Tales of a Personal, Casual Slut...or, Ramblings of an Emotional Female (652 hits)
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Submitted by Beastie Girl (View user info) at 2004-03-07 01:54:41 EST
So I smoke too much...and drink too much. Distractions in my "single-and-educated female" fast-paced life...distractions from really growing up and dealing with my student loans, lack of stability in a fairly new town, and my mundane exercise of existence. I wish I could call the above my only vices...my sole weaknesses.
But there's also my ridiculous and hopelessly addicting rut, the biggest distraction of them all--a casual sexual relationship.
Emotional ties? Some. I mean, we've been at it now for 2 years, on and off, so there probably isn't anyone around who knows me as well as he does. I guess the close friendship and understanding we've developed is a benefit while also being a possible danger. Attachment issues? Goes without saying, I guess. Even during our attempts at hiatus from ripping each other's clothes off, we'd hang out with our friends together. Even though we both knew that every time could be the last, and that it had to end one day... like I once heard on a cheesy WB drama, "...even if you see 'em coming, you're not ready for the big moments."
His ex-girlfriend is coming to town tomorrow.
Of course, I heard it through the grapevine...a strong, reliable, Napa-valley quality grapevine. She's not just any ex, either. She's the one he wanted to marry...and, I suspect, she still is. Job inteview, I heard. They're giving it another shot. She's said she's ready to pack up, leave her hometown, and move out here to be with him forever.
It means I've been cut-off. It's over. AND... CURTAIN.
"Oh, you guys always say that..." Sure, we do. And every time we do, we mean it. It's a brutal exploitation of weaknesses and comforting solace and straight-up animalistic urges that's a lot tougher to walk away from than you'd think. A bad habit that's way too easy to justify with "well, we know where we stand" and "as long as we're honest with each other about everything". But there's a finality and definite ending here. I always knew that all we were was all we'd ever be, but I can't help my disappointment. A pseudo-breakup, if you will, for our pseudo-relationship.
I guess I could always take up knitting.
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Submitted by mystiamoon (user info) at 2004-04-24 04:22:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by MistressSarah (user info) at 2004-03-07 20:14:44 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow. This could be a story about me. And with all the people saying the same thing, we may have to form a club -- dues payable to me, of course.
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-03-07 19:52:47 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
So your firts couple posts were kinda bad but yous gettin better grrrl.
No some advice from your Aunty,
Dump the jerk. So it might hurt a bit but just think of all the hunky man gods that you will have possible access to without him around.
Anyway it is only gonna get ugly with HER around.
Submitted by IndianOcean (user info) at 2004-03-07 14:46:10 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
demistie.. close you eyes.. these punk ass cops are gonna shoot meeeeeeeeeee
Submitted by WiKi (user info) at 2004-03-07 14:08:26 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Jebus.
Get out of my head!!
I swear.. you're like me.. only not.
This is my life!!!
+2 because we're the same person in different bodies.
Submitted by lush (user info) at 2004-03-07 13:49:31 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I know exactly how you feel
Submitted by K.M (user info) at 2004-03-07 12:47:11 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This was really cool. Trust me, it could very well get ugly, though. Especially because I doubt he will just cut you out of his life, and you will probably end up at it again, with her around.
Submitted by ThatOneGirl (user info) at 2004-03-07 12:31:32 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
That kinda hit home...
Submitted by Judoka (user info) at 2004-03-07 12:22:21 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This touched a nerve. Well said.
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2004-03-07 07:53:51 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Deep. Few people here have the ability to express an emotion without sounding like a child whining for a toy. Bravo.
And...
Werd.
Submitted by heyzues (user info) at 2004-03-07 06:19:26 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Those types of relationships never go well.
Submitted by antiLemming (user info) at 2004-03-07 05:46:38 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
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