Ed (512 hits)
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Submitted by Schwarzes_Glas (View user info) at 2004-09-14 18:17:53 EDT
About a million and a half little things happened today that showed me where the world would be without me in it.
Goddamnit. Fuck this day. Fuck it from the start.
Thinking about money, thinking about the hospital. Thinking about my (measly) 24 years of history - the last four being a complete waste. Thinking about my father and these new terrible feelings that I have for him. Thinking about my mother, and my disdain for her new habits. My brother crosses my mind and I cringe at the thought of his cruel indifference.
Just to add to it, people can't even fucking drive.
A big old guy was at the foot of the elevator of my new apartment. He set all his groceries down in front of it - 2 bags, and a cart, and left them there as he went aside and checked his mail. I'm immediately sickened with him. He's about 6ft, big guy, shitty attitude, sweaty from the walk back from the store. Messy.
I get to the elevator, and two of his bags are at my feet, in my way. I always said "Respect your elders? Respect has to be earned."
There is such a fine line between pure unfounded rage & hatred and genuine humility and compassion. One can almost FEEL it morph inside our bodies at times.
"Can I help you with these two?"
"Oh that would be great, thank you. What floor are you going to-"
"It's alright, I'll help you to your apartment. I just got home, I'm in no rush."
"Thank you thank you."
We made small talk about the quality of produce this store had to offer, and about eating healthy. He's a strange man, but in this secluded rut that I'm in, it's taken normally and without judgment.
We walk down the hall and I see a door. I stopped at the door before he even told me it was his place. On his door he had some scattered pictures taped to it: pictures of children, some strange pictures of appliances, a "God Bless America" bumper sticker in center/top, numerous bizarre plants and "garnish" taped to it. Messy.
After some trouble, he finally gets the door open. He tells me to set them inside his door - about 5 feet inside his apartment.
Jesus Christ. His apartment.
"Thank you so much for your help. What's your name?" I introduce myself.
"I'm Ed. Nice to meet you."
"Yes, you too. I will see you around."
Jesus, I'm so selfish. I'm so fucking selfish.
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Submitted by Chronicles_of_College_Guy (user info) at 2005-01-02 17:20:30 EST (#)
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Submitted by Y R U SO LAME? at 2004-09-20 17:25:08 EDT (#)
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You bitch ass motherfucker! PANSY!
Submitted by prettygirl (user info) at 2004-09-20 17:22:15 EDT (#)
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U R A FAG!
Submitted by honeycake (user info) at 2004-09-20 16:31:02 EDT (#)
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*vomit*
Submitted by triple_optics (user info) at 2004-09-20 11:34:43 EDT (#)
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Submitted by I_hate_fetish (user info) at 2004-09-15 17:11:17 EDT (#)
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Submitted by goatasskilla (user info) at 2004-09-15 11:42:34 EDT (#)
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Submitted by jack11058 (user info) at 2004-09-14 19:46:36 EDT (#)
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I thought you were going to murder him. "Thinking about my (measly) 24 years of history - the last four being a complete waste." Were you in the Army?