Circles (792 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: 1.86 on 17 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Scott James (View user info) at 2004-06-30 01:23:16 EDT
The dusk settles in the west and I think of all the things that ended today.
I think of my parents and how many times did they hit rock bottom only to rise up again only to fall at the last. I think of all the children lost to the darkness, the lovers torn apart by bitterness and countries brought to their knees by despair.
I wonder whether it was all worth it and why any of us should bother to rebuild when so many of us only rise up so that we can fall back down.
I look to the stars and smile because tomorrow the sun will rise again as it did today and the day before that. I think of parents again.
They always had faith, even up until the end. Even when they knew it was futile and beyond repair, they still had hope.
I heard them and others swear that they would never love again. After all who would want to put themselves through all that again?
I think of all the lies and all the fights. The words I did not mean. The empty threats. I think of all the things I should never have said. Why would I want to do it all again?
But more importantly, I think of all the things I should have said. The times I didn't hold her in my arms when she needed me. I think of all the times I should have said the right thing but instead kept silent and once more I ask why?
And I know it is because just one more minute watching her asleep in my arms is worth a thousand lonely sleepless nights.
Except next time I will do it right.
I remember going to the store with her on my arm. I waited while she went inside. Her grin told me how much she loved me. It used to break me in half, so sometimes I returned the very same grin just out of spite. When I was alone the man on the corner said, "Love is pain."
I turned to him and smiled, "It would not be worth anything if it wasn't."
Love is as cruel as she is kind. She is the most deceptive of temptresses. But the rewards she offers will always bring her redemption. The most generous is the one she gives in exchange for all the faith you ever had in your heart.
Tonight I stand in my castle for the last time. The banners have been lowered and I will soon be own my way. Funny, how what you miss the most can leave you feeling like a stranger in your own life, especially in your own home.
I look to the east. The sun is rising.
A brand new day awaits me.
Maybe this will be the one that brings me full circle.
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Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-08-15 00:16:40 EDT (#)
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Actually Yidele, this was just a bit a of catharsis. Rest assured that after I wrote this I immediately went about shouting at old people, dropkicking orphans and slapping mimes.
Submitted by yidele (user info) at 2004-08-15 00:04:39 EDT (#)
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wtf, scott? how did you wind up a pussy? I mean the pic was good, but all that pain & suffering is making me thirsty. Stop being sorry for yourself and leave some bloody welts on the world, you vpoon!
Submitted by Rainer (user info) at 2004-08-14 22:44:59 EDT (#)
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Boy, am I glad I clicked on "view user info."
Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-07-13 21:38:08 EDT (#)
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Oh, I'm still around. I was on a little vacation back to the land of my fathers and had limited internet access. I also have a wonderful story to tell about my little adventure with Dano last Saturday. I should have it ready in the next few hours.
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-07-13 21:28:22 EDT (#)
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Where the fuck are you Scott.
It seems like you have fallen off the planet.
Oh hang on you dissapeared about when Squirrel went to 'ballet school'
Ok come clean you dirty bastard! You have been with her haven't you. Go on admit it!
Ve Haf Vays of Makink You Talk you know.
Submitted by AlwaysAnEagle (user info) at 2004-07-13 21:23:13 EDT (#)
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I know the feeling.
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2004-07-13 21:10:04 EDT (#)
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Get on AIM, limey.
Submitted by jimbo (user info) at 2004-07-13 15:35:22 EDT (#)
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Now THIS one is about me, right?
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2004-06-30 17:24:29 EDT (#)
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"And I know it is because just one more minute watching her asleep in my arms is worth a thousand lonely sleepless nights."
Love that line.
One day hon, it will happen.
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2004-06-30 16:27:57 EDT (#)
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Submitted by youarsoghey (user info) at 2004-06-30 11:15:58 EDT (#)
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Very nice. Resize your pictures, damn it.
Submitted by Ainkara (user info) at 2004-06-30 05:56:27 EDT (#)
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That was beautiful...
Submitted by hairsphincter2 (user info) at 2004-06-30 02:52:31 EDT (#)
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Murphy should read this.
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-06-30 02:36:01 EDT (#)
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SJ I am now married again for the third time.
My first was a nutter.
My second was a social climber.
This time I know I have got it right. I am doing it all over again because I love her. We ARE NOT having any more kids though. We think 5 between us is enough!
Submitted by Dashel (user info) at 2004-06-30 02:07:03 EDT (#)
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Everyone wants to be needed.
Submitted by Siren (user info) at 2004-06-30 01:44:55 EDT (#)
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Amen. Muy bien.
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-06-30 01:27:48 EDT (#)
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Nice job SJ