Small (sorry about the last time) (3316 hits)
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Submitted by Lojope <lojope.at.juno.com> (View user info) at 2004-05-06 09:44:31 EDT
I am small. I am the youngest in a family of seven. I am the only girl, besides my mother. I am a perfect little girl. I have blond hair and blue eyes. I am smart and charming. I make people laugh; I make people jealous of my parents. People like to look at me, talk to me, and play with me. I am everyone's pet.
Especially Matthew's. I am his favorite playmate. What I lack in size, I make up for in ambition. Still too young to start school, I can climb trees better than most ten-year-old boys can. I can run fast, hit hard, and wrestle well. I am not afraid of anything. If Matthew can do it, I can do it. And if I can't, I'll try to the brink of exhaustion. He admires and appreciates my tenacity. I admire and appreciate him. He can do anything. He is a big boy of nearly 8. I must be big too. He is my hero.
I am bigger. I start third grade this fall. Matthew will be in seventh. He'll be in junior high. I am so proud of him. My three other brothers have all gone through high school and graduated, but I don't care. I only know that Matthew will be in high school soon. He has new friends now. They come over sometimes, but he always leaves time to play with me. We are building a tree fort. It has a rope swing and a ladder. The fort will come later. The ladder and swing are the best part anyway. Besides, we don't know if we know how to build a fort.
School has started. Matthew comes home and tells me what he does in his big important classes. He talks about dissections in Science class with great enthusiasm. I decide I want to be a scientist and dissect things too. Matthew catches a chipmunk in a trap he invented and teaches me to dissect it with Mom's silverware. I don't get sick about the blood, and Matthew is proud. He tells me some of the girls in his class got sick about a silly old frog that didn't even bleed, and I am way braver than they are. I beam for three weeks - the whole time we are being punished about the silverware. Matthew is proud of me, a silly, blond, unimportant, third grader. I must really be getting big now. And I love him, a big boy, a junior higher, a genius.
I am starting fifth grade. I am definitely big now. Our family has moved to a new town. Everyone who lives here says it is small, but it is bigger than my old town. I am scared, but Matthew is not, so I find my bravery quickly. I refuse to disappoint him. He is proud of me, and his pride feeds my bravery even more. School is a breeze. I am smart and he tells me so. My chest swells out when he says it. We are too old to play our old games after school, but we still climb trees sometimes. We play new things too, real games like football and soccer. We are both really good at soccer, we always were. We love to play sports together. He is constantly re-amazed by my ability; after all, I am a girl. I am constantly re-amazed by him. He is so good at everything, and yet he still wants to play with me. I really am big now.
I am in sixth grade. I am not very big. Matthew doesn't like to hang out with me anymore. He sometimes still climbs trees, but he doesn't want me to climb with him. He says he wants to be alone. Sometimes I see smoke coming from between the branches when he's up there. He thinks I don't know what he's doing. He doesn't want me to know. He still wants me to love him. I do. I always will.
I am in ninth grade. I am small. Matthew is mean. He gets kicked out of the house regularly. My parents find drugs in the house. They find girls in his room at night. Some nights, he doesn't come home at all. Last year he came home late all the time. He would wake me up. He was frightened and I knew he had taken some bad drugs. I stayed awake with him all night. I learned to check the pulse of a sleeping boy without disturbing him. I learned how to remove that vomit smell from the rug. I learned how to make a boy throw up to get the drugs out of his stomach. I don't like learning these things. I am too small to know them. I don't want to remember how I learned them. So I, a stupid small girl, am going to school with bad lessons swimming in my head all day. He comes home late almost every night. I take care of him many of those nights. Practicing my unwanted lessons, and forgetting the ones I learned in school. I am still doing well in school, despite my lack of sleep. I am smart. Matthew used to take pride in my intelligence, and I used to love it for that reason. He doesn't care now, and I hate that I am smart. It just makes it easier to hide my midnight activities, and I want someone to know. But no one does. I hate school. I hate everyone I know because they don't see what's going on. I want them to know. I want them to help me. But no one knows, no one helps, and I hate them all for that. He still wants me to love him. He tells me sometimes between fits late at night that he wants to stop and that if I take care of him this one last time, it'll never happen again. He is proud of me when I am brave enough to help him without crying. I love him, but he is not as big as I thought.
I am in eleventh grade. Sometimes I can convince myself that I am big now. I must be. I am an upperclassman. Sometimes I believe it... when I am in school it is not so hard. My family finally believes that Matthew is sick. They think the drugs have permanently ruined his brain. He hears voices now. His poetry, once laced with remarkable talent, now laced with unintelligible words and phrases, scares people. His artwork, his amazing ability to draw, has been reduced to frantic scribbling as he fights with the demons in his head. This hurts me most of all, because it is his love for art which first sparked mine. No one can understand him. He says things that make no sense. I don't understand him. Maybe I am too small to understand. I hate him. My parents try to talk to me about it. They want to make sure I am OK. I reassure them. I tell them I am happy. My grades are good and I am involved in school and church, so they believe me. They can't see how rotten I am. I hate my own brother, my best friend, my hero. I hate him more than anything on the earth. I hear my mother and father say that the drags and his life style could kill him. I don't care. I wish it on him. I am rotting from the inside out. Sometimes I wonder if the rottenness will kill me, just like the drugs will kill him. It is my fault that this has happened. If I wasn't too small to stop him years ago, he'd be OK. He'd be a painter or an actor or a poet or something. But I was too small. I am still too small. And I hate him, because I didn't used to be so small.
I am in twelfth grade. Matthew is in the hospital. The mental ward. My parents' fears are true. He hurt his brain with drugs, maybe permanently. The doctors don't know yet. Doctors work very slowly. He calls sometimes. My parents talk to him. I do not. He is the boy I grew up wanting to be, the boy whose approval was so important to me that I would do anything, the boy who I loved more than life itself... it's too hard for me to hear that boy talking crazy, on medication, depressed, or (worse than any of those) acting like nothing is wrong. Maybe I will talk to him someday. I don't hate him anymore. I'm just not ready to talk to him yet. But I forgive him, and for that I am proud of myself. And I am sure I'm getting big now.
User Reviews
Submitted by CaptainObvious (user info) at 2006-09-24 00:20:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Missed this during my desert time, glad Amontillado reviewed it so I could find it.
Submitted by Amontillado (user info) at 2006-09-23 23:42:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
don't really know what to say...
Submitted by KoolMung (user info) at 2004-12-06 21:49:50 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
People would follow him anywhere, but only out of morbid curiosity.
Submitted by Envenom (user info) at 2004-06-10 21:36:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-06-10 21:02:08 (#)
Ranking: 0
The progression of the story was good. I had some problems with the simplicity of the sentence structure; I am not able to comprehend sentences unless they border on run-ons. I guess that is what smoking the wacky weed gets you.
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Haha, is that why I type until the little green line in MS Word comes on?
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-06-10 21:02:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
The progression of the story was good. I had some problems with the simplicity of the sentence structure; I am not able to comprehend sentences unless they border on run-ons. I guess that is what smoking the wacky weed gets you.
Submitted by sebcharrot (user info) at 2004-05-24 15:18:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by JMG114 (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:05:41 (#)
Ranking: 2
This is what +2s were made for.
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Submitted by Judoka (user info) at 2004-05-06 20:23:07 (#)
Ranking: 2
It is nice to see a writer of true talent on Uber. I hope you participate in the next Ubermadness.
And now I am off to comb through your past writings.
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I agree wholeheartedly with both. You should definitely enter the next UberMadness.
Damn it, I wanna enter it too!
Anybody have any news on when the next UberMadness will be??
Submitted by Totally_useless (user info) at 2004-05-24 14:59:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I didn't get to read this when you first put it on...
I'm sorry.
This was touching, and written from a very real perspective.
+2
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-13 09:30:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Hehehe... ok daking, whatever works for you! You make me laugh.
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-05-12 22:51:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Beats the hell out of me lojope. I often start reading things in the middle and if they are interesting then I go back and start from the front.
Stupid habit maybe but then what the hell.
On the other hand I guess that a lot of people can start off really well but by the time they get to the middle they have lost it. This way I know that I won't have wasted all that time to be dissapointed as the core of the story falls apart.
This was NOT a problem with this post!
Submitted by funk_boy (user info) at 2004-05-12 10:40:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
doh.. i do like it really..
Submitted by funk_boy (user info) at 2004-05-12 10:39:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
I still like this :)
But i also still think it's your time of the month
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-12 10:28:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks Sideburns.
Daking, why did you start in the middle?
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-05-12 04:21:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
A good post! I started in the midle and then reread the whole thing twice.
+2 and would be higher If I could!
Submitted by Sideburns (user info) at 2004-05-12 04:05:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
this is the most awesome thing i've read in weeks.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-11 22:51:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks, Hermann, I like your name!
Submitted by Hermann_the_German (user info) at 2004-05-11 17:40:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Now this one's a wundervoll piece of work!
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-11 11:58:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Just wondering, why was that funny? I think I missed something.
Submitted by Envenom (user info) at 2004-05-11 10:29:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-05-11 01:34:44 (#)
Ranking: 2
Great post. Virtually everyone has given this a +2. I also noticed that the author's writing didn't seem to change as she aged.
hAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Submitted by Magicaddict (user info) at 2004-05-11 10:16:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Very well written. Good subject matter as well.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-11 07:35:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Wow. Bart rated me! Thanks, Bart!
Thanks, Joe, too!
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-05-11 01:34:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Great post. Virtually everyone has given this a +2. I also noticed that the author's writing didn't seem to change as she aged.
Submitted by bart (user info) at 2004-05-11 00:06:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Oh my god.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-10 22:28:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks guys!
Fuck off, anakakakjkJAKjsakjaLKJSDASwhateverthefuckyournameis.
Submitted by Missty (user info) at 2004-05-10 19:56:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
that anarki punk is a loser
Submitted by anarki_2k2 (user info) at 2004-05-10 19:29:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
PUSSY CRY BABY YOU SUCK HA HA HA! I LOVE HIM???? HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Submitted by bboy <.> at 2004-05-10 15:18:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Thanks for the post it was a touching read.
Submitted by Nator (user info) at 2004-05-10 09:49:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Ok.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-10 09:24:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Wow, thank you, Bugga. That was quite the compliment.
Submitted by bugga (user info) at 2004-05-10 06:22:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
i have read published work that was not to this quality, this was an amazing post, it brought back memories of my own life. i was truly impressed. Again it was fkn amazin.
Submitted by yourdad <sodifh> at 2004-05-10 06:17:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
lol @ draconianKing
Submitted by Falco (user info) at 2004-05-10 05:54:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:43:33 (#)
Ranking: 2
I sorry.
Yes, we are Roman Catholic. And my mom is from Mexico. They are a special kind of Catholic. (Wake up at five in the morning for Mass every day kind.) My grandfather was one of 24 children. My mom one of seven. Not including miscarriages and infant deaths. I love it though. I love my big family. I like being Catholic, too.
HAhAHA I CRACKED UP AT THAT FOR SOME REASON. ROMAN CATHOLIC AND MOTHER IS A MEXICAN AHAHA.
Submitted by They_call_me_the_Fireman (user info) at 2004-05-10 05:33:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice work.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-09 07:30:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Not funny, Dracion.
Thank you everyone for the +2s.
Thanks Davy... hehehe, I've gotta say, this was more fun when I was writing back to everyone.
Mike, it's a picture of a tree by a lake. When I was younger there was a lake out back behind my house, surrounded by woods. It looked just like that. Matt and me used to play back there. Makes me think of him. I'm sorry it came out so small.
Submitted by mikethescottish (user info) at 2004-05-09 05:50:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
An excellent post. What's the tiny pic meant to be?
Submitted by DavyJones (user info) at 2004-05-09 04:07:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This is ironic, the very next post I go to read explains exactly what I was just talking about, the types of most heated posts by reallybored.
Submitted by DavyJones (user info) at 2004-05-09 04:06:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck them, camp and drive this up most heated all you want. It is 1 million times better then their little personal conversations that they have in their worthless camwhore posts that happen at least bi weekly. I don't know about anyone else, but I would prefer to easily find a great post via most heated then some random bullshit conversation better handled in AIM then Uber, or some weak full of wholes shitty argument that encompasses the rest of the most heated in most cases.
Submitted by DraconianKing (user info) at 2004-05-09 00:20:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I want to rape her 6 yr old pussy, too bad she's older now!
Submitted by Secks (user info) at 2004-05-09 00:06:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Yes
Submitted by Secks (user info) at 2004-05-09 00:06:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Yes
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-05-08 22:41:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-05-08 20:06:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-08 17:04:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Aw, squirrel, I'd love to be a little you! (though, yeah, I am older, but only a little) I love your posts they make me smile.
I'm glad some people understand I never meant to give my post heat. I'm not a hit whore because, frankly, I don't really care how many hits I get. I like it better when a few people read and reply, than to get a hundred hits from people who never say a word. I'm all about the feedback. And I don't think my comments really have a ton to do with it either, because I've posted about 15 things, I have been replying all along, and this is still the first one to get on the most heated list. But that's besides the point. :o)
*lojope sits at squirrel's feet to reap from her wisdom* :o)
"Teach my thy ways, oh great squirrel."
Thank you to everyone. I have been writing for a long time, and it's wonderful to finally have an audience. And a rather harsh one at that. Please always be honest with me. Thanks again.
Submitted by ohlookasquirrel (user info) at 2004-05-08 16:35:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Lojope, you remind me of me when I first came to uber, and to an extent now (except, you know, you can write meaningful things...but that's besides the point).
I always wanted to respond to every comment and thank them or say something back, but eventually I settled for replying every five or so replies, because I felt bad about giving my posts heat (and to that, yes, your own replies can get you on most heated, as demonstrated by captain foamy).
Also, I don't know why, but what you say when you reply back to people it reminds me of me.
Can you be little me? Except I'm little you because I'm probably younger?
Submitted by Mr_Insanity (user info) at 2004-05-08 16:34:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
WANTED:
More posts of this quality.
An excellent piece.
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-05-08 14:18:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
i'm finally getting around to rating this after having read it like two days ago.
anyway, i've had many a friends go the same path. some people are able to do drugs and live a normal life, and some people aren't.
Submitted by maiorano84 (user info) at 2004-05-08 02:32:40 (#)
Ranking: 2
You have no idea how much I want to give this a +1 just because you're camping your post like a motherfucker.
But....
I have to say, I was amazed by this story. Very emotional, just excellent all around. For future reference: stop camping your post. I can see you're better than that.
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as for this comment- why does everything have to be "hit-whoring" or "post-camping" to you people? take a deep breath and repeat after me- IT'S JUST A WEBSITE. some people view this as a chat room that is not real-time, and they like to respond to their rater's comments a lot. i know i do. that's what makes Übersite fun for me. the interaction. not everyone is trying to get tons of hits and get on the Most Heated list. lighten up, people. Übersite is not as serious as you think.
Submitted by hcp28 (user info) at 2004-05-08 13:52:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Anne at 2004-05-08 12:23:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Omg thats so sad But a really great story... It seem almost real I think it needs to be read out somewhere important where even more people could hear it.
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-05-08 07:07:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
"...so there's really nothing else to say....
don't do drugs mmmmmmmkay!...."
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-08 07:03:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I never meant to "camp" my post. I didn't think my own replies affected the "most heated" and I just really wanted to say thank you to people. Others have now told me that this is very looked down on, and I have been keeping my replies to one every few people instead. So that's better, right? I feel terrible when someone compliments me and I don't get to say thank you. I'm so dumb I know...
For what it's worth, I am sorry about the camping.
And thank you for the +2s everyone.
Submitted by maiorano84 (user info) at 2004-05-08 02:32:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You have no idea how much I want to give this a +1 just because you're camping your post like a motherfucker.
But....
I have to say, I was amazed by this story. Very emotional, just excellent all around. For future reference: stop camping your post. I can see you're better than that.
Submitted by Fartman (user info) at 2004-05-08 02:19:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Nobb (user info) at 2004-05-08 02:09:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Peter_Pumpkinhead (user info) at 2004-05-07 22:04:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Just like it says. Kicker of all ass(+2)
Submitted by Yams (user info) at 2004-05-07 21:18:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That was good. I enjoyed it. The only thing I would have changed had I been you is the voice throughout...Young and carefree early on, maturing quickly as you begin to bear the troubles of Matthew into a wisened young woman. But thanks for the intelligent work! Yay!
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-07 19:14:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you, shitfuck. And if you hold to it, you will have my +2s!
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-07 18:57:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You got my word lolojojopepe, no more 'r' posts.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-07 18:45:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Aw, gee.... You guys make me blush. Thank you!
Submitted by WiKi (user info) at 2004-05-07 18:23:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I love, love, LOVE your writing.
I hope you remain on Uber for a LONG time.
Submitted by LiteracyLover (user info) at 2004-05-07 17:50:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
super!
Submitted by Chuck (user info) at 2004-05-07 16:24:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
So here is another +2, so that equals +4.
Submitted by Chuck (user info) at 2004-05-07 16:23:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
A truly excellent post. Bart needs a rating higher then a +2 for this one.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-07 14:25:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you Enve, youa re always so nice to me! :o)
Submitted by Envenom (user info) at 2004-05-07 13:17:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent. One of the best posts I've seen on this site.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-07 12:59:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Yes, some one explained that to me. I can't help it. I really appreciate it when people compliment me, and I feel the need to say thank you. By the way, Thank YOU. :o)
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-05-07 12:44:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:44:13 (#)
Ranking: 0
HOLY CRAP! This made the MOST HEATED?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I just noticed it...
How did that happen? Does this mean I have earned my uber-stripes?
At this point, you had 25 replies written by yourself in a short period of time. Add that to the 47 replies written by others (some multiples) and you get most heated.
It doesn't take away from the quality of this exceptional post though. Very nice work.
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-05-07 12:21:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This brought me to tears.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-07 12:12:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Aw thank you everyone!
Q, you had a lot to do with it, I take your critiques very seriously. As yours, Circe. Thank you.
Tina, *squish* thanks.
Submitted by godking (user info) at 2004-05-07 12:05:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
How the hell do I ever get any work done if I keep finding posts like this? Excellent work,
GK
Submitted by William_Q_Percy (user info) at 2004-05-07 11:38:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Look at you go... I am so proud!
Submitted by Ainkara (user info) at 2004-05-07 11:29:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice...very well written
Submitted by Melany (user info) at 2004-05-07 11:27:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Damn good.
Submitted by funk_boy (user info) at 2004-05-07 11:22:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I like this i do.. thanks Lojope
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-05-07 11:15:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
How did I miss this? Lojope, I love the way the language starts as that of a child and matures so gradually that it's unobtrusive. I'm beyond impressed right now - I'm a little awed.
Submitted by dohnuts (user info) at 2004-05-07 10:21:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ahhhh, this I like.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2004-05-07 07:38:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
He didn't meant that saying thank you was looked down upon, he meant that the more you reply to your own post, the longer it will stay on the left--both Most Recently Reviewed and Most Heated, and not because other people are replying.
That said, I like saying thank you too. *Squish*
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-07 07:26:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Poly, why is it looked down on to say thank you when someone gives you a compliment? I apreciate it when someone says something nice, and I want to tell them so.
Trish, Thank you, you are ALWAYS nice. :o)
Kristen, I never write about politics. I also rarely write fiction. This isn't fiction, I'm sorry it was misleading.
Always, Lopey it is! Hahahaa! I like that name!
Green, Sigh. It was abound to happen. But if you are going to -2 me, you could at least tell me why so I can improve.
Intell, I don't know, but that you for your positive rating anyways.
Submitted by intellismartness (user info) at 2004-05-07 06:39:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Why does someone always have to give a -2 like the moron beneath me.
Submitted by The_Green_Bastard (user info) at 2004-05-07 02:53:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
what a load of crap.
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2004-05-07 01:37:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
"And I find it chock-full of irony that you gave her advice concerning camping out on posts.."
Advice from someone who knows is the best advice to get.
Submitted by AlwaysAnEagle (user info) at 2004-05-07 00:23:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was awesome, Lopey. (I can never remember your name correctly. I dub thee Lopey.)
"This just means that there were a lot of replies in a short period of time. The fact that you thanked or responded to nearly everyone who rated helped in that cause. Word of advice: Try to post something and leave it alone unless there is someone or something is addressed that you want to reply to. Everybody's guilty of doing this at one point or another, but it tends to be looked down upon. Also, don't think that Most Heated = stripes. That's a mistake. Writing a great post gets you your stripes, not Most Heated or Best Ever or even the MVA. You just have to write for you, and no one else. Good post."
Maybe I missed something, but I think she just DID write a good post. I know you said that at the end. But get off your high horse. That reply just made me mad, not ever sure why.
Submitted by Kristen (user info) at 2004-05-07 00:13:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Geeeeeez, rain on parades much, AJ? And I find it chock-full of irony that you gave her advice concerning camping out on posts...*(nudge nudge, snort snort)
I'm thrilled to see a good piece of writing garner this sort of attention without the aid of hitwhore tactics. Congrats on your first "Most Heated" post, lojo. But if your fiction gets heat, then I pray you never write a political piece. :0)
Submitted by Trishtopher (user info) at 2004-05-06 23:56:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Damn, I love the way you write. Kicks ass, much like everything else you've written.
Good job.
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2004-05-06 23:14:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:44:13 (#)
Ranking: 0
HOLY CRAP! This made the MOST HEATED?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I just noticed it...
How did that happen? Does this mean I have earned my uber-stripes?
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This just means that there were a lot of replies in a short period of time. The fact that you thanked or responded to nearly everyone who rated helped in that cause. Word of advice: Try to post something and leave it alone unless there is someone or something is addressed that you want to reply to. Everybody's guilty of doing this at one point or another, but it tends to be looked down upon. Also, don't think that Most Heated = stripes. That's a mistake. Writing a great post gets you your stripes, not Most Heated or Best Ever or even the MVA. You just have to write for you, and no one else. Good post.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:55:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you squirrel, and I have no idea. But if no one answers that in two minutes I will shryg and say "neato" and go to bed.
Submitted by ohlookasquirrel (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:51:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This is nice.
Now why is it on most heated?
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:44:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
HOLY CRAP! This made the MOST HEATED?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I just noticed it...
How did that happen? Does this mean I have earned my uber-stripes?
Submitted by mystiamoon (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:43:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 22:10:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Wow. Thank you everyone. It's wonderful to be so well received. More than I could have ever expected. Thank you.
Submitted by captainsbread (user info) at 2004-05-06 21:55:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was amazing writing, definately one of the best i have read, good to see something not so funny for a change.
Submitted by ThatOneGirl (user info) at 2004-05-06 21:32:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Good writing - I enjoyed reading it.
Submitted by Great_Teacher_Largo (user info) at 2004-05-06 21:04:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
My God, I nearly cried, and I'm a guy. So, congrats on a well written story.
Submitted by Yes (user info) at 2004-05-06 20:40:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I concur.
Submitted by Judoka (user info) at 2004-05-06 20:23:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It is nice to see a writer of true talent on Uber. I hope you participate in the next Ubermadness.
And now I am off to comb through your past writings.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 19:51:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I don't generally write fiction actually, and this is no exception. This is autobiographical, but thank you for the rating anyways.
Submitted by kireisarah (user info) at 2004-05-06 19:49:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
And another to help your rating.
Submitted by kireisarah (user info) at 2004-05-06 19:49:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I don't read much fiction here and I don't like much of the fiction I do read, but this was really really good. Congrats on making it through my 'fiction barrier.'
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 19:20:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Naw, the rating doesn't really matter. But it was fun to be on top for my 15 minutes!
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-06 17:13:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Yeah the rating doesn't matter. Well--not really. It sorta does. Ok, who am I kidding, it means alot...to some people. Not me or Lojope though...not at all. Well, a little. Just a little!
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2004-05-06 17:05:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sorry...but it's just a rating. :(
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-06 16:58:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It was short lived...bargled gave me a zero candy :(
Oh well--it was a personal best. That's one way to look at it I guess.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 16:17:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
It was, and it was #1 until Tina accidently gave me a 0 on one of her replies to me. Can it ever get back to a perfect 2 now? Or once there is a 0 will it always only be 1.93 or whatever it is now? I'm really sad, especially since it was an accident. Congrats on your place there, though!
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-06 16:12:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Hey lojope, this should really be on the Best Ever list.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 16:12:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you, Lucid, I plan to. I wish I hadn't missed UberMadness... That would have been fun.
Submitted by lucid (user info) at 2004-05-06 16:07:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice, write more.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:58:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you smoky!
Submitted by smokymtcsw (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:54:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It was true, you are very good.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:41:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks!
Submitted by Luther (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:39:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:15:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you Ash and Duff!
Submitted by Dufflady (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:02:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That was just awesome. The writing style was great and the story itself very touching.
Submitted by AshK (user info) at 2004-05-06 15:01:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
VERY powerful. Excellent.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:50:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I knew it! Crazy Catholics always have hundreds of children! I like my big family too.
And don't worry about the rating... Although I WAS at the top of the best ever list before you did that! :oP
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:43:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I sorry.
Yes, we are Roman Catholic. And my mom is from Mexico. They are a special kind of Catholic. (Wake up at five in the morning for Mass every day kind.) My grandfather was one of 24 children. My mom one of seven. Not including miscarriages and infant deaths. I love it though. I love my big family. I like being Catholic, too.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:39:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thank you Samson!
Submitted by samson (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:35:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was really good, I don't give many +2's but this definatly deserved it. Well done!
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:31:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Tina you just KILLED my perfect score! ACK!
Are your parents Catholic?
Submitted by Loren1 (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:30:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
God our parents are dirty-breeders. Hahahaha.
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:26:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
There are seven in my family, too. I am second oldest.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:18:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Haha! Well, thanks Loren! I appreciate that. The simplicity was what I was going for too, but I appreciated her idea.
I am the youngest of 5 children. 4 older brothers. The number 7 included my parents.
Submitted by Loren1 (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:05:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
"Awko, Thank you! That was useful critizism."
Bullshit. The consistancy of the tone gave it a simply, yet sad charm that worked very, very well.
Useful critizism my ass.
Are you really the youngest of 7?
I am too. 3 big brothers and 3 big sisters.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:02:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks Ana!
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-05-06 14:00:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Anansie (user info) at 2004-05-06 13:47:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 13:37:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks Tina!
Submitted by Titinita (user info) at 2004-05-06 13:27:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
:)
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 13:24:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks, fire! I emailed you, by the way.
Submitted by firechomper (user info) at 2004-05-06 13:11:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
awesome :)
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 13:11:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Wow, Trip. It's so weird, ever since I started posting here, I keep finding people that I have weird little things in common with. My brother and I are 4 years apart too...
Thank you for saying things like that. However, I believe BAW is reserved for funny people, and I in general, am not very funny.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-06 12:57:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
i had to make sure you weren't my little sister. while i didn't get quite that bad (no metal ward) i did some very, very stupid things and i don't know, she never said this exact dialogue to me, and we weren't that close being 4 years apart, but it just kinda made me think about how our actions affect so many more people than we know.
this is the reason i love this site so much. i don't know if you were writing this as you have experienced it and i don't need to. if so, however, i am sorry. when people battle addiction it is often those closest to them that feel the most pain. obviously because they are living in reality and the user is not.
i dabbled in a couple serious posts recently and it felt good to get that stuff out. looking forward to your next post whether it be mediocre maxi pad graphics or something like this.
this would be great b@w, good therapy. :c)
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 12:37:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Haha! No kidding, Trip! I almost wet myself when I read that!
I'm glad I made your uber grow! :o)
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-06 12:25:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:18:45 (#)
Ranking: 2
This was fucking amazing!
I'm dumbfounded. You have such a strong voice in your writing, it jumps off the page. You must have a really, really big heart. Thank you for posting this!
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holy shit did i see this correctly? it makes my uber grow to see people have attitude changing epiphanies like this guy did. shitfuck? you sir are a big man. i don't mean that like you have a large ass. you know what i mean. you don't know me, prolly don't give a shit what i think, but you have my respect dude. for some reason i get the feeling you mean this.
oh, and another 2 for lojo for ALSO making my uber grow ;c)
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 12:16:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks Razor. How do you mean? What would have made it finished?
Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2004-05-06 12:15:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It's good, but it felt unfinished to me.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 11:36:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks Quarter!
Submitted by Quartermain (user info) at 2004-05-06 11:33:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Damn. Thats some good writing there.
Submitted by slowlyrotting (user info) at 2004-05-06 11:26:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Kristen (user info) at 2004-05-06 11:19:01 (#)
Ranking: 2
Can a 22-year-old white girl from Louisiana pull off, "Get on wit yo bad self-you go girl?"
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are you talking about my fiancee suzyquezy or something?
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 11:24:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I don't think ANYONE can pull that off.... but thank you for trying! :o)
Submitted by Kristen (user info) at 2004-05-06 11:19:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Can a 22-year-old white girl from Louisiana pull off, "Get on wit yo bad self-you go girl?"
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:58:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I am a new man
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:56:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Holy crap! THANK YOU, shitfuck... I can't believe that came from you...
Thank you everyone.
Submitted by youarsoghey (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:47:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Very good, once again.
Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:47:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by DenDen (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:35:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by reallybored (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:31:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Shaydlip (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:28:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow. Awesome.
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:18:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was fucking amazing!
I'm dumbfounded. You have such a strong voice in your writing, it jumps off the page. You must have a really, really big heart. Thank you for posting this!
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:07:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Wow, JMG, thank you.
And thanks Apollo, though I think you gave me a +2 just cause it didn't say Eric anywhere in it... hehehe...
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:06:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanks Anti.... but I like Lemmings...
Haha, Trip! It's nice to have a fan! And the tampon thing didn't even deserve the +1, hehehe... It sucked, but it was cathartic for me so, woo!
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:05:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Emotive.
Submitted by JMG114 (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:05:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This is what +2s were made for.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:03:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
i dont think ive ever given you anything less than a 2... your a badass. oh yeah, the tampon in the nose one got a 1. oh well. :c)
Submitted by antiLemming (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:01:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I have that tingling in the right side of my body that suggests strong emotion. Excellent work.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-05-06 10:00:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Slowly, Haha! I love flute boy!
Awko, Thank you! That was useful critizism. I will keep it in mind when I edit.
Thanks, DeathJester!
Submitted by DeathJester (user info) at 2004-05-06 09:56:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent... Very good description of situation
Submitted by Awko (user info) at 2004-05-06 09:48:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well done.
The only complaint is that the mental age of the writer seems to stay the same all the way through.
+2 anyway.
Submitted by slowlyrotting (user info) at 2004-05-06 09:46:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
flute boy told me to +2 this