Love and pain go together like lamb and tunafish (828 hits)
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Submitted by Beer_bong (View user info) at 2004-07-28 19:12:41 EDT
The summer after my sophmore year I started dating Nikki. She was the love of my life. I had known her all my life. We had done everything together. The first time we ever skipped school was together. The first time we got high, it was together. Our first kiss, together. When we finally came together, it was like my life had finally found its meaning. I had never been so happy in my entire life.
We were happy, so happy. Every moment I saw her was bliss. Everytime we kissed, pure extasy. The first time she stayed the night I woke up and saw her head resting on my chest. I can't even put into words how incredible it felt. My life was perfect.
In February last year my life came crashing down. I found out she cheated on me. I was crushed. I had given this girl my heart and my soul. And she had stepped on it. I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move. I spent the next 3 weeks in bed, only getting up to drag myself to school. When I was there, I didn't do anything. I just sat and waited to go home and go back to my bed. I lost 27 pounds during that period.
Finally, my friend Chase came and visited me. He had been there for me my entire life. He was my best friend. He said something to me that I will never forget. He said " Paul, you love Nikki. She has been calling me for the last 3 weeks asking me to talk to you. She loves you. She wants to be with you, and I think you should do what you can to try make it work. You two are meant for each other, I know it." Chase had always looked out for me. I no reason to distrust him. I talked to Nikki and forgave her. Again my life was the way it should be; perfect.
School ended that year and we were still together, happily. But on July 2nd, and I'm sure this won't come as a surprise to anyone, I found out Nikki had cheated on me again. I was again, crushed. This time though I chose a different path in dealing with my grief. Copious amounts of drugs. Over the next 10 days I smoke enough weed to make a bull elephant go colorblind. I did enough coke to make Tony Montana go straight. I did enough X to make, uh, well I did a lot of X. I had lost my reason to live. I no longer cared about anything.
Chase payed another visit to me on the 13th. My cousin, whom I had been staying with, had gone out. I'd had enough. I grabbed my cousins gun, a peice of paper and a pen. I went into the bathroom and wrote out my suicide note. As I finished I sat on the sink looking in the mirror. I saw a man that I had never wanted to see. A useless lump. I had no reason to live. As I sat there, Chase walked in. He saw me, the gun and the note. The next thing that happened truely changed my life forever.
He beat the shit out of me.
He kicked my ass through every room of the house and into the back yard. After a good 20 minutes of this he stopped and walked into the bathroom. I climbed myself onto a lawn chair as Chase came back, carrying the gun. He popped the clip out and handed it to me. "There's one in the chamber, go ahead. If this is what you want, I'm no position to stop you." As I held the gun, I knew I wouldn't do anything with it. Chase knew it too. When I dropped the gun I stood up and gave Chase a big hug. Both of were crying. I really cared about him and I knew that he cared about me.
Thanks to Chase, I am alive. I am a high school graduate and will be attending college in the fall. I give him full credit for anything and everything that I will become. He was the first person to really show that he cared about me, not because he had to, but because he needed to. When it all came down to it, we needed each other in that moment.
Just over 2 weeks later, on July 28th, 2003, one year ago today, Chase killed himself. His fiance had cheated on him. He took his own life, when just 17 days earlier he prevented me from doing it, for the same reason. I really loved Chase. It killed me to know that I could have prevented it. At the time that this happened, I was in my truck, driving to a friends house. All we did was sit and play video games. When I got home the next morning, I saw Chase's cellphone number on my caller ID. He didn't leave a message on my machine. The time on my caller ID said 9:13 pm.
Chase was found at 10:10pm.
RIP Chase. I love you man.
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Submitted by Wuzi (user info) at 2004-12-06 23:28:35 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
"The next thing that happened truely changed my life forever.
He beat the shit out of me."
Funny line.
Deep post man, good job.
Submitted by FuckTheArmy (user info) at 2004-12-06 22:22:23 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I would seriously consider that this is worth a minus two.
It's well written, serious, and I can identify with it.
In fact, it's so fucked up, I don't want to know.
Submitted by Banga3386 (user info) at 2004-07-29 02:43:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm glad to see that you aren't holding any animosity towards Chase. I would. You are a bigger man than I.
Submitted by AlwaysAnEagle (user info) at 2004-07-29 02:21:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Spiritus sancti.
I am sorry.
Submitted by wijormiclat (user info) at 2004-07-28 21:49:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm sorry.
Submitted by LnkLbrl120 (user info) at 2004-07-28 20:42:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Tough day for life and love. Here's to lifes cute antics ...
Submitted by Creepy_guy (user info) at 2004-07-28 20:27:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sorry for your loss man... I know its never easy when someone you care about passes away; just don't forget him. Remember what a good guy he was and he'll never really be totally gone.
Submitted by bubbamoore (user info) at 2004-07-28 20:24:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
RIP CHASE- great story
Submitted by pieeatingpirate (user info) at 2004-07-28 20:18:44 EDT (#)
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Sorry man. Excellent post.
RIP Chase
Submitted by youarsoghey (user info) at 2004-07-28 20:18:25 EDT (#)
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Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-07-28 20:06:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
hmmmm lamb and tunafish. Foooooood.
Sorry about that dude. That sucks!
Submitted by Phinch (user info) at 2004-07-28 19:39:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
ouch man. That sucks.
Submitted by StonedSilly (user info) at 2004-07-28 19:36:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm going to have to subtract one point for leaving out so many words, but the post gets a +324425q436234234532453245sdadf4343g4ghg4
I'm really sorry, man. I was in the same position and was lucky enough to be able to stop my best friend.
RIP, Chase.
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2004-07-28 19:32:04 EDT (#)
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Submitted by tomato-soup (user info) at 2004-07-28 19:25:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
so chase is a bigger pansy than you. big deal.