I wish I could be a butterfly so I could slip inside her and fly (883 hits)
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Submitted by Azriel (View user info) at 2004-06-02 12:00:21 EDT
There she was. I see here every time I take a breath, which makes my breathing that more hurtful. I used to long so much for this moment and now I only dread it, if I could hold my breath long enough to forget. But i can't dupe myself, who has ever forgotten the first time they were hurt? The vertigo sensation, the heartaches, the Coldness of the hands shivers going down the spine, the constant wanting to let go and cry until nothing is left inside of you to cry, the pasty mouth but above all, the unforgettable feeling of wanting to hold someone in your
arms, to be comforted by someone who's going to tell you; "Everything is going to be alright, it always gets better"
You really want to hear it but at the same time, you want to hit your caretaker for saying such a stupid thing. "It won't get better, she was my heart and soul, the love of my life", you want to yell.
It's always the same isn't it? You are never protected from it. As years were passing by, you think you are becoming slowly heartless. Nobody can get through the incredible wall you built inside of you because last time, she was the love of your life and she had torn that part of you that makes life much more interesting to live, your feelings. Every time, you are caught in that circle. You think you can handle the situation, that you won't fall this time. You learned
from past experiences, you're above all that. But then, there is always that person that knows exactly how to get inside you. Not only is she able to walk through that wall like butter but she destroys it, destroying at the same time your sanity. The only thing you have left is that hidden place underneath all your memories. It is starting to grow, very fast. Why should you care? You're happy and blind. Your head doesn't make the decisions anymore. Even if you should have been careful, it's too late, you can't stop it now. You are better off trying to stop the earth from turning.
I had forgotten how it was. It had been 5 years since I last felt this way. I know now that, even if we wait until the feeling passes,even if we try to build the strongest wall or the highest fortress, there will always be this one person, able to take your heart in her hands and breaking it in two before returning it back to you.
I will refrain myself from saying I learned my lesson because we all know it's not true. I will risk everything again in the blink of an eye just to be able to feel this one more time, the excruciating wanting and burning. The sad thing is, when you are dependant on alcohol or drugs, you can go in desyntoxication but there is no such thing for love. Ladies and gentlemen, i have a love addiction and i can't get rid of it for this is what makes me human, the only thing remaining to do is pull up my sleeves, grab my submarine and dash head first through the waves of life.
I would give anything to be a butterfly.
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Submitted by gibberish (user info) at 2004-09-17 15:08:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You have officially won for "Gayest Title Ever".
Congratulations, have a +2, you pansy.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-09-17 14:59:23 EDT (#)
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Submitted by DaJerk (user info) at 2004-09-15 16:00:28 EDT (#)
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you fool , do you not understand that you are put on this earth to suffer , think about it , you come out crying and you end up dying !
Submitted by shadow (user info) at 2004-09-09 16:11:10 EDT (#)
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none too shaby
Submitted by Raymond (user info) at 2004-06-02 19:19:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Suzza (user info) at 2004-06-02 19:11:06 EDT (#)
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Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-06-02 12:56:24 EDT (#)
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wow. i hope you feel better!
beautiful piece!