My story of the woman I love, who doesn't love me (776 hits)
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Submitted by Dan Salter <Jeriko2k3.at.yahoo.com> (View user info) at 2004-03-10 04:00:17 EST
Where to start, life sucks. Fair warning this is rather long.
Tonight my now ex wife asked me to watch our daughter so she could have a night out. I agreed, because she does work hard and deserves a night out. What I didn't know was she went on a date with a doctor. This woman still is the only person I have been with sexually, the only person I've ever really dated. Is now seeing someone else.
Not that I'm not seeing someone. I've been in an Internet relationship with another woman for three weeks, but it's seriously hard to "date" someone who isn't here. It's hard to express ones feelings, when you wonder if the picture they sent you is really them. But that's beside the point; my issue is with my now ex wife and why the hell I'm still in love with her.
We met Sept 13, 1994; both were Jr's in high school. She actually stalked me down if it were. I knew from our 3rd date and even told her that she was going to be my wife. I had found the woman of my dreams, but I was an ignorant teenage boy. On July 4, 1995 we decided to have sex. Gave up our virginity to each other and then I broke up with her three weeks later because I thought she had become cheap for "giving it up" so easily. Later I realized, it wasn't her I hated but it was myself for that very reason. I put my blame on her so I wouldn't feel the guilt.
Fast forward to a Marine Corp Ball. Before I continue, I want to express my deep respect for the Marines. My best friend is a Marine as is his wife, I almost choose the Marines but realized I couldn't hack it, which is why I went into the Army.
Staff Sergeant Tony Muller was and is a huge fucking asshole. That's right I know what you did to her bastard. Fuck you, you cock sucking piece of shit. Thank you for fucking her up in the head. You took something that wasn't yours to take. Not only are you a rapist but you are a fucking Pedophile. Fucking 26 year old man raping a 16 year old (which at the time in my state was a minor.)
This prick whined and dined her, then forced her to sleep with him, caused her internal damage and gave her a fear and distrust in men. Semper Fi, right asshole? You are the only person in this world I would like to........... You're damn lucky she never reported your ass. Even today she's afraid you're going to rape her again.
Luckily, I came back into the picture and managed to get her away from this horrible excuse for a Marine. We graduated school and I broke up with her 2 weeks into college. We went to the same school, not intentionally, just the way it worked out. This was breakup #7 I believe. Hey I was a prick I admit it. Well later that year we ended up dating again. It was at this time I feel absolutely in love with her. I asked her to marry me that summer and Dec 27, 1997 we were.
Everything went to hell 2 months after the "honeymoon." Look men only need a few things in a relationship. Respect for who they are, sex, and food are my needs. Every other man out there needs these things and the 3rd varies. We are simple creatures; we like to fix things it's in our nature. It's who we are.
A coworker and I were good friends and that was all. But my wife accused me of having an affair with her. My job, which I had before we were married, went to 2 AM, then I had to get up for school at 6AM. Wash and repeat. I lasted in school like that for one semester. We talked about the situation and I got a transfer to another location, to prove I wasn't sleeping with this girl. Then when I started there, we decided that since I was failing college, I should focus on working full time. And when she graduated it would then be my turn to go back and get a degree.................
To be continued.
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Submitted by yidele (user info) at 2004-03-10 15:37:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
oh, and to put things in perspective, I'm married and father of two wonderfull kids.
Submitted by yidele (user info) at 2004-03-10 15:32:32 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
doormats like you shouldn't have kids. period. your wife has done this before and will do it again and the reason is beyond your control. Doing what is right doesn't mean being a pussy & you, my boy, are as pussy whipped as coolwhip on a dildo. You should realize this, and do somethig about it.
This does not mean waiting patiently for your beloved to come home after she's out of money & blow to lick some anonymous jizz from her butt crack, this means doing what is right for your kid & yourself by dumping her and keeping the kid away from such "role models". No kid should grow up watching her/his mother acting as a meat-hoop for any willing meat. Kids need a stable, dependable and loving parents, they learn how to love by seeing their parents feeling for each other; the only role models your wife can now provide are:
"how to dominate, pussify and dump a chump"
"how to cheat and get away with it"
"how to give up anal on the first date"
You're right - I don't know you personally - but I've known enough pathetic, love hungry, codependent doormats LIKE you to last me a lifetime. You married your high school sweetie? How pathetic is that? You've ecrippled yourself for life by falling for the first girl to ever give up the pie, this is so stereotypical & pathetic that I hardly have words to describe it.
Again, the only sage words of advice I have for you are:
grow a pair. dump the skank. take care of the kid.
Submitted by Jeriko2k3 (user info) at 2004-03-10 14:47:30 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by yidele (user info) at 2004-03-10 06:31:48 (#)
Ranking: -2
You're watching the kid while she's out fucking some guy?
Not if you have an ounce of self respect, something I doubt because you've already managed to rationalize her other affair with the USMC.
if she willingly stays with him, something she plainly chose to do
ps. people like you should never have kids. please check if it is really yours.
Well no shit I was watching my kid, I take care of my responsibilities as a person and as a father.
I have a lot of self-respect for myself and I have a hell of a lot of respect for marriage in general. By wanting my marriage to work doesn't make me a pussy or whipped. I'm man enough to finish something I started, for better and worse. Something obviously you wouldn't understand.
I didn't rationalize the rape. I saw the internal damage that he had done to her. Not to be to graphic, but when she was pregnant, I was in the OBGYN with her and saw, I repeat, saw the scar damage that he had done.
She didn't willingly stay with this guy either. He threatened to do that again to her, and she felt he might go after her baby sister also. He controlled her every movement, and I barely managed to get her away from this lunatic.
And fuck you for saying I shouldn't have kids. Do you know me? No so fuck off. I'm sure someone who lives a "If it makes you feel good do it," lifestyle would make a wonderful parent. But by your responses, I bet you would run from that responsibility.
As for the other responses. Thank you for being kind. I am just venting here. Helpful suggestions are asked for and negative ones also. As long as they aren't idiotic. I don't know why he was so pissed. I gave warning at the beginning of the post that it was long. So it's your own fault for "wasting your time."
Once again, take responsibility for your own damn actions, and I'll do the same for my own.
Submitted by TheRef (user info) at 2004-03-10 13:02:08 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
and loki calls me a worthless asshole. i think yidele redefines the meaning of worthless.
don't worry guy. things get better
Submitted by Jocko_Johnson (user info) at 2004-03-10 12:45:41 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Fuck you, fuck your wife, fuck the US marines, fuck the US army, fuck the US.
I'm glad your wife got raped, I hope that guy fucked the shit out of her and put it in her ass. She probably really loved getting fucked by a real man, not some quivering panty sniffing flake like you.
This post is a joke. And one other thing...Falco is a fucking shitfuck.
Submitted by Ainkara (user info) at 2004-03-10 08:57:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by fionavar (user info) at 2004-03-10 07:50:42 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
(I think the +1 should be for "made me think or smile", not just "made me smile").
First of all, has she had any counselling at all? Have you? If not, the relationship will never have a chance of resolving. Posting on a website may help to express some of the emotions you are obviously feeling, but will not help you, or her, to accept or fix your relationship.
Why did you agree to a job transfer, even though you weren't having an affair? The issue is one of trust. She will never trust you. By agreeing to the transfer, you have opened yourself up to unjustified manipulation.
Please, find a recommended counsellor, and try to move on with acceptance.
Submitted by yidele (user info) at 2004-03-10 06:31:48 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
cut to the chase. She's fucking around & you're a looser.
I feel i wasted the 2 minutes it took me to read your story. I'm not going to read further installments, but since I already invested the time, here is my opinion: No one has exclusive rights to another person. While you might have been too shy or precocious to look for strange poon, she is moving on with her life and apparently with some success. You're watching the kid while she's out fucking some guy? can you think of anything more pathetic? I can - why don't you buy her condoms and hold her hand while the doctor is doing her in the pooper - I feel sure she'll appreciate it....
My suggestion for you ( probably worthless since you're such a doormat anyway ) is that you should grow some balls and get on with your life. No one needs a woman who that uninterested in him, unless he's paying for poon, something you're NOT getting anyway. This relationship CANNOT have a happy ending. Even if she decides that wonderfull you are more desirable than the doctor, can you ever forget what happened? Not if you have an ounce of self respect, something I doubt because you've already managed to rationalize her other affair with the USMC. Speaking of which, a 27 year old man fucking a consenting 16 year old woman isn't rape ( i'm not talking about the law, but about the fact that rape is forcible by definition) if she willingly stays with him, something she plainly chose to do. He may be an asshole, but then she patently likes assholes. Get a life, get laid, find someone who cares.
ps. people like you should never have kids. please check if it is really yours.
Submitted by Herpes (user info) at 2004-03-10 05:32:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I love the way she feels, I love the way she smells, I love the way she talks, I love the stories she tells.
there's nothing I don't like, sold hook, line and sinker.
she's got this man wrapped around her manicured finger,
she's dramatic and simple, kinetic and nimble,
she's a fickle little riddle and she makes me go mental.
I'm in love that's the one thing that I'm sure of
can't get enough of this stuff , can't get enough of her hugs,
she makes me not want to drink or do any drugs,
hold her forever, until the sun comes up.
why oh why won't you be mine?
I tried so hard not to cry. can't contain what lies inside.
could you'd call me up and just say hi.
why oh why won't you leave that guy?
why oh why must I be denied?
when oh when will the time arrive
when you look me in the eyes and say your mine?
together forever, only time will tell.
until I know for sure, now that I'm in hell.
when you kiss me deep know that it's deeply felt.
My eyes well up when your car pulls up,
feel like a dumb fuck that's shit out of luck.
love bites, love bleeds, love fuckin sucks.
feel so stuck in a rut, knowing you're love is a must.
are we really just friends, will this night ever end?
I tried to imply that it was all just pretend
but a lie that size makes a man a mess.
oh, when will I see you again?
Submitted by Lyric (user info) at 2004-03-10 05:08:54 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Relationships are hard.
Submitted by Hairsphincter (user info) at 2004-03-10 05:01:37 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This too, shall pass.
Submitted by Falco (user info) at 2004-03-10 04:30:19 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 i know what thats like man. sorry.