FUCK YOU UBER! my third post of the day, but last for a few weeks so get off my back (872 hits)
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Submitted by Krystal <imtheluckystar.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2004-03-05 18:27:19 EST
I don't hate him.. Hate is not the opposite of love, indifference is. i am indifferent. i could see him and not feel a pang of jealousy at seeing him with another girl. I would pity her, pray for his spell to be broken...No, wait, i don't because that would mean i would care. i really don't.... i can see a black ranger edge and not crank my neck trying to see if it's him... or wear flip flops year round and not think about green as grass velvet reefs..... I want to go and enjoy Canes and MB without him.... I kinda wish i could have him see me as i am now... not the little girl he dated, but who i think i am now, mature, taller, filled out, haha... over him.... over....and i want him to hurt in his heart like he hurt me, i want him to have every tear, every knot or pit in his stomach, every jealousy, sadness, fear, loss, and betrayal that he inflited on me. But this will never happen... i don't care.
The first night we kissed, really was the magical kiss that every 16 year old dreams about..... haha... and i wish i could take it all back.... we were on top of this hill over looking all of Vista and O'side and C-bad, on top of a rock wall, iside a half finished rock mansion whose builder had stopped bc of bankruptcy. It was clear and cold out and i was sitting on the wall facing him, he had his arms around me....we were talking, and he kissed me... then later, when he dropped me off at my truck where i had met him, he asked "does this mean you're my gf now?" "well does this mean youre MY bf now?" i guess that sealed it.... i forget what day, what time... it doesn't matter...
For like a week it was fine, he would drive up to see me, or i would go down there. Then on Valentine's day, he called me as soon as i got out of school, telling me to get ready, he was coming to get me.... I sat around and waited till 9. No phone call, nothing... i was all worried and sad and felt abandoned. Then he finally appeared at 9 that night with some flowers and my leopard blanket that he had stolen two weeks earlier. And Von Zipper sunglasses... he said he had to spend the day with his grandma... i'm an idiot, i believed and forgave him. i started to get mad at first and he threatened to go home... no apology.... i caved... he smelled like girl... we went and saw a walk to remember.... right after that... i hadn't eaten, i was promised dinner... well anyways he said he was tired and had to go home... barely even stopped to let me out, i had to tuck and roll, j/k
He said I could be a Sense model, if i lost some weight.. This was swim season... my skinnyest season....i always felt so fat. He'd always remind me of how many other girls there had been before me, how Taryn was his HS sweetheart, how he always tried to go back to Angela...i felt like 2nd, no, 20th best to him. He said i shouldn't wear makeup, because too many guys looked at me when i was with him and he didn't like it. I tried to be as unattractive as possible during our whole relationship, so no one else would look at me besides him..
He was the first guy i ever did anything with besides kissing...and he always accused me of not being a virgin. ME!! usually we were in his jacuzzi. I had a tie bikini, he would always hold me down and take it off and throw it far away. then leave me in there by myself while he went inside with his parents. he thought it was some funny game. Or he would take it and yell for his mom to come out. I stayed the night down there and he wouldn't let me sleep in the guest room. he made me sleep in his room, not that i didn't want to, but his mom said stay in the guest room and so i wanted to respect her, bc this was my first meeting w/ her.... and he's all just come in and watch a movie..of course i fell asleep, and his mom walked by in the morning and saw, and he blamed it on me...
Or he'd hit on random girls in front of me, saying oh yeah baby, wanna model for me, do his little sales pitch, and it would be more than 'recruiting', believe me! and if i got mad, he'd accuse me of trying to ruin his business, etc, being jealous or insecure.... he scheduled a 'photo shoot' and wanted some fat chick from his HS to do makeup, and said he HAD to tell her he was single, or she wouldn't do it... i was just no one.. but the shoot never took place so haha.
i wore a warpt sweatshirt to his house one time and he was giving me shit for it, so i playfully punched him in the arm, and he punched me in the stomach and told me to never wear anything warpt again.
he started 'talking' to christine ****. he wanted her to be a model. he showed me pictures of her and was all 'look how beautiful she is'... on our anniversary she was at grad night, and we and to go there so he could talk to her... i was pissed, he'd blow me off to hang out with her and if i'd get mad, she told him i was jealous because i liked her ex boyfriend scot or steve or whatever *****.... the midget one.. ok seriously now.. then mike accused me of seeing her ex!! he took her side over me... i knew it was ending.....
BUT BEFORE THAT
in about May he broke up with me, in an E-MAIL!! Then his guy started IM-ing me and calling me and stuff.... i didn't know who it was.... he sent me a pic of himself and his truck, etc, trying to get us to meet, and of course i always said no.... but i talked to him online whatever.. ya know, being bored... well it turned out mike and all his friends created this person and tried to get me to meet him at the mall so it could be mike waiting at the mall to say gotcha. i thought it was a little twisted....i mean, it went on for two weeks... i would never have met the guy. then mike told me about it all and i started crying, bc it was so mean... then he said he had only been kidding about breaking up... so then we were back together?????
THEN all that stuff w/ christine started happening.... and about 3 weeks after we got back together, he and his cousin broke up with me via IM... and right before he signed off, he sent "guess what, i cheated on you, TWICE! bye felisha" (bye felisha is from 'friday') and that was that.
as far as the sex and virginity thing goes.... we did 'stuff' in the spa... and i tried giving him head once but he pushed me away and said i was bad at it, well duh, i had never done it before! then he's all , do you wanna try it?? so i said yeah...i did want to.... but i wasn't ready and we were in the jacuzzi... and he like bent me over the waterfall in it and tried to, but it hurt really bad, so i asked him to stop and he's all, just try it... so i did, but it just wasn't working.... so we stopped, and he was all disgusted with me and threw my bikini at me and was all.. let's get out... then he stuck a finger up there and was wow, i made you get really swollen, and just walked away... the lasttime i was at his house, before we IM-broke up, i didn't have a car...so my mom met him at the Pala Oceanside exit and he picked me up there... and was all pissed at me saying all this shit and driving all crazy and yelling at me...then he wouldn't let me sleep in a bed, he made me sleep sitting in an armchair.. then my mom couldn't come get me till after he had to be at work, and he said i could wait outside for all he cared, then walked into his room, and i followed him and he's all "why are you following me around like a fucking puppy-dog. go away!"... that was the last time i saw him in person.
this post isn't to invoke pity.... i'm glad all that happened..it taught me a lot... i don't hate him for all he did. there were good and fun times there too... but now that i look back, he wasn't NICE to me.. especially now that i can compare it to how chris treats me. Mike makes me appreciate how awesome chris is... i like to look pretty for chris, when we do stuff, or just hang out at the apartment. i like how he compliments me and encourages me and helps me... he's the kind of guy who really does bring me flowers for no reason, and always lets it show that he loves me... holds my hair and pats my back when i barf, stays up with me when i'm sick, even when he has to work the next day..gets up extra early to snuggle w/ me before work, got me a kitty even though he hates cats... does dishes after dinner, makes yummy breakfasts on saturday mornings...includes me with his friends, backs me up, taught me to drive stick....he is my everything, and i love him. I know God brought us together, we're just a fit....a match...
So i guess Mike ***** was right when he said things happen for a reason... he and i happened so i would love chris like i do....
So that's why i don't begrudge his assholeness.... and that's why i am indifferent. so many memories that i don't care to remember.
User Reviews
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2004-03-06 14:55:45 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/26940
Submitted by Sacrew (user info) at 2004-03-06 14:46:12 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Ever heard of the 11th commandment?
I believe it goes a little like this:
"Thou shalt not be a shallow, self-absorbed mondo-bitch"
Die, but prior to dying, Eat Shit.
Submitted by Lucifer_Industries (user info) at 2004-03-06 05:17:23 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Kiss
My
Dick
Bitch
!
Malone
Submitted by Bennywild (user info) at 2004-03-06 01:49:56 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
If you must bitch, do it creatively.
This was overtly annoying.
Submitted by lordofthepost (user info) at 2004-03-06 01:28:40 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Jesus Lord help us, another post-killer
Submitted by youarsoghey (user info) at 2004-03-06 01:24:03 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
Thanks.
Submitted by Dazd1 (user info) at 2004-03-06 01:18:40 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Damnit I can't read anything that long I have ADHD I think. Getting bored, Falling asleep. Snoreeeeeeee
Submitted by QueenAshlee (user info) at 2004-03-05 23:57:17 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by Lyric (user info) at 2004-03-05 21:10:42 (#)
Ranking: -2
The title sucked, the post sucked, you suck.
No one cares, and you're an annoying passive bitch.
Do us all a favour and toss your keyboard out the window.
What he said, but replace "keyboard" with "self."
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-03-05 23:19:18 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
I really hope that you don't talk as much as you type.
Submitted by Insanethemind (user info) at 2004-03-05 22:04:31 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
ahh you have saved me an extra sleeping pill, as this story has it where I can hardly type and now i go to bed
Submitted by esso_merda (user info) at 2004-03-05 21:38:16 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
I started to read it, but
Submitted by fingerbang (user info) at 2004-03-05 21:21:55 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
you are a far worse poster than me and i hate you for it because i have owned that title until you came along
Submitted by Lyric (user info) at 2004-03-05 21:10:42 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
The title sucked, the post sucked, you suck.
No one cares, and you're an annoying passive bitch.
Do us all a favour and toss your keyboard out the window.
Submitted by freebie (user info) at 2004-03-05 20:54:30 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
screescrawscreescrawscree...that's the sound of me sawing wood. In the olden days that meant falling asleep. I doubt you get it yet so.....ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
U R SOFA KING WE TODD IT
Submitted by IndianOcean (user info) at 2004-03-05 20:51:47 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
yes.. do fuck your self....
Submitted by Nomad (user info) at 2004-03-05 20:40:27 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
what women want, right there.
Women want men. but they cant distinguish the real men from the adult boys. A real man isn't godlike, a real man isn't the guy that drives a cool car, the guy that always seems to have a wallet full of money. Because he doesn't care about you. Women want him. And men want to be him BECAUSE he's getting laid all the time. But if I told ya the way he talked about you, you'd have quite a different perspective of him (if you had self respect). I got no problem with guys that have it all, as long as they have integrity. Few do.
But the real man is different. He's the guy at the bottom that works his ass off every day for shit pay and keeps doing it. He's the guy that you see when you notice his extra hot buddy. You'll figure that out in a couple years babe.
I stopped looking for the best. I stopped looking for the blondes with a nice ass. I look for intelligent brunettes that have character.
And I will never, ever, settle for less than a real woman.
A man is not his face, body or his wallet. It is his devotion, dedication, and ability to never stop for someone he loves. I hope to someday be one of these rare men. And you could find one, they are out there. It's just that ladies don't look in the right direction until they are about 26 or so.
Submitted by ugaly (user info) at 2004-03-05 20:09:12 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Ah ha Ha...my colon has something so say to you.
Wait for it...wait for it....NOW
PHBTHTPBTHTBTBTBTBTBTB (or insert farting noise here)
Submitted by Genko (user info) at 2004-03-05 19:59:39 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
I won't give you a -2 because you're new here, but please...when you post on Uber, post something interesting. The six billion other people in the world do not care about your ex. They do not care about his modelling business or where he puts his fingers.
Want a positive rating? Give us something to care about.
Submitted by DarthAwesome (user info) at 2004-03-05 19:48:33 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
I have made better posts while on cocaine, masturbating with one hand, typing with the other.
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-03-05 19:47:01 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Die, bitch, die!!!!!!!!!1
Submitted by Phinch (user info) at 2004-03-05 19:27:41 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
this is not a blog.
Submitted by beer-turtle (user info) at 2004-03-05 19:23:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
get a blog
-Turtle
Submitted by DJMattB241 (user info) at 2004-03-05 19:10:36 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
ssssh <pats head> it'll be okay
Submitted by hcp28 (user info) at 2004-03-05 18:41:36 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
WTF I'M NOT READING ALL OF THAT!!
Submitted by Trout (user info) at 2004-03-05 18:35:13 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
You're making me lose the will to live.
Please stop posting.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2004-03-05 18:34:12 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Wow, you are one bitchy bitch.
I suggest you die.
Submitted by Sideburns (user info) at 2004-03-05 18:27:57 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
You lost many readers because of the title.