sensitive nature by being horribly rude and said some pretty mean and shocking things but, corny as it sounds, it kinda forced me to buck up and not give a damn, and to roll with the punches. That in and of itself was therapeutic, however bass-ackwards it may seem.
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Awww LOL you lil trooper!
Submitted by PlatinumScarecrow (user info) at 2009-05-19 15:35:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
whoa whoa woo whoa
Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:34:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I totally understand and relate.
A lot of people here sort of "preyed" upon my sensitive nature by being horribly rude and said some pretty mean and shocking things but, corny as it sounds, it kinda forced me to buck up and not give a damn, and to roll with the punches. That in and of itself was therapeutic, however bass-ackwards it may seem.
Submitted by mystiamoon (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:33:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by Maddog (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:30:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:20:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I just had that song in my head and posted it before I read this.
Sigh.
I hope this is fiction and not based on reality. If it is based on reality...
As much as she won't want to do this to you...as much as she'll wish she didn't feel that way...this is what happens when people get involved at a young age when there are different levels of life experience. I know how it feels to be this girl...I did this to someone only 6 years older than me.
More points for hitting home and best wishes to you.
<3
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Let's just say that even though Uber can be fucked up at times, it's the only therapy I can afford.
Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:25:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I should probably say, for the record, that I did this WITHOUT sending nude/quasi-nude pictures of myself to anyone, that is. There was no cheating or quasi-cheating on my part whatsoever.
Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:20:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I just had that song in my head and posted it before I read this.
Sigh.
I hope this is fiction and not based on reality. If it is based on reality...
As much as she won't want to do this to you...as much as she'll wish she didn't feel that way...this is what happens when people get involved at a young age when there are different levels of life experience. I know how it feels to be this girl...I did this to someone only 6 years older than me.
More points for hitting home and best wishes to you.
<3
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:19:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:12:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Girl you know I-I-I
Girl you know I-I-I
I been fiendin,
Wake up in the late night
Been dreamin
About your loving, girl
Submitted by Yozz (user info) at 2009-05-19 14:11:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2009-05-19 13:21:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by SgtHartman (user info) at 2009-05-19 13:13:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
man, these make me kind of mad in a way
+2 emotional response.