A Token Of My Infection-9 The Hard Way (1862 hits)
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Submitted by MickGinny (View user info) at 2004-05-25 01:38:43 EDT
Part - 1
1. http://www.ubersite.com/m/23919
Part - 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24030
Part - 3
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24109
Part - 4
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24297
Part - 5
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24702
Part - 6
http://www.ubersite.com/m/26330
Part - 7
http://www.ubersite.com/m/28185
Part - 8
http://www.ubersite.com/m/29322
A Token Of My Infection-9
I have always and most likely always will have to learn the hard way.
You know that dangerous and naive attitude that men in their late teens and early twenties have that they are invincible? Well there I was, in my thirties, still a head strong cocky bastard.
Unfortunately for me I had not matured out of that phase. I have always been down for just about anything at the drop of a hat if it is illegal, dangerous, or just plain wrong. I am an adrenaline junkie as well as a dope junkie.
Part of the reason I got involved in drugs is most likely due to my proclivity towards putting myself in hairy positions. When I was a very young kid I used to steal things from a store because I liked the rush of my blood pumping as I walked out the door knowing there was a 50/50 chance I would be caught. The item I stole was inconsequential. That feeling was my spoils.
As soon as I hit the bricks from my stay at the nuthouse I was back to the same old tricks.
Only now my wife who was so innocent to the streets and the kind of life I led was aware of what I was. Before she knew what I was doing I justified my actions by telling myself that I must have a chemical imbalance that requires my body to have opiates flowing through my veins 24/7 and other lies junkies tell themselves.
But now that she knew about me I had this nagging guilt enveloping me. And honestly, I was ashamed. It may seem strange to you but I need my wife to be proud of me. I need her acceptance. But when I looked into my brides eyes whom I love so much what I saw was doubt and hurt and fear.
Believe me when I tell you that I would never allow even the slightest transgression against my bride by anyone. And here I was, the man who is supposed to love honor and protect her throwing horror on her.
Spook rolled up on me one morning and asked me to take a ride. I knew better than to get in his car the guy is trouble, trouble. But I knew he was holding and his shit was the best. So we drove to a local reservoir and fixed on the damn wall.
As soon as I was neat he began telling me what he wanted from me. You see when your in that kind of life you don't have friends all you have is people who want something from you whether it be drugs or money or a laundry list of other wants. A true friend only requires you from you.
What spook wanted from me was to go to the city and make a dope run for him.
Spook:
"The niggas who were making the runs the past couple of months wont be able to do it for me anymore. They are out of the area now. I heard they was with your partner Wayne"
So I knew they were dead. Probably caught with their hands in the till.
Spook laid out a very lucrative offer for me and I really had no other offers at the time . So I said yes. I said yes when inside I was screaming no! You fucking idiot! do you want to die too?
But it fed my two habits; Money for my drugs and the fear of the unknown that was already making my blood pump.
TBC...
MickGinny
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Submitted by JohnGalt (user info) at 2005-05-10 22:26:39 EDT (#)
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I'm just now getting around to reading all of these.
"When I was a very young kid I used to steal things from a store because I liked the rush of my blood pumping as I walked out the door knowing there was a 50/50 chance I would be caught. The item I stole was inconsequential. That feeling was my spoils."
That is one hell of a rush. I'm glad that stuff like that has always been enough for me. Drugs just don't sound like much fun.
Submitted by Degreeless_Capibara (user info) at 2004-11-08 18:17:45 EST (#)
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Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-11-08 17:48:37 EST (#)
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Submitted by negative2man. (user info) at 2004-07-15 11:24:02 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Method (user info) at 2004-07-03 23:14:59 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Can_Always_Trust_A_Liar (user info) at 2004-07-03 22:14:34 EDT (#)
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Submitted by ohlookasquirrel (user info) at 2004-05-28 20:26:09 EDT (#)
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I am going to go back and read all of these, woo for mick.
And I didn't know you were the rc mc..something guy, I believe you said something quite nice on a post of mine as that alter ego, so thank you mister.
Submitted by Scientifik (user info) at 2004-05-28 16:35:07 EDT (#)
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Damn ginny you need to write a book
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-05-25 15:22:18 EDT (#)
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thanks loren, i need you to be proud of me as well.....WHAT?
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-05-25 15:12:33 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Anjie (user info) at 2004-05-25 11:02:52 (#)
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Welcome back....I missed you, where have you been?
thanks angie. but actually i was not gone. i was here:
http://www.ubersite.com/cgi-bin/message_get.cgi?user_id=1222
Submitted by Loren1 (user info) at 2004-05-25 12:28:39 EDT (#)
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Doin' good big guy, doin' good....
Submitted by Yes (user info) at 2004-05-25 12:17:13 EDT (#)
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keep it up man. yuo r teh r0xX0rz.
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-05-25 11:41:07 EDT (#)
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The easy way out is for whimps.
Submitted by Anjie (user info) at 2004-05-25 11:02:52 EDT (#)
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Welcome back....I missed you, where have you been?
Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2004-05-25 10:21:19 EDT (#)
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Yay for the return of Mick.
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-05-25 03:10:27 EDT (#)
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Fucking addictions.
Submitted by moebius (user info) at 2004-05-25 02:37:40 EDT (#)
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UGH. Don't tell me this keeps going... I can take only so much suspense.
Puppies and butterflies dagnabbit!!
Submitted by ugaly (user info) at 2004-05-25 02:14:25 EDT (#)
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I fart in your general direction. Sometimes I wish my stuff got read but im still happy with what I get. Nice writing...interesting series
Submitted by Insanethemind (user info) at 2004-05-25 02:09:45 EDT (#)
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Entertaining, i read them all just now. thanks
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:56:59 EDT (#)
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hmmmm, thats fucked up now. goddamn word processors!
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:55:43 EDT (#)
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ha. i have the time to copy and paste too.
i thought this was the best i had seen until that little dude flying the double bird
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Submitted by AlwaysAnEagle (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:50:28 EDT (#)
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This whole thing together is very Chuck Palahniuk-esque.
Submitted by Sideburns (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:48:51 EDT (#)
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I have the time and patience to copy and paste it.
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:46:34 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Sideburns (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:41:44 (#)
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how in the hell do people have the time or patience to work shit like this out on a keyboard?
Submitted by Sideburns (user info) at 2004-05-25 01:41:44 EDT (#)
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