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Submitted by learymckenna.at.yahoo.com (View user info) at 2003-12-16 06:54:01 EST
I have no idea of how to speak in the language of poetry.
Maybe that's the way its suppose to be, no way- just your way,
the simplicity of this idea is intriguing.
I've strived for things in life for no reasons. Which is just insane.
I walk to the ocean with my surf board thinking of life and its' activation
And mysteries behind it all. So much to think about, it's easier to just let
it go and think of smaller things. But isn't that what everyone else does?
Aren't they the ones I try to run from, try to surf away from?
I asked my friend today "Do you ever just shut up and sit down for 5 mins and
think about nothing, just be still and quite..?" He said no, he can't....
I felt sad for him- I didn't tell him, I didn't need to- he felt what I was thinking
and he just looked down with swollen eyes. He's so beautiful when he looks sad and lost; I think some of his pain is for me because he can't understand me. He left me again; started walking away from me. We have such a weird relationship. We love each other but we both think we can't have each other. Different lives and thoughts, only thing holding us together is a weird love for each other. No sex just mind sex.
Why does everyone seem to leave me? Do I think too much? Do I disturb your little well thought out opinions of the world you think you live in?
Do I make you feel weird around me....staring off into space as I usually do, I let him leave me. I watch as he walks with his head down, being constantly confused and infatuated by me. Hands in pockets he walks with thoughts of something he can't tell me, I already know, we both know. Yet- he leaves.....
"Why do you always look like you in deep thought Cough- don't you get tired of thinking?"
This question never seems to evade me. It's like asking me "Why are you still living Cough?"
Some questions in life that are asked are so asinine and ridiculous you just gotta laugh at the questioner and forgive his ignorance- they just don't know any better. Or maybe I am just thinking too much. Maybe it's my monthly fast that gets me fucked up. Nothing chicken soup and OJ cant clear up Cough, my mum says. Nothing a shot of whiskey can't help, says my dad. So many "cures" for everything yet so much pain in the world. But maybe not, maybe this is the way is suppose to be. This way we learn about pain, hunger and hate so we won't have to experience all this any more.
I read philosophers Kant, Einstein, Nietzsche, Icke, Val, Freud, Sigmund, Socrates, Leary, McKenna- whatever...It just shows me we really all are just as lost as the other one. The blind leading the blind. Everyone has a good theory but it doesn't matter once you think about it all, we are all just here. Period. To be frank about "IT" all I'm just sick of thinking. I just want to BE now. Be my beautiful self and let me be, leave me alone. Everyone has their own ways and thoughts even if their wrong it doesn't matter. Life is just strange. The genius of it all, just plain strange. No words can fully explain it. No theories will break the code, because there's no code to break. I take comfort in knowing who I am and what I am. Its complicated enough to figure that out, no need to figure out the rest, its pointless. But its everything. Everything is one and one is everything, such a heavy thought. man- life is awesomely beautiful and nameless.
or Im just stoned again.
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Submitted by Fartknocker (user info) at 2003-12-16 11:23:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Nice rant there.
One thing came to mind while reading about that weird mind sex of yours; If you were an obese and ugly person, those thoughts would seem pathetic. I take it you're not, considering you're a surfer, but it still made me think.
You *could* be a fatty, and *still* have feelings.
To be honest, that's the first time i've even considered it
Submitted by T.chow (user info) at 2003-12-16 11:10:55 EST (#)
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it would have been worthwhile without that last line, though it did seem like a stonerism.
i do agree with most of what you said -life is best lived, there's beauty in hunger, etc.
i live by pretty much the same philosophy you do.
+1 is suppose
Submitted by Deisangua (user info) at 2003-12-16 09:53:37 EST (#)
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Incoherent maybe, but I like the point well enough.
Submitted by PizzaEagle (user info) at 2003-12-16 07:59:24 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
Its been done before - and more coherently.