Trusting Instincts or Run (453 hits)
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Submitted by cnympho247 (View user info) at 2004-08-07 02:25:56 EDT
Have you ever felt like trust was one inch away from your ass? You've trusted someone for a long time but at times are suspicious from reoccurring events?
This weekend I have. Maybe all this is from being an only child or I'm just lonely. I have no clue.
I feel that one promise of the many promises made to me have been broken. Shattered right in front of me. I'm the type of person to worry and do searches on things to check that I am not going insane. I've grown up in my life with a trust issue. A big one.
Example 1:
I used to tell my mom things, personal things that I wish no one would know. What happens? She tells my dad and then I get yelled at. Sound like someone I would trust with devasting issues? I think not.
Example 2:
There really isn't a good example other than high school drama. In high school, I had to watch who I said stuff to, or else in less than an hour it was around the school. MY business in the palm of their hands. Sorry, not my kind of thing.
Example 3:
The first boy I ever feel in love with or thought I did, cheated on me. You wanna know how he broke it off with me?...two days after I was legal he said we were only friends with benefits. Think my heart was broken? I'd say so. Welp, there that term goes and is thrown out of my vocabulary.
I've gotten through this much and I am still here. But some things still linger on my mind. I could be depressed and going insane because of lack of freedom. I am still in college and at home for the summer. I'm 7 or more hours away from my boyfriend and miss him muchly. That could be a possibility. I can't wait until I get back to be with him but I also can't help to be depressed and suspicious at times. I blame it on the distance but honestly, I don't know what it is.
Well to skip some of the details. I am worry as hell this weekend that he will do something stupid. Any form of stupid. I read something last night and started to spazz because he broke a promise to me for while we are away in distance. It hurt but then after I talked to him I decided not to bring it up. It seemed pointless but I stopped worrying. However, I came home to find instead of him calling me before he left for the weekend, he decided to write something. Maybe I am just overreacting. I am a girl and that's my nature. Just taking this to the extreme. But I got better I thought positive. However, about an hour ago, I read something that troubled me. I noticed myself beginning to spazz again with nothing to hold onto. Now I am suspicious. The trust one inch from my ass.
So Uber users, I ask you for your help.
Should I say fuck it until he calls in and check in, sit around like a pussy that I am and worry, get my mind off of it, or have a calming talk with him?
But I do say, where's the fucking rum?
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Submitted by cnympho247 (user info) at 2004-08-07 15:30:19 EDT (#)
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Thanks for all of your advice. To clear some things up, I do trust him a lot, but I sometimes cannot help but to be suspicious especially when he goes off to get drunk. It most likely is just the distance. The examples were to inform you why I get suspicious.
And finally, I spazzed last night and needed to write. It helped me to feel better because I was holding all of that in. But I know now, what I need to do. And that's not worry and get myself a girls night out and just hope for the best.
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-08-07 07:06:14 EDT (#)
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Just relax.
Concentrate on the things you can change, not the things you can't. If he's gonna do something stupid then you have no control over that. You do have control over whether or not you're going to be with him though.
During the course of your life you will meet many people. Some will be trustworthy, most won't. When you find the trustworthy ones, stick with them. They are diamonds. Don't clutter your life up with people you can't trust. It just leads to headaches.
Submitted by burko (user info) at 2004-08-07 07:04:10 EDT (#)
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1:Unless you have an abusive parent, then your parents have every right to tell each other all they know about you.
2: Most people with common sense hate school, or at least think it sucks to a fairly large degree.Dont worry about it, it does.
I've been to seven different schools, and I only liked one of them -I was maybe 6 at the time.
3:Relax, there are dicks everwhere.Your bound to end up dating a few.You'll be fine.
Ring him again and this time DO bring up the broken promise.You'll have your answers fairly instantly by judging his reaction.
These arent really problems, your life seems pretty hunky-dory to me - go out and have some fun.
Man, I feel like an old man now - I'm only 24.....honest.
........Dear burko.
Submitted by Armadilo (user info) at 2004-08-07 02:54:47 EDT (#)
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Fuck him, go out and enjoy yourself you can guarentee he's not worried about what your up to. Get yourself some mad friends, your too young for a serious relationship.
Submitted by Kristen (user info) at 2004-08-07 02:43:19 EDT (#)
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If you don't trust him, why are you with him?
Submitted by SumYumGuy (user info) at 2004-08-07 02:30:31 EDT (#)
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run run run as fast as you can. run away from me you big lady-man.