You Think YOUR Dad Was Bad Growing Up? (1572 hits)
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Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (View user info) at 2004-08-28 12:20:09 EDT
My dad was a strange person... He was very emotional. He could be the most brutal, cold, psychotic man you'd ever meet one moment, then he would come in crying and apologise while hugging you so hard you'd think you were going to burst the next. It was an endless cycle of confused feelings about the man that kept me from shunning him altogether.
At the time I had no idea what manic-depressive was...all I knew was I was afraid of my dad. He had never been diagnosed with any illness because he was raised in an environment where my papaw supressed that sort of acknowledgment of weakness. My papaw would make my dad break horses, and would beat both the horse and my dad if he fell off. I guess my papaw was trying to break more than just the horse.
Speaking of horses, I once had a horse of my own. My dad was leading it by the halter when it began to rear up. My dad struck it a couple times, but to little effect. Then my dad picked up a large stick off the ground and clubbed the poor animal across the face with it. I looked on as its eyeball popped out of socket and hung by the optic nerve. My dad nonchalantly reached up and pucked the eyeball from the horses face and, tossing it aside, proceed about his business unphased. I think I was 6 or 7 years old.
One can never know what an awkward and nauseous feeling it was to be around my dad growing up. Luckily I only had to go there once every 2 weeks. My parents were divorced when I was 9 because my dad couldn't stop beating the shit out of my mom.
On one particular occasion, as I looked on, my dad was beating my mom in our living room floor, I grabbed a kitchen knife and lunged at my dad with every intention of killing him. He turned around just in time and grabbed my arm and the knife, and threw me aside. He then continued to beat her until he was done. I would have killed him that day, and wouldn't have regreted it - I was 7.
On another occasion my mom and dad got into an argument while we were driving down the road. My dad was in the passenger seat. My mom was driving. My dad started screaming and kicking the windsheild with his boot - shattering it on impact. I think I was around 6.
Once my dad beat my mom in my grandparents' yard - (as you might have noticed, this happened quite frequently) - my grandparents looked on and did nothing about it...
When my mom finally decided to leave, which was long overdue, we were forced to literally RUN out of the house through a 1/2 mile of cornfield to our neighbors' while my dad, wielding a shotgun, blasted shots off in the distance. I didn't know if he was blowing his own head off or shooting at us. I was afraid only if he was shooting at us. I remember it had just rained and my little sister had her shoe in the mud. My mom had to carry her. I was carrying my littlest sister in my arms...I was 9 years old.
Visiting on weekends after the divorce was like emotional and mental torture. I couldn't wait until Sunday so I could go back to my mom's. My dad would beat us all occasionally, but my middle middle sister would bear the brunt of it. She would often wet the bed and my dad would whip her for it as if she were Pavlov's dog or something.
Eventually my dad was put on Zoloft for his temper problems and he is an entirely different person these days. He is very happy-go-lucky, and although I now have an explanation for his behavior while I was growing up, I have never been able to fully forgive him for what he put us through.
You think YOUR dad was bad growing up...you might want to think again.
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Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2005-07-28 11:55:43 EDT (#)
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Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2005-06-21 00:30:35 EDT (#)
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That's just apalling, man. It's just really sad.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2005-02-11 01:58:44 EST (#)
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Submitted by eIectrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-10-23 07:25:00 EDT (#)
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If sex were fast food, you'd have and M-shaped arch over your head.
Submitted by equaIizer (user info) at 2004-10-20 23:28:53 EDT (#)
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If you stand close enough to him, you can hear the ocean.
Submitted by Orange-San (user info) at 2004-10-18 22:01:54 EDT (#)
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my dad wasn't bad but my stepfather was PSYCHO I remember my when my uncle was living with us while (my uncle was still in high school) he was in his room with his g/f and they were making out and my stepfather just burst in the room and put a gun to their heads and then pulled the trigger it was empty of course but i mean if your in the middle of making out that can pretty much kill the mood.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-10-18 21:49:35 EDT (#)
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Actually, that's not what I asked for...
I asked him to remove you from the MVA. He said he'd think about it.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-10-18 21:30:13 EDT (#)
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How about you have Bart remove your +2 spams too?
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2004-10-18 21:23:21 EDT (#)
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my role model
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-10-18 21:19:02 EDT (#)
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yep, he was a real asshole
Submitted by equalizer (user info) at 2004-09-14 03:43:30 EDT (#)
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Equalized.
Submitted by fake_bargled (user info) at 2004-09-07 19:12:58 EDT (#)
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Well, that's it. I'm avoiding supermarkets for a week because I'm on vacation.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-30 23:55:48 EDT (#)
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Yo VaniillaIA! What Up?
Submitted by DyingBreed (user info) at 2004-08-30 11:57:17 EDT (#)
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"Speaking of horses, I once had a horse of my own. My dad was leading it by the halter when it began to rear up. My dad struck it a couple times, but to little effect. Then my dad picked up a large stick off the ground and clubbed the poor animal across the face with it. I looked on as its eyeball popped out of socket and hung by the optic nerve. My dad nonchalantly reached up and pucked the eyeball from the horses face and, tossing it aside, proceed about his business unphased. I think I was 6 or 7 years old."
dude, you didnt say anything about this! wtf? thats some fucked up shit man. i would have at least tried to push the eyeball back in, smiling. i thought you were bullshitting til i read the rest of the post.
and guys, i can attest to the slinging of ETS across the livingroom floor because he pushed fastforward without stopping the tape first. (you know, like you do to get to the nudes scenes in movies) he screamed "it TEARS IT UP!" and slung his ass across the room. i have a few other stories too, but that one kind of stuck with me :)
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2004-08-29 18:17:37 EDT (#)
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Holy shit.
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-29 18:00:55 EDT (#)
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Yay! Can we start right now?
ROWR! GROWL! ROAR! ROWR ROWR! GROWL! AIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! GROWL!
OK, I'm done now.
Submitted by NETHOS (user info) at 2004-08-29 16:09:59 EDT (#)
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When I was 3, My dad rented my out to lumberjacks for blowjobs.
THAT SON OF A BITCH ONLY CUT ME IN FOR 38% OF THE PROFITS!
*Sobs and whines on Ubersite*
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-29 15:08:35 EDT (#)
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Avals: I do all styles. We can do some death metal! WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-29 12:30:09 EDT (#)
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"Can you do it while you're pulling my hair?
Just an idle question, really.. no reason...."
I... Uhm... Hell woman, that's one goddamn weird question to ask.
Well yeah, I suppose I can, unless pulling your hair means you hit me in the balls or something.
Why do you ask? Is that some kind of weird new fetish?
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-08-29 07:25:43 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-29 07:07:42 (#)
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Well, I can do a decent black metal/death metal/plain evil growl; how 'bout that?
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Can you do it while you're pulling my hair?
Just an idle question, really.. no reason....
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-29 07:07:42 EDT (#)
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BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
<Gasp> <Gasp>
Wait, was that ... country!?
Oh who the fuck cares?
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Dude, that was hilarious. The lyrics are beautiful. (And the singin' ain't bad either.)
Hey, at least you didn't sell your kids, eh?
Say, can I join your band?
I can... Well, I'm an excellent... Uhm... Well, there's that one... No, no, that won't work.
Well, I can do a decent black metal/death metal/plain evil growl; how 'bout that? (Can't sing much though. At least, not in a way that _YOU_ ignorant morons would understand my _ART_!)
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-29 06:56:09 EDT (#)
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Woohoo! Thanks mate, it appears to have got here alright. I'll give it a whirl ASAP.
Me? Porn? Aww shucks, you have too much faith in me. But really, who needs porn when you can get off to pictures of leather office chairs? Mmm... Sexy furniture!
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-29 02:06:52 EDT (#)
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Submitted by The_Walrus (user info) at 2004-08-29 01:49:08 (#)
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Because this makes my parents look like angels and reminds me that it could be MUCH worse and because you've been nice to me (the n00b) these past couple days
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Why, thank you Eggman! (Get it? Eggman??? *crickets* ......THE BEATLES!............nevermind.)
Lots of people around here seem to forget that they were once the noob. And although I believe in the sanctity of 'hazing the noob' I also believe in the power of manipulation, which apparently works, cause you just +2d me! God, you are such a dumb-ass noob!
Relax, I am kidding. I know, bet that Eggman joke looks awful funny now, huh?
Submitted by RouteTwo (user info) at 2004-08-29 01:53:38 EDT (#)
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Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 20:23:35 (#)
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Yep Tinactin, that's pretty fucked up! I literally feel where you're coming from - Not on the sexual abuse part. That's a direction he thankfully never took the abuse. I guess no matter how bad you had it, there's always someone who has it worse in this life. We should probably keep that in mind.
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sorry, maybe i should read the reviews first next time...
Submitted by Walsareck (user info) at 2004-08-29 01:53:12 EDT (#)
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Yikes, that's one fucked-up father... Well, I've had my share of hell similar to yours, but due to my different cultural background, rarely invovled physical abuse.
But, yeah - stuff Zoloft, try Respiridone - that shit is for pschytsophrinics (never been able to spell that) and can stop a menopausal woman with a shotgun in 3 seconds flat!!
Submitted by RouteTwo (user info) at 2004-08-29 01:49:46 EDT (#)
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bitch bitch bitch. but i digress.
no, i feel your pain. you just gotta realize that there are all too many people with similar stories out there. don't post something with a title like that out of pride. it's like you're boasting that he beat you. just keep it in mind, and i'll shut up now because i've probably pissed you off.
here, have a +1
Submitted by The_Walrus (user info) at 2004-08-29 01:49:08 EDT (#)
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Because this makes my parents look like angels and reminds me that it could be MUCH worse and because you've been nice to me (the n00b) these past couple days
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-29 01:39:45 EDT (#)
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Submitted by EvrenWasHere (user info) at 2004-08-29 00:17:52 (#)
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No Comment
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Oh, GOD! That's hilarious! Good one!
Submitted by EvrenWasHere (user info) at 2004-08-29 00:17:52 EDT (#)
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Submitted by loki (user info) at 2004-08-28 23:04:17 EDT (#)
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Submitted by NetProphet (user info) at 2004-08-28 22:39:44 EDT (#)
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Oh yeah? Well MY dad used to rape me in the ass and call me Charlie. With NO LUBRICANTS.
Okay, not really. But a guy can fantasize, can't he?
Submitted by chipolatte (user info) at 2004-08-28 22:10:06 EDT (#)
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jesus, what a buzzkill post
Submitted by vajokki (user info) at 2004-08-28 21:06:49 EDT (#)
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That stupid bitch. You should have thrown that knife at that bastard or killed him in his sleep.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 20:52:08 EDT (#)
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Thanks for reading Disektor, and for your trult inspiring words of encouragment. I will cherish them always! =p
Hey AVALS! I sent you that Ebay song. Might want to check your spam mail to make sure it didn't go there, cause I KNOW you be downloadin' the porn!
Submitted by Disektor (user info) at 2004-08-28 20:40:38 EDT (#)
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What the fuck.
This is some truly messed up shit.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 20:23:35 EDT (#)
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Yep Tinactin, that's pretty fucked up! I literally feel where you're coming from - Not on the sexual abuse part. That's a direction he thankfully never took the abuse. I guess no matter how bad you had it, there's always someone who has it worse in this life. We should probably keep that in mind.
All it ever made me do was vow that I would never be like him.
Submitted by tinactin (user info) at 2004-08-28 19:06:47 EDT (#)
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My father kicked me in the stomach, causing me to spit blood, pushed my head through a stereo speaker (my own), and pressed a hot iron against my back (I still have a scar).
Oh yeah, and when I was 7, I had to take pictures of my brother, naked.
Oh, one more thing: He once accused me of molesting my little sister.
Straight flush, bitches!
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-28 17:08:50 EDT (#)
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Hey, be my guest! foffers1.at.yahoo.com (Although I'm not sure it's not too big for Yahoo. But hey, worth a shot, no?)
So how much did it go for?
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 16:46:10 EDT (#)
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Actually I sold mine on ebay!
I'll email you the song I wrote about it if you want.
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-28 16:30:06 EDT (#)
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Yeah buddy, nooooooooothing wrong with you.
BTW: As long as you stop using my trademarked name, we're cool. 'Cause -- you know -- I had nothing to do with that business with your dad. Does anyone of your family even have a soul to sell?
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 15:35:59 EDT (#)
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Boogie: YEA Frailty! It's been killing me trying to think of what it was, and I am too lazy to use google right now. Thanks. I can't believe that bastard made you clean your room! What kind of a MONSTER would do something like that???? =)
No big deal, I tuned out ok anyway. **head twitches slightly**
Submitted by BoogieFevuh (user info) at 2004-08-28 15:25:42 EDT (#)
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Yeah? Well sometimes MY dad made me clean my room!!!
Seriously tho, sorry you had to go through all that...that's gotta be rough.
...and Frailty is a cool movie.
Submitted by GlitchCowman (user info) at 2004-08-28 13:51:15 EDT (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/43229
It relates, I swear.
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-08-28 13:39:55 EDT (#)
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these reviews explain alot about some of the people on this site
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 13:33:20 EDT (#)
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Avals: That made me think of that movie with Bill Paxton where he thinks he sees demons in people and has his sons help him kill them because it is God's will...
Now, that guy WAS more fucked up than my dad! But, he turned out to be right in the end...
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2004-08-28 13:31:05 EDT (#)
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My dad used to kill people. He made me cut up the bodies and eat them. I was 6.
Yeah, OK, so I'm lying.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 13:30:34 EDT (#)
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My dad once picked me up by the throat and slung me across the room for pressing fast-forward on the VCR without pressing 'stop' first.
There are innumerable things
Anyway, it doesn't matter. I am sorry we both had shitty dads. It's over now. I am tired of thinking about it.
Submitted by StonedSilly (user info) at 2004-08-28 13:17:55 EDT (#)
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My dad broke beer bottles over the side of my head.
When I was 5, 6, and 7 years old.
He bent an aluminum bar over the back of my neck.
When I was 10 years old.
Submitted by Oscar (user info) at 2004-08-28 13:08:04 EDT (#)
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No.
Submitted by StabkilI (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:58:13 EDT (#)
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I made a post like this awhile back. The only thing is that mine is better. http://www.ubersite.com/m/29000
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:51:30 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Vengance (user info) at 2004-08-12 20:44:45 (#)
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Vengance is mine sayeth the Lord.
Submitted by NETHOS (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:49:55 EDT (#)
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Stop being depressing you WHINY BITCH!!!!
Submitted by RateBot (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:49:54 EDT (#)
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Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:44:49 EDT (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/43198
Here is another one.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:42:44 EDT (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/43167
This is one of the posts that promted this. Hope that explains the last line and title, Filthy. Read it and you'll see what I mean.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:39:46 EDT (#)
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Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:32:29 (#)
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holy shit, where can i get some of this zoloft stuff? lexapro just makes me have vivid dreams of mass murder.
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Ask your doctor. Zoloft is, I think, the #1 prescribed drug for depression and other emotion-related illnesses. Watch the sexual side effect though!!! It will give you a hard on that you cannot get rid of. It is nearly impossible to ejaculate, which sounds like it would be a blessing for women, but it just wears them out. =)
Submitted by FilthyAssistant (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:37:28 EDT (#)
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The 'but' was over the last line. Haven't quite gathered my thoughts on it yet so I'll email you about it in bit.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:34:06 EDT (#)
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I didn't even mention his idea of spaying the dog....
When our dogs would have litters of puppies he would not even attempt to give them away. He would take them into the woods beside our house and knock them in the head with a rock and toss them into the creek there.
Submitted by EH (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:34:00 EDT (#)
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wow man... That's.. that's fucked up. umm, I dont know what else to say but sorry?
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:32:29 EDT (#)
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holy shit, where can i get some of this zoloft stuff? lexapro just makes me have vivid dreams of mass murder.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:31:20 EDT (#)
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Okay, yeah. You win.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:29:49 EDT (#)
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I am curious to know what the "but" is. I respect your opinion as much if not more than anyone on this site. I know you've had similar troubles with you stepfather, so you can relate.
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:27:07 EDT (#)
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Actually reading back over it...it isn't well written. There are a thousand grammatical mistakes, but fuck it.
Submitted by FilthyAssistant (user info) at 2004-08-28 12:24:08 EDT (#)
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Well written. I want to put a 'But..' in there somewhere but I'm not going to.