Wisdom begins in wonder. (937 hits)
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Submitted by Corn Nugget (View user info) at 2004-08-10 18:28:35 EDT
I need reality.
I need to feel something solid. I need to know I'm alive.
The more I try to make myself feel, the more surreal life seems. Two day drunkfest in New Hampshire doesn't make me feel more vibrant- it only surprises me. I'm surprised that I made it through. I'm surprised that I'm able to sit here, in front of my computer, and type.
I have an addiction to the people I met. The weekend wasn't enough. I need them. I need the comfort of sitting on the couch with someone, shoulder to shoulder, completely comfortable in silence. The way we all connected- it's inexplicable. Each time I read a post about the weekend, I recognize the struggle to put the FEELING of comfort, security, and genuine friendship to words.
It can't be real.
After work I went to a friends house. I found my mind drifting off. What was I doing? Living in Michigan my whole life, working retail, divorced at 26, single, bored, restless... pay attention, Corinne. Listen to Gloria talk about her boyfriend. When would I make my mark? When would I break through the surface? Gloria needs me to answer. Pay attention.
A dry summer. Picture it. It's hot. Your eyelids stick together when you blink, your tongue rallies against you, your body is drenched in sweat. You see the clouds rolling in... oh, thank god, you think... it's going to rain!
And it does rain. It's a glorious, thirst quenching, cleansing wash.
A few days later it's dry again, the towns-people have stopped talking about the storm... You don't really need any more rain. The last rain was good enough, really, it was perfect.
But you feel the humidity fall into the air. You smell atmosphere settling around you.
This is the feeling.
I'm on the verge of something great, something huge, something unbelievable. I can feel the tension beneath the surface of my consciousness.. I can hear the rumble of thunder in my veins.
The little bit of rain I've had in my life makes me thirsty for the ocean.
I can't possibly settle for mediocrity. I have met men that are Kings among other men. Women that would make the light of the Virgin Mary seem dim. I have seen things in my life that others dream of- yet, it's not enough.
Haven't we all questioned what was real? Because I see it, is it there?
I do this, don't I? I think too much. I question too much.
I feel something that I can not place. I understand something now, that I can not name.
Thank you.
User Reviews
Submitted by NetProphet (user info) at 2004-08-30 14:33:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
A decent post... I'm loving the Socrates quote as the title.
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2004-08-30 14:18:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Apollo, nice try...
but if you rated it as it was worth- (giving me a 0), why did you +2 it before?
Ah- the mystery that is you.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2004-08-28 08:54:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
i rated it worth reading
that is all it was.
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2004-08-17 20:54:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Apollo, you fuck.
You brought down my PERFECT RATING!?
You did that on purpose, didn't you?
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2004-08-17 09:47:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
how long was everyone there?
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-08-13 23:19:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
yes. i feel the same way. Last weekend was unreal...
i may move to NH also.. we should hook up.. i mean, you know...
Submitted by tictactoe (user info) at 2004-08-13 23:15:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This kept me on the edge of my seat in full attention the whole time.
Coming from a cokehead that's saying a lot.
Submitted by Enriche (user info) at 2004-08-13 22:57:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
wow, that was totally awasome and completly fucked up
congrats
though in a vague way, I know what you are feeling,
I think the smae thing happened to me a year back
Submitted by the_lone_stranger (user info) at 2004-08-11 18:52:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I get that tingling feeling of impending change every time I have to make poo.
It's like losing a part of myself. A part I will never regain. You know?
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2004-08-11 18:27:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Scott_James (user info) at 2004-08-11 17:43:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2004-08-11 10:14:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Coley, shut up slore.
Bob- marry me?
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-08-11 09:32:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
My list of "nevers":
Never become complacent.
Never be satisfied.
Never give up.
Never go with the flow.
Never fall into a routine.
Never lose the ability to laugh or see humor in a situation.
Never be predictable.
Never lose your temper or patience.
Never stop learning.
Never stop the music in the middle of a hoe-down.
Submitted by punchdrunk (user info) at 2004-08-11 04:17:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Great.
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2004-08-11 01:47:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
whore!
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2004-08-11 01:20:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2004-08-10 21:27:22 (#)
Ranking: 2
If you don't like where you are at in life, do something about it. Fix things. Carpe diem.
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Razor, that's what I'm getting at. It's not that I dislike where I am in life... it's just that I realize that there is so much more to experience before I can ever say "I'm satisfied". Ya dig?
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Daking- thanks... you're awesome.
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-08-10 23:34:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
are you jesus?
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-08-10 23:28:20 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Rob at 2004-08-10 22:09:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Can I hug you?
Submitted by dakingisdead (user info) at 2004-08-10 21:47:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I do so like the way you write Nuggeta.
It is like prose in a way and vey sensitive. It is hard to believe you work retail but then that is just my stereotypical mindset coming in.
To be honest I see a lot of what you are talking about with myself and wife and various frinds. It is like every one is on the verge of breaking through to something and we don't quite know what it is or where it will go.
If I was a hippy (ok I sort of am an old hippy) then I would say it is the dawning of a new age.
Aquarius? I don't think so but something.
Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2004-08-10 21:27:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
If you don't like where you are at in life, do something about it. Fix things. Carpe diem.
Submitted by corn nugget <not logged in> at 2004-08-10 20:55:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Shandy-
Yes, that line is a bit dramatic. But v. accurate. I do feel as if I met amazing people this weekend... but that sentence was more around many different people in my life. It's more about those people who DO things, the people who ARE things, the people that affect us greatly just by being themselves.
It just puts me in the mindset that there are amazing people out there... lucky for me there were quite a few of "those people" at Dans house.
Submitted by Socialist_Joe (user info) at 2004-08-10 20:51:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
mink tastes good
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2004-08-10 20:39:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:42:38 (#)
Ranking: 2
This one's for Don, Lojo, or Matt Maiorano:
It was the most I ever threw up, and it changed my life forever.
-- Homer Simpson
Homer Goes To College
~*~*~*~*~*~
HAhahaha! Frighteningly accurate....
Corrinne, I remember the first time I met UberUsers in person. I felt just like this. Go check out my post entitled "GoodTimes" you recognize the feeling. :o)
I love you.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-08-10 20:37:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by KoolMang (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:34:46 (#)
Ranking: 2
Swing, swing, swing.
Submitted by comicbookguy (user info) at 2004-08-10 19:56:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
get out of my fucking head you lunatic
Submitted by krootons (user info) at 2004-08-10 19:37:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent.
Submitted by shandythedog (user info) at 2004-08-10 19:37:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
believable and evocative, except for this bit which seems overly dramatic:
I have met men that are Kings among other men. Women that would make the light of the Virgin Mary seem dim. I have seen things in my life that others dream of
Submitted by JohnGalt (user info) at 2004-08-10 19:37:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by NerfHerder (user info) at 2004-08-10 19:05:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You're moving to NH?
NH = NerfHerder
If so, I welcome thee with open legs...i mean, arms.
Submitted by Degreeless_Capibara (user info) at 2004-08-10 19:02:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm totally going to Ubercon. Maybe.
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:56:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:54:05 (#)
Ranking: 2
Always want for more. Always rage against your enemies. Always love your true friends with all that is you.
I'm here for you. You know how to reach me.
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That's the sweetest thing ever, Dan!
Let me get a tissue, you made me tear up...!
I'm totally moving to NH.
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:54:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Always want for more. Always rage against your enemies. Always love your true friends with all that is you.
I'm here for you. You know how to reach me.
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:42:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This one's for Don, Lojo, or Matt Maiorano:
It was the most I ever threw up, and it changed my life forever.
-- Homer Simpson
Homer Goes To College
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:41:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It's definitely a transition from Uberlife to real life.
Submitted by KoolMang (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:34:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Swing, swing, swing.
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2004-08-10 18:32:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Holy shit this was good, Corn.
And I know exactly how you feel.