When hope becomes a luxury (407 hits)
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Submitted by Peter Bleeker <P.Bleeker.at.zonnet.nl> (View user info) at 2004-02-06 08:49:16 EST
As we lay there in the cold seeking shelter from the rain in a sewer pipe, my mom suddenly screams.
By now i am getting used to the rats crawling past us, why can't my mom do the same?! She woke me up for the 3rd time tonight.
It's been 7 months now since i started enjoying sleeping more then beeing awake. Sometimes i have nightmares about waking up. There are days that i wish i never have to wake up in this world again.
Laying awake i think back on how we ended up like this. Where did things take a wrong turn? Was it when my dad left us? Or was it when my mother started to let strange men come into our house every night? Perhaps if that one man didn't hurt my mom, i could still be sleeping in my bed.... I really miss my dad.
I stare into the woods as a shiver runs down my back. Someone must have walked over my grave, at least that's what dad used to tell me.
After laying awake for what seemed an eternity the raining stops, and I quietly crawl outside. I've lost my faith in god a long time ago, and my image of him beeing a cruel man is once again confirmed as i stare up at the sky in disappointment. He won't even let me get a glimpse of the stars.
As a tear rolls down my cheek, a warm feeling rushes through my body. It's a feeling i haven't felt in a long time. This feeling scares me, because i considered it unfit for people like us. When you sleep outside, eat from garbage cans and have lost all feeling of dignity there is just no room for hope.
But somehow this feeling told me that tomorrow might be a better day. Maybe my dad will save us from the cold, maybe my mom will find a job or maybe we'll find some new clothes tomorrow...maybe...just maybe...
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Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2004-03-31 18:13:46 EST (#)
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Submitted by domenad (user info) at 2004-02-06 08:56:59 EST (#)
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I'll +1 you while I look for my shotgun. I have one of those "barrel-in-my-mouth urges"