sappy shit. (618 hits)
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Submitted by TripinDayZ (View user info) at 2004-05-19 16:56:09 EDT
I was a shit ass kid when I was younger. I lied, stole, beat up my little sister. I got in trouble at school, with the law. And I had accomplished most of this by the time I was 16. This made it very difficult to understand the unconditional love I got from my parents. It's not like I was an asshole for the sole purpose of putting my parents through hell, although that is what they sometimes thought. I just made poor decisions, again, and again, and again. I never thought about the consequences, how it would affect people around me. But, in the end, I was the guy who ultimately got caught doing everything and sometimes I got caught doing shit I didn't even do.
The times I would have to call my mother at 2 a.m. from the police station, again. Or when my Dad would have to leave work to come pick me up from school because I got caught smoking, again. These were the times when I wondered how they continued to love me. They said they did. I think I was about 14 or 15 when I actually stopped believing them and went with the idea that they were just saying what they felt they had to say. I am extremely lucky to have had the parents that brought me up. I didn't realize it at the time but looking back on some of those times, I don't know if I could have endured what they did.
I met my wife and her son, Jacob about two years ago. I fell in love with him instantly, undoubtedly faster than I fell for her. I felt a bond almost the first time I looked into his 5 month old eyes. Eyes that could hardly focus yet seemed to look directly to my heart and say "Hi dad, nice to meet ya. How about ya ask mom to pop one of those bad boys out for me, I'm hungry and can't quite get that through to her."
I had never seen the kind of love that she had for this child. The way she looked at him when she fed him actually made me feel physically weak. There was such strength in those eyes. The eyes that belonged to a woman who was, at this very point in time, realizing that she was going to have to raise this baby alone. She showed none of her fear to Jacob, or to me.
I remember the day I realized I needed them in my life, every day, until my life was over. I will always remember that moment. The moment I understood how someone could love someone unconditionally. The moment I realized why my parents had let me come home to them again and again. Why they picked me up at the police station more than once. Why my dad still wanted me to go golfing with him even after he found out I took $40 from his wallet. Understanding this genre of love was the first step to acquiring it.
They have taught me what it is to love someone unconditionally. Jacob turned 2 on January 29th, 2004. His mother and I will have been married for two months tomorrow. I love them both more than I love life. I wrote the following about an hour after the first time I saw her breast-feeding him. Looking into his eyes, calmingly assuring him that there was no reason to cry. I hope everyone out there that is looking for the perfect match is as lucky as I was when I met my wife. I do not deserve her. "The second I think I do is the second I stop treating her the way she should be treated." <-That is not mine but it stuck with me.
From Mother to Son....
*When you cry...
I will wipe away your tears.
When you're scared...
I will chase away your fears.
When you fall...
I'll be there to help you stand.
When you're hungry...
I'll take food from my own hand.
When you're angry...
I will help you settle down.
When you're sad...
We will laugh away your frown.
When you're lonely...
I will stop your feeling blue
When I smile...
It will be because of you
* yes I realize this stanza is almost that shit ass evenescense songs chorus but goddamnit mine was here first and I can prove it so bring it on lawyers. :c)
User Reviews
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-05-19 22:16:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
-2 for being a fucker and having great parents unlike mine who are gh3y and unappriciative of the trouble-less child they have.
+4 for writing something like that to your son. It sums up everything.
Submitted by panama (user info) at 2004-05-19 22:09:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sappy shit is right, but the world needs more of you. My husband took my son as his own (although hasn't adopted him) and even though we are divorced he is still dad in every sense of the word. You are a rare breed.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:38:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
:c) thanks duff and versus. everyone have a good night, i'll catch ya's tomorrow. long live uber.
Submitted by Dufflady (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:32:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I should give you negative for bringing tears to my eyes.
Parenthood is a beautiful thing and you both seem to know that and value it.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:27:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
ha ha thanks conrad. i was expecting much more stuff like that to be honest. not being well known on here and posting shit like this is usually a recipe for disaster.
Submitted by conrad (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:20:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sorry, insert "not" between "will" and "dignify" in order that my comment makes sense. And have a +2 for genius there.
Submitted by versus_god (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:17:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
i admire you. you are a lucky man
and that's a cute kid
Submitted by conrad (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:12:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
"you selfish pussy
thanks for bringing yet another child into a horrible world
ever heard of a rubber?
or adoption ?
you are vain"
You are clearly a disgruntled teenager who, what is worse, cannot read. The child is not his. I will dignify this risible little rant with further comment.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:10:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
thanks for your opinion.
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consider it taken for what it's worth. which i guess in this case would be "I've seen better"
Submitted by youarsoghey (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:09:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Mothyham (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:06:24 (#)
Ranking: -2
you selfish pussy
thanks for bringing yet another child into a horrible world
ever heard of a rubber?
or adoption ?
you are vain
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That guy needs to make out with a chainsaw.
Submitted by Mothyham (user info) at 2004-05-19 18:06:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
you selfish pussy
thanks for bringing yet another child into a horrible world
ever heard of a rubber?
or adoption ?
you are vain
Submitted by ktcschick (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:45:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well hell... I cried. Again. I have that poem on my wall, btw.
Thank you, honey.
We love you, too.
Submitted by conrad (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:41:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Well written, but alas too saccharine for me to +2 in good faith, crusty old cynic that I am. +1 it will have to be.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:33:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by itchy (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:28:06 (#)
Ranking: 2
Another +2 for being more of a real man that his real dad (if I'm reading this right).
Don't mind the teenagers. Some day they will understand too. If they are lucky.
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thanks man. yeah your reading it right, he hasn't seen Jacob since they moved out here almost 2 years ago. i don't ever regret that tho. if it weren't for his stupidity i would never be where i am today. plus it will make it that much easier to get the adoption to go through whenever we get to that.
speaking of that, anyone been through trying to adopt a kid in a similar situation? i would appreciate all the tips i could get on that.
thanks again itchy. you da man.
Submitted by itchy (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:28:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Another +2 for being more of a real man that his real dad (if I'm reading this right).
Don't mind the teenagers. Some day they will understand too. If they are lucky.
Submitted by dohnuts (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:10:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm giving a +2 in part for the pic. That looks like a happy kid...and that's what the world needs more of.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:07:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
thats it? nice teeth? weak. i should point out the sweatshirt im wearing. yes i am from arkansas. i should also point out that i do, indeed, have ALL my teeth so damn you, that should have at least gotten me a -1.
(no the person in this post referred to as my wife is not, i repeat not my sister...)
Submitted by Staccers (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:02:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Nice teeth, baldo.
Submitted by itchy (user info) at 2004-05-19 17:00:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Kick. Fucking. Ass.
Submitted by TripinDayZ420 (user info) at 2004-05-19 16:57:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
id like to be the first to nominate this for the oscar for Most Unnecessarily Large Attatchment of the year.
thank you.
Submitted by mizuchoudai (user info) at 2004-05-19 16:57:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Guess everyone today is thinking about babies...