A Token Of My Infection - 13- Good Girls and Bad Boys (2215 hits)
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Submitted by MickGinny (View user info) at 2004-06-22 11:34:16 EDT
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A Token Of My Infection - 13
Seth asked my wife how I was when he seen her at work Monday morning.
That let her know that I was definitely on the horse again.
Listen to me. You have to understand something about my wife. She was completely innocent when I met her. So up until I went to the nuthouse she had no idea that I even had a drug problem. I could come home with my eyes dilated completely black, wearing long sleeve shirts in the summertime, dose up downstairs and nod the rest of the night and she wouldn't know what was up.
She grew up in a small city that had very little crime or drugs. Her family had nothing more than a few too many at a wedding reception once in awhile. Whereas I grew up in southern California pinching my brothers bag and drinking booze by the time I was nine.
She did everything right whereas I did everything wrong.
When I was starting fires, shoplifting, and getting expelled from elementary schools> she was being a regular little girl, playing with dolls, skipping rope and drawing on sidewalks with chalk.
When I was serving time in the California youth authority> she was in ninth grade playing volley ball for the school and earning straight A's.
When I was marrying some evil bitch in Las Vegas for all the wrong reasons> she was graduating High school as valedictorian of her class and earning an academic scholarship.
When I met her as a young man in my early twenties my initial intention was to use her to get myself out of a bad situation. She was a college graduate with a good career and I was broke. I had just been evicted from my apartment my van was seized by the police because it was a stolen vehicle. I had numerous bench warrants for my arrest and a lot of other bad shit was coming at me from all sides.
But I gotta tell you the truth, after just a few times dating her as a friend I fell in love with her. There was no way I could use her and throw her away when I was done as I intended. I had been married before and had lots of girlfriends but I was never in love with anyone, until her.
She gave me hope and strength that I could overcome everything crushing against me. I wanted to change and be the kind of man that she deserved. It may sound silly but I wanted her to be proud of me.
I cant begin to describe to you what this girl meant to me she was my angel. For crissakes I didn't even try to sleep with her while we were first dating. Not that I didn't want to but I didn't want to do anything that she would regret after we parted ways. I wanted to enjoy her while I had her and leave her the same as I found her for someone that could offer her the things she deserved in life, the things I could not offer her.
She accepted me as I was. Initially her intentions were to dabble with fire a little bit. I was a strong well built good looking blue eyed blonde haired Southern California boy with a wild side. That was very attractive to a sheltered East coast girl. It is a fact: good girls like bad boys.
However, as the weeks went on she began to fall in love with me too. And that scared me. Her love didn't scare me what scared me was that if I accepted her love and pursued a relationship with her I would certainly drag her down into the muck with me.
I made a hard decision one night. I made up my mind that I was going to break it off with her before our feelings for each other went any further. I decided that sooner was better than later so the next night as we were driving to a club I began to tell her that I didn't want to see her anymore.
"Listen Cathy, it has been a lot of fun the past couple of weeks but I don't think we should see each other anymore. I really like you but I have some things I need to work out on my own and seeing you is interfering with that"
"WHAT!? What is so important that you wont have any time to see me? That doesn't make any sense"
We went back and forth for awhile. I told her all kinds of lies to try and make her hate me and want to break up with me including that I was seeing someone else, but she wasn't having it. She knew I was lying. I didn't want to but she finally ground me down to admitting the real reason why.
"Ok look, you are too good for me. You deserve a better man than me. I care about you too much to drag you down with me. If you keep seeing me your life will eventually get as fucked up as mine and I don't want to be responsible for that. There is nothing you can say that is going to change my mind so just accept it, it is the best thing, believe me."
I asked her to pull over. I got out of her car fast and stood up so she wouldn't see the tears that were purging from my eyes. I was pissed. I was pissed that she was making this harder on me than it already was. I was pissed that I was such a fuck up. I was pissed that I had fell in love with her.
I wiped my eyes , closed the car door then leaned in and said "good bye Cathy"
TBC.
MickGinny
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Submitted by Degreeless_Capibara (user info) at 2004-11-08 18:15:38 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
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Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-11-08 17:57:44 EST (#)
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Submitted by Method (user info) at 2004-07-03 23:29:37 EDT (#)
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I also just read the entire series in one sitting, something I have never done on this site. Your words spoke to me. Real life tends to do that. Growing up in NY, doing shit that is eerily similiar to what went on here, seeing the things I have seen, drug running, etc., I suppose it strikes a nerve with me. I don't know if it's the dark mood I've been in the last few days, but reading this has been therapuetic.
Thank you.
Submitted by Can_Always_Trust_A_Liar (user info) at 2004-07-03 22:35:10 EDT (#)
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Fuck. This sucks. I read this entire series today, one after the other, constatly aware that I have more to get to, when suddenly, it's done and you haven't written anymore yet. Goddamnit.
To quote Inigo Montoya: "I hate waiting."
Submitted by gle_ek (user info) at 2004-07-01 22:45:23 EDT (#)
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i love this series!!
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-06-27 19:19:42 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Cindys_Younger_Sister (user info) at 2004-06-27 15:48:55 (#)
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mick, come on man, please stop using 'seen' in that context, it ruins the whole first part.
"he saw" would be correct, if you didn't know. "i saw" would be correct
not "i seen" or "he seen"
good story as always though
I spell check and grammar check. but i leave the red squiggly lines on certain words and phrases. because that is how i talk. just because i was taught a certain way does not mean that i have to agree with it.
people understand what i am saying regardless of the fact it is improper grammar.
now if i would have wrote: just because i was teached a certain way. or
just because i was learned a certain way
i could see how that would be distracting.
i know what you are saying: he saw to it vs. he seen to it. however, they mean the same to me.
Submitted by Cindys_Younger_Sister (user info) at 2004-06-27 15:48:55 EDT (#)
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mick, come on man, please stop using 'seen' in that context, it ruins the whole first part.
"he saw" would be correct, if you didn't know. "i saw" would be correct
not "i seen" or "he seen"
good story as always though
Submitted by jimbobjoe (user info) at 2004-06-27 15:38:49 EDT (#)
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More. Now.
Submitted by chipolatte (user info) at 2004-06-24 19:17:18 EDT (#)
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I can see a lot of dollars being wasted on the Uberboard.
Oh, what? good post.
Submitted by Anansie (user info) at 2004-06-24 15:26:01 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Scientifik (user info) at 2004-06-24 15:18:34 EDT (#)
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Just so you know Ginny, I no longer visit ubersite unless it's to check to see if there is another part of your memoirs.
Submitted by JewdoMaster (user info) at 2004-06-23 05:09:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I can't wait until I can give a +2 to the next one!
Submitted by WhoLetYouIn (user info) at 2004-06-22 21:57:03 EDT (#)
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I have found that these always pop up rihgt when I forget about them...and my interest is always immediately resparked. Awesome possum.
Submitted by antluvdog (user info) at 2004-06-22 21:49:17 EDT (#)
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I love this series.
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-06-22 14:08:53 EDT (#)
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I'm speechless...
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-06-22 13:17:54 EDT (#)
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well WQP, i have to go extreme megalomaniacal and quote myself
-I am not offended by those who under estimate me due to my appearance or my actions in fact, I count on it. It is what gives me my edge. -MickGinny.
Submitted by William_Q_Percy (user info) at 2004-06-22 13:07:18 EDT (#)
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I would never peg you as being able to write as well as this by looking at you.
I would probably be inclined to shit in my pants if I saw you.
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-06-22 13:00:14 EDT (#)
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yea munkey. i know its not as clever as say, shitfuck for instance.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-06-22 12:53:43 EDT (#)
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are you a mickginny becasue you are half irish and half italian?
Submitted by Yes (user info) at 2004-06-22 12:43:16 EDT (#)
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no words, man....
Submitted by Phinch (user info) at 2004-06-22 12:36:37 EDT (#)
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you know why i love the stories you write? because you've lived them, and had interesting things happen.
Submitted by Totally_useless (user info) at 2004-06-22 12:09:32 EDT (#)
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Should it be Mickingway?
Or maybe Heminginny?
This latest one DEFINITELY puts the dick on the dog...
Thanks, Mick.
Submitted by indigogecko (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:56:50 EDT (#)
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you've done it again... can I have some more?
Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:55:08 EDT (#)
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nite apollo.
remember: S O C C E R
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:54:23 EDT (#)
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right this fake apollo is either british or oz.
i am going to go with british.
only we have ginsters.
or do the ozzies?
I need to do some research.
good post.
Submitted by SundanceKid (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:51:05 EDT (#)
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Submitted by ApolIo88 (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:44:33 EDT (#)
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I had a cheese sandwich for my supper and some bread stuck to the roof of my mouth, and I choked and was scared. Mum gave me some milk and I'm ok now.
Night Mr MikeGinsterPasty.
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:42:48 EDT (#)
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Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-06-22 11:41:46 EDT (#)
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I know that someday in the future if I'm in a Waldenbooks, and a book titled "A Token of My Infection" catches the corner of my eye, I'm buying it.