Diary of a Madman 6 (1088 hits)
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Submitted by Bigmike (View user info) at 2004-06-10 00:01:14 EDT
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"Stand
In the end you'll still be you
One that's done all the things you set out to do"
Yes, in the end it's just me. I'm still me, but what have I done? Have I done what I set out to do? Hardly, but that's another story for another day. Sly and the family Stone massage my ego. The music pounds a beat in my head similar to the one that is already there. Mine is louder. Maybe if I turn up the music mine will go away. No use in trying. In the end it will still be there and I'll still be me.
"Stand
There's a cross for you to bear
Things to go through if you're going anywhere"
No shit. My cross is heavy. Maybe the heaviest cross ever to bear, but I bear it. Just when I think things are getting better my world comes crashing down around my ankles. Sometimes I feel like dropping it, discarding it like so many leaves in the wind but I pick it up again. It seems I have no choice. Everybody has a burden. Mine is to rid the world. Just to rid the world.
"Stand
For the things you know are right
It's the truth that the truth makes them so uptight"
You want the truth? The truth? "You can't handle the truth" and neither can I. I look at the truth everyday. I look at it in the mirror. I look at it in my surroundings. It looks back at me. It is laughing and it doesn't care if I hear. It makes me more uptight than it would you. Maybe. Can I bear to face the truth? If I did face it would I go mad? If I did would It go mad?
"Stand
All the things you want are real
You have you to complete and there is no deal"
Are the things that I want real? I know that people are real, or somewhat real. You can bend them and flex them. You can make them do your bidding. Everybody has a point where they give up....everybody. Sometimes it's a long journey but the destination is the same. The destination is always the same. I have beaten them down, I have dominated. I have tried to make sense and I have made no sense at all. What is real? Does anybody know. Is this pen that I write with real? Is the blood on the floor real? How about all the hair, the miles of hair everywhere, is that all real? How do I complete me? One of them will tell me, I know this for sure. One of them will stand and tell me, someday. Then my work will be done and I will be complete.
"Stand. stand, stand
Stand. stand, stand"
Yes, get the fuck up you miserable piece of garbage. Get off of my floor. You make me want to puke. You are a useless waste. Stop crying. GET UP! STAND YOU FUCKER!
"Stand
You've been sitting much too long
There's a permanent crease in your right and wrong"
Where have I heard this before? I was lectured on perspective once or twice or a million times before. A crease? I know right from wrong, I don't care what anybody says. Who the hell are they to judge me? I have good perspective, good ideas, great dexterity. I don't sit. I can't sit. I must stand. You will know my rights and my wrongs. You will witness them, read about them, shed tears over them. I don't care.
"Stand
There's a midget standing tall
And the giant beside him about to fall"
I was that midget standing tall. I told them that I would make them see. I told them they could mark my words. I promised them that I would be found famous. It doesn't matter that they don't know yet. They will. My legend will live large and stand over the falling giant that is society. I will loom menacingly and my promises will be the stuff of fables.
"Stand. stand, stand
Stand. stand, stand"
I am trying. I am. You are trying. You cannot. I find this both ironic and satisfying.
"Stand
They will try to make you crawl
And they know what you're saying makes sense and all"
I was told that I don't make sense. That my mind doesn't MAKE SENSE. The last one told me before she had to go away. She tried to sooth me, to be friends with me. She made no sense and I made all the sense. I think I left her tongue in a jar by my bed. She doesn't make much sense now. I talk to her ocassionally.
"Stand
Don't you know that you are free
Well at least in your mind if you want to be"
They were all free in their minds at the end. I helped them be free. I destroyed their chains, their bouondaries and set them on a different journey. I set them free to roam purgatory with all the others who are lost and wanting to go home. Will I see them again? Maybe, maybe not. Time will tell. Will they all stand against me as I wander limbo in a haze of want and regret? Will they take me apart limb by limb only to find that dead souls never rest until they are truly put to death? Will they understand????? Will I ever be free?
"Everybody
Stand, stand, stand"
Yeah, just try to, I dare you, you fucks.
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2004-12-31 06:35:36 EST (#)
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Submitted by Fabish (user info) at 2004-08-08 00:48:17 EDT (#)
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Sickening sweet.
Submitted by sparkle_pink (user info) at 2004-07-17 01:06:41 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-06-10 21:50:41 EDT (#)
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Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2004-06-10 01:50:42 (#)
Ranking: 2
Very interesting.
*fake German accent*
So, tell me about your mother.
My mother died 12 years ago. She was a heavy smoker and an alcoholic who raised her children and then forgot how to be civil.
After she died we found out that she had been having an affair for the better part of 20 years. We found this out because of the insurance policy beneficiaries. He was the sole beneficiary of one of her biggest policies.
She also suffered from an addiction to gambling and once stole in excess of ioo thousand dollars from my aunt after my uncle died and left a substantial amount of money.
Other than that, she was terrific.
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2004-06-10 07:53:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Great read. I am truly impressed by your talent.
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-06-10 04:17:45 EDT (#)
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This series is great!
I am now officially forced to dedicate a post to you:
http://www.ubersite.com/m/35426
Well, kinda...
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2004-06-10 01:50:42 EDT (#)
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Very interesting.
*fake German accent*
So, tell me about your mother.
Submitted by Spiral_Abraxis (user info) at 2004-06-10 01:37:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent.
Submitted by SpikeGoddess (user info) at 2004-06-10 01:05:50 EDT (#)
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You are so fucking good.
Thank-you for this story.
Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-06-10 00:55:14 EDT (#)
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