The hippie in me is dying.... (911 hits)
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Submitted by Perkman. (View user info) at 2009-08-06 07:05:54 EDT
I'm losing my soul...
That is the truth. I'm not going to wax on eloquently about this but I have nothing. I realized this and it is killing me. I have fallen off the edge and I have nothing to show for 25 years of life. Nothing at all. I thought I could live, I thought I could live a life unhinged from the scrutiny heaped upon me. But I cannot.
I'm washed up. I had it all in my palm and it eats at me everyday. I have friends that are moving on to the MLB now. They have made it. People that I was better than, people that I have looked out for, people that asked me for advice. I just lay back here in the dust.
I have friends. Yes, friends. But the ones that I have kept are few and far between. Some hate me for the simple fact I go to an "Ivy league" school. Others have moved on to show me in the next couple of years what they have become.
I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know who I am. I don't have the effort to even go to the gym and keep my solid frame. I don't see the point in lifting when all the question's that will arise is about me playing 'ball'. I would just move 'on' but you never truly can unless you have gotten married, and have kids. That is the only time the people, coaches, friends, family, will get off your back about athletics's.
Playing sports is a can of worms I wish I never opened. But the glory in it was phenomenal. I loved every breath of it. I loved the 'respect;' the glory.
My sister spoke to me about this and she claimed "Perkman, you just want to leave your mark at CAL. That is all you want to do. You worked hard to get there and you want to leave your mark"
She was right. But, I'm too old to be leaving a mark now. I am about to graduate with one more year of college then off to med school. Or, that was the plan. I have been fucking up on my grades lately, I have no drive, I have no work ethic, I have nothing.
I can barely get up in the morning to go to class, let alone to a study hall. I haven't put the effort I should have this year into school. I have been partying it up. trying to lose my responsibility in booze. While the kid's I go to school with are 'ivy league' rich kid's for the most part, with dirty hippie sprinkled in.
I have just lost my drive to continue. I made this journey and I didn't plan to be at this point at age 25. I thought by now I would have a kid, or a family, a wife, perfect friends....
But I have had numerous girlfriends and non really stuck. I look back now and I realize that I spent a lot of time trying to help my friend's relationships and not focusing on mine. With Victoria, Jessica, Jamie. Stephannie. Courtnay, Amanda,. Tiffany. Girl's that I have actual had a lot of interest and liked me. I sabotaged all of them.
It stems from deep seated emotions of me not feeling worthy. I feel like I don't deserve a girlfriend or love. It stems from scars in childhood with the poor white trash kid's I went to school with. They made me feel worthless.
I can recall during 5th grade how it was mandatory to give people valentines. I would get some from people that were nice. But when it came to girls I wasn't allowed to even get the one with the special kiss. It was ridiculous or social suicide for one of the girls to proclaim they liked me or something. My family was different, we were new to the area, and I was hated.
I've out done those people in life. But they're hatred is still inside me. it still haunts me until this day. Why did they hate us so? I know it stemmed from jealousy because of the fact that they were poor. But I didn't choose to be middle class or born on the nicer part of town. This chaotic yin and yang in my life with being from the 'rich' side of town but having to be schooled in the poorest area of the town has fucked with my Psyche for years. It probably always will.
I have to get out of this rut I'm in. I am basically sabotaging myself and my future because I feel these years were worth nothing. I have literally worked for nothing. My credit's from JC some won't transfer over and my grad school requires me to take another fucking year extra of Bio, physics, and chemistry at Cal. I don't believe this shit. I wasted all that time to just be back another year.
I have lost my look, I don't train, hell I barely brush my teeth some days. I don't care about my appearance and I have left myself to drinking and partying at the frat house. I have been approached by some coaches to play sports, just get a year done and out. I don't have the heart nor the drive to even attempt this feet.
I am scared of how I will play after all this time. I can't be a laughing stock? All my friend's those Friends that I helped make it, by doing there homework. advice. giving them a place to stay have forgotten me.
Being a good person sometimes all you attract are fucked up people. They need your good to make it through the day to use you for your trust, assets, and heart. You foolishly need them to have someone look up to you, let you take care of them., and your hope that after all you have done they will remember and have your back. That is where I have been.
I need to venture out and see other avenue's of my Psyche. I hope to act. I'm not an actor by any means. i have only taken one improv class though taken with a known instructor. He told, me I should try it out. I don't know what though. I want to do broadcasting for the school and pursue writing my script that some of the film students would like to film. I may nut it up and play a sport and be the old man on the team for one year. There is many here because of Mormons mission's, family problems etc... and they still play at around my age.
I don't know what, but I all I know is that I need to get out of this rut I have been in for the last year and a half. I need to find the fun optimistic boy that I used to be. I need to find my soul before I lose it forever. I need to find direction.
I need to give my all to my life and put away my childish thoughts. But I have learned uber, that money isn't for me. Making money won't fulfill my soul. Art does it. Art does. I love writing, I love making scenes. I love writing skits. I love filming. But Society has told me that I need to act differently and put away my childish things.
One. of my close friends told me that I need to change my life style... Why is it not okay for me to party 4 nights a week? huh? What is wrong with me just living in a frat at 25 over summer while I'm taking classes? what is wrong with me going to the beach and just hanging out? Is there some age limit on when I can live my life? or how I behave in it? If my shit is together and I'm on my track to med school why can't I get blacked out drunk with my friends? why can't I just still be the goofball that I am? why can't I joke around with my friend's and play beer bong in the morning?
Oh, I know why. It's because people don't want to see someone who claims to be going to med school acting like that. I need to be serious and act like all the pretentious douches at my school bitching about random rights. or some other bullshit. I can't just live a life of laid back connotations. I have to conform to society right?
So, that means I must when not on the shift at the hospital walk around dressed in slacks, collared shirt, or blazer constantly speaking about going to med school. not letting myself slip up in a social setting by drinking. or else be a douche that only hangs out with kid's that are going to be lawyers, or doctors and the affluent type. Just like in my fraternity.
I can't be me anymore. The hippie inside me is being killed. Not by me.... but by what I am trying to become. Now that I'm 25 i shouldn't be drinking during the day with my buddies, or else getting shit faced unless it's at a classy bar where I blow $300. All I can say is that going back to college at age 21 was a weird experience.
But if you are going back, you must understand that even though your at an ivy league school. and you're getting your shit done. Culturally you still can't be getting smashed like a 19 year old freshman. If you want any semblance of a college experience... Don't take it. The only way to truly get that is to get in to school age 18-23, Anything older than that and people look at you like your a fuck up. Even though they don't know the road you took to get there.
That's why most transfers. or older college students just stick to themselves, get in get out, and don't make friends. I couldn't do that. I had to live the experience just a bit. But maybe I was too late to live it this long...
Sorry about the bloggish rant. Do any of you ever feel like this? plus I'm going to start a diary of this next year. My road to redemption...
blow me up, uber!
User Reviews
Submitted by LoooseSprocket (user info) at 2009-08-12 12:21:56 EDT (#)
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Submitted by iddqd (user info) at 2009-08-10 02:52:56 EDT (#)
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why?
does he have AIDS?
OH SNAP.
Submitted by beeltea (user info) at 2009-08-08 19:32:03 EDT (#)
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you're 25 and still in college? What are you, like an idiot or something?
Submitted by forthewin (user info) at 2009-08-08 02:22:11 EDT (#)
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Life is great, stop being Emo, and do whatever makes you happy.
Submitted by willartstorg (user info) at 2009-08-07 22:53:52 EDT (#)
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Submitted by X54 (user info) at 2009-08-07 18:48:02 EDT (#)
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Police: Gym shooter 'had a lot of hatred' for women, society
(CNN)—A Pennsylvania man who walked into a gym aerobics class and opened fire, killing three women and wounding nine before turning the gun on himself, "had a lot of hatred in him," police said Wednesday.
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You're going to turn out like that guy, aren't you.
Submitted by X54 (user info) at 2009-08-07 18:46:41 EDT (#)
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August 3, 2009:
I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven't had a drink since Friday at about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.
Unfortunately I talked to my neighbor today, who is very positive and upbeat. I need to remain focused and absorbed COMPLETELY. Last time I tried this, in January, I chickened out. Lets see how this new approach works.
Maybe soon, I will see God and Jesus. At least that is what I was told. Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid. People judge but that does not matter. I was reading the Bible and The Integrity of God beginning yesterday, because soon I will see them.
Submitted by X54 (user info) at 2009-08-07 18:45:41 EDT (#)
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July 23, 2009:
Wow!! I just looked out my front window and saw a beautiful college-age girl leave XXXXX's house, across the street. I guess he got a good lay today. College girls are hoez. I masturbate. Frequently. He is about 45 years old. She was a long haired, hot little hottie with a beautiful bod. I masturbate. Frequently. Some were simply meant to walk a lonely path in life. I don't usually look out, but just happened to notice. Holy XXXXX. I have masturbated since age 13. Thanks, mum and brother (by blood alone). And dad, old man, for TOTALLY ignoring me through the years. All of you DEEPLY helped me be this way.
I wish I can go back to 1975 and fix things. Awe, that wont work, big BULLY BROTHER would assert his bull XXXX. He was twice my size. He never messed with guys bigger than 5'10, or so. He is a PUSSY at heart. Remember, Michael is my brother (we have common parents, that's all) is still a BOSS. Repetition only for emphasis: HE IS ONLY A BULLY, even at 50ish! Never forget that! Because he exudes confidence. People believe bull XXXX if delivered WITH CONFIDENCE. Get it??
On the same thought, things occured to me today. Michael NEVER had an attractive girlfriend. Debbie, Barb, Kim, ... then I lost track. Not to say I had any (execpt Pam, who was about a 7.25). He married a Chinese-descent, petite woman with no body, no ass, no chest and no personality. She never laughs or smiles, neither does he. But she is highly intelligent and an excellent cook. I can testify to that! She home bakes her own DELICIOUS wheat bread! But who cares about that type of small bull crap? Mike even mentioned when we were visiting dad that "she's not very attractive".
I don't know where I am going with this. I am getting tired, feels good to write and get it all out.
On still another thought, I had 20 years of sobriety and achieved nothing about friendships, girlfriends, guys, etc. Zilch. What a waste.
Bye, for today.
Submitted by X54 (user info) at 2009-08-07 18:43:59 EDT (#)
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May 5, 2009:
To pull the exit plan off, it popped into my mind to just use some booze. I want to do this before I get laid off, for reasons not worth mentioning but don't seem to have the balls. After the gym, I stopped at Shop N Save and got a fifth of vodka and a small bottle of Jack Daniels. I haven't had a drink since September 1, 1988, just over 20 years. It doesn't matter now, I need to use it to take the edge off of carrying out the exit plan. I will be taking some every now and then to get used to it and see if the alcohol effects will embolden me. Weed would be fun to try again. I don't know who has any. Life is over, who cares? I just need to use common sense, can't drink and drive, etc. This idea just hit me at a point in time and I immediately acted on it. Same thing happened when I decided to go back to Pitt full time, first day was Monday, May 8, 1989, and to buy the house that closed on Friday, September 30, 1996, to name two examples I remember so well.
The list idea yesterday is working. I carry it in my wallet and add to it. I am feeling to good to do carry this out, but too bad to enjoy ANYTHING. My life's dilema.
Submitted by X54 (user info) at 2009-08-07 18:42:43 EDT (#)
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December 31, 2008:
My anger and rage is largely gone since I began lifting weights. Lifting drains me but I still have energy. Somebody else suggested running but that did not help me. I guess strenuous exercise is necesary for a man. So I just learned that now at 48. Maybe 30 years later than I would have liked. My dad never (not once) talked to me or asked about my life's details and tell me what he knew. He was just a useless sperm doner. Don't know why, find it fun talking to young kids when I visit someone. Brother was actually counter-productive and would try to embarase me or discourage my efferts when persuing things, esp girls early on (teen years). Useless bully. Result is I am learning basics by trial and error in my 40s, followed by discuragement. Seems odd, but thats true. Writing all this is helping me justify my plan and to see the futility of continuing. Too embarassed to tell anyone this, at almost 50 one is expected to just know these things.
I hope it doesn't snow on Tuesday. Just thought of that. The crowd will be thin so I would postpone. XXXX!
Submitted by X54 (user info) at 2009-08-07 18:42:06 EDT (#)
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December 24, 2008:
Moving into Christmas again. No girlfriend since 1984, last Christmas with Pam was in 1983. Who knows why. I am not ugly or too weird. No sex since July 1990 either (I was 29). No XXXX! Over eighteen years ago. And did it maybe only 50-75 times in my life. Getting to think that a woman now would just, uh, get in the way of things. Isolated. I have extra money and enjoy traveling, too, wtih my 25-30 days of vacation. LA was the best! But going alone is not too fun. Invited to a party on Christmas day tomorrow. Seems about 15-25 people will actually show. I like her parties; I can meet new people and talk. Got the next 8 days off. I should have exit plan done and practiced by then. I know nothing will change, no matter how hard I try or what goals I set.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2009-08-07 11:29:45 EDT (#)
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Submitted by iddqd (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:41:10 EDT (#)
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cant believe this alter still gets geniune responses
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I can't believe you dipshits still think this fella is an alter.
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hope lives on.
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2009-08-07 10:39:00 EDT (#)
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I did nor know that you swallowed a hippie. How do they taste?
Submitted by JulsInsane (user info) at 2009-08-07 10:33:18 EDT (#)
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I refuse to believe that you are real.
This is a caricature of a frat boy, people are not actually this vapid in real life.
ohh and by the way:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ivy_League
Submitted by RationalRampage (user info) at 2009-08-07 04:11:06 EDT (#)
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I would be of the strong opinion that you have not had the hardships in life to forge a strong resolve (or soul or whatever). You're not losing it, it's just so frail it collapsed under pathetic circumstances. Being picked on because you went to the poor school as you put it. Maybe they weren't disrespecting you for being rich maybe it was just because you look down at regular folk. Just because daddy and mommy didn't have everything ready for us when we came out we are less than you. I haven't even met you and I feel that vibe is oozing out of you, even worse than the acne on your back. Maybe your just a shallow jock, who tried to be cool, dated some materilistic upscale streetwalkers, and realized that life hasn't been experianced because the only life you know is the one you were handed for free. Hard work, is not studying for an exam or making that extra effort for your lacrosse (you seem like a lacrosse player) team, it's working a full time job and buying your own stuff. If you want to live, try the real world for once. Give your parents all their money and stuff back, and see what a real problem is for the first time. Fuck off, you will forever be a pretentious fag. Boo hoo I go to a high end school for free, I have complete health coverage, I don't do anything but drink and this is all still free and clear. I just want to be able to afford going back to tech college so I can maybe get a job with insurance. Please just get hit by a bus already.
Submitted by cheerios (user info) at 2009-08-06 22:25:28 EDT (#)
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life goes on. you'll find you can never stop fucking things up, and things will not go according to plan. Swallow your pride, and thank god for what you still do have.
Submitted by Wildman (user info) at 2009-08-06 16:44:30 EDT (#)
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Submitted by retrospect (user info) at 2006-08-01 06:59:09 EDT (#)
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dude, we get it. you fucked up your so called life. hike up your skirt and troop on
^^^^^^^
And, 3yrs later.... same O same O
Still a fucking whiny loser.
Submitted by melkorthedelerious (user info) at 2009-08-06 16:01:55 EDT (#)
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I'm guessing your sport is checkers.
Submitted by Liquidice281 (user info) at 2009-08-06 15:59:02 EDT (#)
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These line breaks are killing me today....
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2009-08-06 15:54:01 EDT (#)
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DIAF.
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2009-08-06 15:31:05 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Doodles (user info) at 2009-08-06 09:29:35 EDT (#)
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Submitted by iddqd (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:41:10 EDT (#)
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cant believe this alter still gets geniune responses
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I can't believe you dipshits still think this fella is an alter.
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2009-08-06 15:14:08 EDT (#)
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Method must be bored again.
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B@W BTW!
Submitted by sage104 (user info) at 2009-08-06 14:49:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That Method is *this* dedicated to this alter is endlessly amusing.
POINTS!
Also, the fact that PerkMethod uses horrible grammar purposely, i.e. (below), is interesting.
"Just, because I'm in a frat does not mean I am rich. I am one of the poorest kid's in here. I work, and pay for all my own shit, moved by myself out of state and worked, and paid for my schooling, on my fucking own!
Quit, giving me this richboy bullshit. I'm not rich."
I also LOL'ed at Hurty's review.
Submitted by haikumikoo (user info) at 2009-08-06 14:41:20 EDT (#)
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Submitted by forensicgirl3 (user info) at 2009-08-06 04:15:47 PDT (#)
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You're not a hippie. You're a spoiled, irresponsible, ball cap wearing, piss water beer swilling, emo-licious frat boy. You're only a half step up from wiggers, 6th grade educated rednecks, and meth whores.
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I'd say he's at least two steps below all of these, wiggers get caught up into some ridiculous culture that's shoved down their throats during their impressionable youth, rednecks are fun to laugh at, and meth whores have *real* problems.
Submitted by haikumikoo (user info) at 2009-08-06 14:38:31 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2009-08-06 14:26:13 EDT (#)
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First, stop thinking of yourself as a hippie. You're not. Hippies braid shit and try to sell it to scratch together enough for breakfast. Hippies don't download Widespread Panic shows, they sit outside the arena listening to the real thing.
Sounds like you're having some "I don't want to be a grownup" issues.
My advice: play ball and finish up school. If you have fun now, you'll fuck your future up, and you won't be able to have any fun later.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2009-08-06 11:39:41 EDT (#)
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who is perkman?
Submitted by Ballare (user info) at 2009-08-06 11:38:09 EDT (#)
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I dislike everything about you
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2009-08-06 11:31:59 EDT (#)
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*blink - blink*
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2009-08-06 10:41:43 EDT (#)
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now we just have to work on the rest of you following suit, eh?
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2009-08-06 10:12:09 EDT (#)
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Therapy?
Submitted by Toddler (user info) at 2009-08-06 10:04:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
You're fighting a self-perpetuating war; you can't be a "hippy" (whatever that's suppose to mean) and still have shallow, societal standards.
Submitted by Doodles (user info) at 2009-08-06 09:29:35 EDT (#)
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Submitted by iddqd (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:41:10 EDT (#)
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cant believe this alter still gets geniune responses
Submitted by SgtHartman (user info) at 2009-08-06 09:05:23 EDT (#)
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if the hippie inside you dies, will you not smell of that patchouli shit anymore?
that could be a plus? right?
silver lining bro.
Submitted by Ducky (user info) at 2009-08-06 09:04:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I'm not sure why you would post this here of all places.
I had a long and boring response, but thankfully deleted it.
You're in a rut...it happens. You'll pull yourself out.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2009-08-06 08:37:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Wax on, wax off.
Submitted by RotAtoR (user info) at 2009-08-06 08:21:18 EDT (#)
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What hippie, the one that expected to be married and have a kid at 25?
Or maybe the hippie that was hated because he used to be middle-class?
You tend to see things bigger and brighter than they really are when you talk about what YOU do/did for others. The rest of this post is merely I,I,I,I and me.
You want something to show for with 25? What about man up and STFU!
Dad.
PS Brush your teeth, young man!
Submitted by Danger_Ranger (user info) at 2009-08-06 08:20:53 EDT (#)
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goody
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 08:14:38 EDT (#)
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danger don't worry,
I won't stop writing....
Submitted by Danger_Ranger (user info) at 2009-08-06 08:08:10 EDT (#)
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just as long as it's not the author in you dying perk
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:54:00 EDT (#)
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Foolproof- as poor as they were having a house that is two story, and super nintendo, and god forbid Jordan's meant your were rich.
Our elemntary school was next to a Trailor park that more than a few of the kid's from my town lived. It was a small suburb in a small state. The curreny isn't like in California.
Where middle class is what 100-200K? ours wasn't like that.
I was working middle class. That is what I am, that is what we were.
Those kid's were welfare recepitant type kid's. They assumed we were rich because we lived in the nicer part of town with houses, grass, more than fucking 2 rooms etc...
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:49:54 EDT (#)
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Foolproof- your right. I admit that I this year haven't really been on the it when it came to school.
There are a lot of reason's behind that. I didn't fuck up like get F's or some dumbshit. Just B, B- when I could have gotten A's. I just bomb finals now I guess.
That point of this post is the fact that I am in a rut. I'm burnt out. I have gone to school, and lived on my own for 4 years struggling. I'm just about to burn out. I have a pretty tough road. With no family close to me, living alone for 4 years, no transportation and going through school like a poor student who eat's ramen.
But to go through all that and have no people, friends to show for it? no girlfriend? no sports glory? nothing? its scarying me to the point where I am subconciously sabotaging my career because I have a fear that I am going to work hard for the next 2 years and get nothing out of it. Like I may not pass the MCAT or something.
I'm so stressed out and school here is hard beyond belief and is on a hardcore curve because we have genious, crazy. pycho asians that fuck up the curv because this is all they have. Then super smart CAL tech rejects who are fucking the smartest kid's since birth. Then there is 'good ole Perkman' smart but can't study for 8hrs out of the day for chemistry. Its too much.
Submitted by Foolproof (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:45:23 EDT (#)
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Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:41:47 EDT (#)
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Where the fuck do you get off thinking that I am rich?
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"I've out done those people in life. But they're hatred is still inside me. it still haunts me until this day. Why did they hate us so? I know it stemmed from jealousy because of the fact that they were poor."
I know the next sentence says you were middle class, but that line suggests they hated you because of your money. That's what rich people say.
I think they hated you because you are in insufferable bore.
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:41:47 EDT (#)
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Where the fuck do you get off thinking that I am rich? I pay for college myself you fucking tard' Sexualchoclate.
Just, because I'm in a frat does not mean I am rich. I am one of the poorest kid's in here. I work, and pay for all my own shit, moved by myself out of state and worked, and paid for my schooling, on my fucking own!
Quit, giving me this richboy bullshit. I'm not rich.
The area I grew up in you're family making 40,000 -60,000 a year meant you were mid class. That is for both parents.
It wasn't some millionaire bullshit. It was a small town atmosphere you fucking idiot.
The fact that you base your thoughts on me, my post's. and just dismiss them because you think that I am rich or represent some rich culture shows your stupidity and your immaturity. You're probably the same fucking idiot's who dismiss a govenor. or senator's comments because they ' are rich' and don't understand your poor, urban, poor self.
Face fact's if your poor in america it's your own fault.
I was poor, worked hard, went to an ivy leauge school and I'm changing my status. Shit I haven't had a car in over fucking 5 years. I take the bus fucking everywhere. How do you think that works for going to dates, internships, and meeting's.
Grow the fuck up.
Submitted by iddqd (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:41:10 EDT (#)
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cant believe this alter still gets geniune responses
Submitted by Foolproof (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:40:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Okay, here goes:
"I am about to graduate with one more year of college then off to med school. Or, that was the plan. I have been fucking up on my grades lately, I have no drive, I have no work ethic, I have nothing."
"I can barely get up in the morning to go to class, let alone to a study hall. I haven't put the effort I should have this year into school. I have been partying it up. trying to lose my responsibility in booze."
"Why is it not okay for me to party 4 nights a week? huh? What is wrong with me just living in a frat at 25 over summer while I'm taking classes?"
Grownups put responsibility, whether it be family, education, or work, before their own selfish needs to "party it up" and "get black out drunk".
And brush your fucking teeth, slob.
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:35:13 EDT (#)
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foolproof- how do I think that college is about me and not the education? I would really like you to address that.
I'm waiting...
Submitted by sexualchocolate1984 (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:34:50 EDT (#)
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Submitted by HurtByTheSun (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:24:11 EDT (#)
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I wish all of you was dying...
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Me too.
This was pretty much a massive chunk of wah wah wah moan moan moan, people don't like me because I'm rich. I didn't even read it all, got bored, scrolled down and though "What the fuck? I'm not reading all that!"
So yeah, do the world a favour and kill your whole self. i suggest a belly full of bleach. I bet the Hippy in you trying to kill himself just from having to spend so much time with you.
Submitted by Foolproof (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:33:05 EDT (#)
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You're not a hippy, and you never were. You are a narcissist. You moan "wahh, wahh, ME ME ME!"
I have zero sympathy you you and your kind. I laugh when you bring my pizza to the door, bus my table, and paint my house. And all because you thought college was about you and not the education.
Submitted by 8track (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:30:24 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Foolproof (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:30:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by forensicgirl3 (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:15:47 EDT (#)
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You're not a hippie. You're a spoiled, irresponsible, ball cap wearing, piss water beer swilling, emo-licious frat boy. You're only a half step up from wiggers, 6th grade educated rednecks, and meth whores.
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BAM!
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:28:30 EDT (#)
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Forengsic- I am a hippie, or was.
Society has changed my view's on it though. I worked for greenpeace, protests, etc... now I feel like in life you just have to choose.
The money, cars, affulent type yuppie judgemental assholes....
or
The people who will protest forever, never conform, and live a life of squaller but on there own terms.
I just don't like the fact that because your a certain age people expect you to behave a certain way. Or if you are trying to be in a certain profession.
I have to be fucking serious 24 hrs a day because I was a Bio major? give me a fucking break.
But alas I guess that is how it is. I concur. I will conform.
Submitted by HurtByTheSun (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:24:11 EDT (#)
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I wish all of you was dying...
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:16:12 EDT (#)
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My syntax, grammar, dictition is all off. I apologize. I don't have word on my computer so I had to type this in my email slot and use spell check.
It, sucks. I know.
I need to put my effort. But like my life in a rut. I just don't really care anymore. I really don't. I might take a year off....
Submitted by forensicgirl3 (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:15:47 EDT (#)
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You're not a hippie. You're a spoiled, irresponsible, ball cap wearing, piss water beer swilling, emo-licious frat boy. You're only a half step up from wiggers, 6th grade educated rednecks, and meth whores.
Submitted by EmissionImpossible (user info) at 2009-08-06 07:11:45 EDT (#)
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have a wank