I am crazy. Today. (327 hits)
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Submitted by corn_nugget (View user info) at 2003-10-29 07:49:23 EST
I'm either suffereing from "the human condition" or I'm crazy.
Bi-Polar-Crazy, to be exact.
I'll have two good weeks a month (this is a generous time-period, it's more like 1 1/2 weeks) where the earth is a grand place, everyone I come in contact with is amazing, the flowers smell wonderfull, the sunset is awe inspring...
It's all downhill from there.
I think morbid thoughts, I wrestle with the fact that there's really no 'point' to life... I try to make myself accept the fact that we're just glorified animals, too smart for our own good...
Bart had posted about finding the reason for life... narrowing it down... what's he alive for.
He says WOMEN, I say MEN!
So what am I doing with my life? Oh, working... drinking... learning...
I've been told that the point of life is to be happy. Now, if you're going to tell me there's a god, and then you're going to tell me that god wants us to be happy... Damn! Isn't that a lot of work (you know, the 7 days of creation and all) just to put billions of people on earth just to have them be happy?
As far as it goes, hell... I'm happy. I'm happy a lot. Well, for two weeks every month, at least.
I think that a good man will make me happier. Argh, I'm always dating... and it never fails... as soon as I find that "good man" I'm happy for about two weeks (damn those weeks!) and then I feel stuck and smothered, and then I need to be alone.
I can't tell you how often I say, "I like you a lot, but I need to be alone... I'm happiest when I'm alone... it would be selfish of me to stay with you, knowing that I'm always going to want to be self-absorbed.". Then, two weeks later I'm on another date, with another guy, thinking, "He's SO great, ahh... I wonder what will transpire!".
Christ Almighty!
Then I feel awful for being so self-centered that I'm plowing my path through the male-species, leaving a bloody trail of bodies in my wake. Then I dump the guy because I want to be alone.
Oh The Angst! I wish I was a teenager so I could blame my inexperience for my own discrace!
I think it's an evil thing!
Well, at least this week I do.
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Submitted by Insanethemind (user info) at 2003-10-29 08:17:16 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Do you take medication? I'm bipolar and I do, it makes WORLDS of difference. Also, drinking? Ahh, no not a good idea at all, especially if you are on medication.
Trust me, it's very common to say this: "I like you a lot, but I need to be alone... I'm happiest when I'm alone..."
I do the same. It's hard to mantain any certain attitude, towards ANYTHING actually.
Submitted by Franger at 2003-10-29 07:52:48 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Your right, you are a crazy bitch, please go remove yourself from the gene pool at the earliest possible opportunity