Diary of a Madman 7 (1034 hits)
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Submitted by Bigmike (View user info) at 2004-06-19 23:34:52 EDT
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I shaved my head today.
It was fine. I like it. Nice and smooth. The razor felt hard and unwielding in my hand. Razor sharp. Razor sharp.
It feels good to rub my hands on the smooth, raw skin of my scalp. I cut myself a couple of times but it was ok. I liked it.
I look weird without eyebrows but I also feel that I look sensuous with a hard edge. The razor made a scraping noise as I cut them off. I could feel it inside my head. In stereo. My baldness reminds me of those boys downtown, the ones who come on to me all the time. The ones who always ask for money. The disgusting, lost ones.
I brought one home with me today. As I sit here watching his eyes dart around through the mask, I feel an elation of finally giving him what he wanted all along, release.
He's not a boy in the true sense of the word, but he is a boy to me. He said he's 21 but I believe he's eighteen or so. A street urchin, societal waste, his head is so smooth, his eyebrows so light, his facial stubble so nonexistent.
A new pet, a stray off of the street.
He has fear, I can see it in those eyes. I wonder if the fear he is feeling is different from the fear he felt as he was out working the streets for the first time. I wonder what a young boy fears most when he realizes that the street is his home and there is nowhere to go but down. So far down that you begin selling yourself to men for a good nights sleep or a couple of bucks for a room and a shower. Is it real fear? Is it a fear that stays with them for all time?
What is it like waking up in a strange man's bed looking at strange furniture, staring at the strange pattern in the wallpaper on the walls of a strange room in a strange house? What is it like for him to look around this strange room now, at his strange bindings with the strange clothing that I have put on him, and across the room at the strange man who lives in the strange house with the strange wallpaper?
I wonder if it feels strange?
I think I'll cut him open now and bury my newly bald head into his intestines. When they find him they will wonder what kind of a psychopath would do such a thing. I am not a psychopath. I resent them even calling me one. They don't fucking know, nobody knows. Nobody. They just have fear of the unknown. Fear of what they cannot understand.
I will get to them. I will teach them fear. I will teach everybody.
Then they will know.
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2004-12-31 06:40:34 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by fartmilfone (user info) at 2004-08-29 18:38:38 (#)
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dickhead
Submitted by fartmilfone (user info) at 2004-08-29 18:38:38 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Fabish (user info) at 2004-08-08 00:50:35 EDT (#)
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And they thought 'American Psycho' was something a sick pleasure.
Submitted by Vomitoxin_AKA_Cyst_Master (user info) at 2004-07-17 01:14:52 EDT (#)
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shenanigens
Submitted by sparkle_pink (user info) at 2004-07-17 01:08:27 EDT (#)
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Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-07-17 00:31:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I love how each post could stand on its own but are tied together.
Submitted by AshK (user info) at 2004-06-21 14:39:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Playing catch up again. Of course, then I get to read some extra craziness.
I have a very sick facination with this characters actions.
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-06-20 21:56:09 EDT (#)
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It's interesting that this series has such a small but devoted following.
Thank you for continuing to follow the thoughts of this unique personality.
Submitted by FilthyAssistant (user info) at 2004-06-20 09:40:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I like this a lot.
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2004-06-20 07:42:35 EDT (#)
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I just peed a little.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-06-20 07:25:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You rock my warped little world.
If you could just keep writing these for, oh.. let's say the next twenty years or so, I'd be deeply appreciative.
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-06-20 06:23:13 EDT (#)
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Remember what I said mike? "typing with one hand while fondling his latest victim's spleen with the other." Remember that? I still claim it's fucking 100% true! :D
Submitted by Donitsu2002 (user info) at 2004-06-20 04:18:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
good stuff.
Submitted by RideJohnnyRide (user info) at 2004-06-19 23:37:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Man this series makes me want to go out and kill puppies or something.
In a good way
Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-06-19 23:36:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Holy shit, isn't that Wilford Brimley from The Thing?