A Token Of My Infection 17. Breath (1889 hits)
Category: NoneRating: 2 on 23 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by MickGinny (View user info) at 2004-08-02 12:24:02 EDT
Part - 1
http://www.ubersite.com/m/23919
Part - 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24030
Part - 3
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24109
Part - 4
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24297
Part - 5
http://www.ubersite.com/m/24702
Part - 6
http://www.ubersite.com/m/26330
Part - 7
http://www.ubersite.com/m/28185
Part - 8
http://www.ubersite.com/m/29322
Part - 9
http://www.ubersite.com/m/34096
Part - 10
http://www.ubersite.com/m/34488
Part - 11
http://www.ubersite.com/m/34648
Part - 12
http://www.ubersite.com/m/35279
Part - 13
http://www.ubersite.com/m/36367
Part - 14
http://www.ubersite.com/m/37520
Part - 15
http://www.ubersite.com/m/38722
Part - 16
http://www.ubersite.com/m/39810
A Token Of My Infection 17
Breath.
To keep Joey from getting any deeper, I met with the owner of the stolen safe at a bar in Hazleton. As long as this guy knew what had happened to the safe he would stop looking for it.
I gave him back all of his paperwork in the bar and told him the rest of what was in the safe was out in my trunk...save the $1800 bucks.
I told him the truth. A couple of stupid kids stole his safe and when they couldn't get it open they came to me. And because one of the kids was a friends son I helped them. I didn't get into details about all the bullshit I had to endure but I told him that I split the money in the safe with the guy who helped me.
"I want that money"
"Listen I understand you got ripped off but I didn't rip you off that is not my thing I am not a thief. Believe me when I tell you that I earned that money, and there is no way I am going to give it back"
"I want the fucking money or I am going to call the police!"
I slammed my phone on the table.
"Call em' motherfucker!, call em'! and I will make sure and turn over the rag paper and the magnetic ink in my trunk!"
Look, I don't care if you are printing, in fact, good for you. I brought all your papers as a gesture of good faith. There are birth certificates and deeds that I know have to be very important to you. I could have burned them, or let the knothead kids take them but I am trying to show some respect to you here.
'Respect? This is respect? Stealing from me then rubbing my nose in it? You have a strange way of showing respect! I want my money!"
"Try this: want in your right hand and shit in your left hand and see which one fills up first"
"Fuck you!"
"Alright consider me fucked. If you want your stuff lets go"
I got up to leave but he asked me to sit down.
"I am glad to get this stuff back...but $1800 bucks is not something easy to let go...and that safe cost me a grand"
"believe me, you don't want that safe. If it is any consolation to you, the kid totaled his car out because of that safe, it was a nice car too, a 72' Skylark totally restored"
He lightened up some and we started to talk some. By the end of the night we were having a good time he even invited the two ringers he had in the bar that were supposed to beat the shit out of me to the table.
Im friends with him to this day.
__________________________
On my way home from the bar that night. Driving drunk and high ...once again, I had a moment of clarity
I hated moments of clarity. I always had them when I was alone driving at night for some reason.
My clarified thoughts would always begin with me reflecting on the death of my mom, which is the worst thing that I ever experienced. When my mom died I felt robbed by god. I turned my back on the very little faith I had. And cursed god with a clinched fist.
My mom was my hero. Even though I chose the wide path more times than not, she taught me how to follow the straight and narrow if I ever chose to do so. I put forth at least an effort to be a good man out of respect for my mom and also because I could not lie or hide anything from her.
My mom could tell the signs because she went through years of my brother doing drugs so she was hep. I couldn't hide anything from my mom. I began my descent into addiction shortly after my mother died. I needed to mask that pain of her death, and my back problem was a good excuse. I didn't have to keep myself in check for her anymore.
I loved my wife but I always thought that she would turn her back on me if I fell out. I believed that no one could love me unconditionally like my mom considering my numerous shortcomings and character flaws....but I was wrong.
Pride would make me say that I overcame my addiction because I am a strong willed man. But that is a lie. Pride is what got me into most of my jackpots.
There is no stronger force on earth than the unconditional love we offer each other in this life. It is also much too rare.
I told my wife after several attempts to clean up that I was a lost cause. I was going to die a hopeless junkie. And I should have been dead along time ago. But she would not accept my fate as easily as I did.
Listen to me, love does not make you weak and vulnerable, it does quite the opposite. It would have been easy for my wife to divorce me and let me drown. But she was powerful. Stronger than me and stronger than opiates for sure she would not allow me to drown. She walked out onto the water. She laid on her belly. She reached down, found my hand and pulled me up from the reef.
She did this for me more times than I would like to admit. A strong man would have required this helping hand just once. Unfortunately I was a weak man.
MickGinny
User Reviews
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-11-11 16:13:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:41:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Fiend <fiend.at.dopehouse.com> at 2004-08-03 13:12:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
more....mnust have more....the prcious....token....must have more.....
Submitted by Awko (user info) at 2004-08-03 07:52:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Scientifik (user info) at 2004-08-03 02:56:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Best on uber
Submitted by lnknptheory (user info) at 2004-08-03 00:52:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
The picture wraps it up nicely.
Submitted by antluvdog (user info) at 2004-08-02 23:20:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-08-02 23:00:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by facts (user info) at 2004-08-02 22:41:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-08-02 16:58:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Insanethemind (user info) at 2004-08-02 16:48:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
this is a series in which every episode has been quite good, there arent many i can say that about.
this may be the best installment yet. good show mick, good show
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-08-02 16:31:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Holy Shit.
Submitted by acrog (user info) at 2004-08-02 16:16:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Mick you are a fantastic writer.
As good if not better than Harry Crews.
I mention Harry Crews because sometimes your writing style makes me think of his
Submitted by DaBaddestHic (user info) at 2004-08-02 15:52:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Man I gotta find a woman like yours, one who can deal with a cynic. Keep up the good work.
Submitted by Phinch (user info) at 2004-08-02 15:20:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
book deal.
Submitted by chipolatte (user info) at 2004-08-02 14:41:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
One o' these days I'm gonna drive up to your neck of the woods and we're just going to laugh laugh laugh.
Submitted by labelkills (user info) at 2004-08-02 14:07:32 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by bubbamoore (user info) at 2004-08-02 14:02:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
MORE! MORE! MORE!
Submitted by KoolMang (user info) at 2004-08-02 14:01:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
What the hell, you deserve it.
Submitted by Cryopaul (user info) at 2004-08-02 12:46:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I've always been in the mindset that love does make you weak. I actually feel that way about emotions in general. But I can't help the fact that I too love my wife with everything I have. And my family holds this place in my heart as well. As for the rest of the world, it takes alot to spurn any sort of emotional response from me. Call me a dick, whatever. I like who I am and my wife loves me.
Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2004-08-02 12:34:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
TBC Please.
Excellent as ever.
-Davros
Submitted by KoolMang (user info) at 2004-08-02 12:33:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
The stunted fish strikes again!
I won't give you a -2 because I'm not a dick like you.
Submitted by espo (user info) at 2004-08-02 12:29:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Words can't describe how fucking amazing this series is.
In my humble opinion, this is the best series ever written on Ubersite.
Mick, publish this.
Espo