Chatroom revelation (593 hits)
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Submitted by Ana Gastire <jackparker968.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2002-10-18 11:26:03 EDT
You know, I sit here in my best composure..it's about 10:55am on a fresh Friday morning and I don't really feel so bad at the moment. It's particularly nice- I must say, to be able to sit here calmly and think about things in their proper perspective without getting angry and teary eyed and ultimately depressed. For the first time in a long while, I can sit down with confidence and just type- type type type everything that comes into my pretty little head, without the worry of what will happen if my life goes downhill. I am a vibrant girl, after all- with a lot to offer people, so why am I constantly questioning my ability to make people happy? I'm fairly attractive, intelligent and virtually independent and yet I still think of ways to downtalk myself or make me seem less than I am. Is it just me, or is that a stupid thing to attempt? Shouldn't I be saying to myself, "Ana- you are worth it, stop beating yourself down"? Well, that's what I realized today. So- I was busy downloading music this morning- "Last Kiss" by Pearl Jam, off of WinMX and decided to go into the little chatroom thingy that they always offer but I continuously decline. BAM! I get in there and 2 seconds later I have 3 guys sending me private messages. Now- 2 of them are the typical type of message "Hey baby u horny?" and "Wanna screw?" but the third asks me a very pointblank and often unasked question- "What makes you happy?" This phenomenally simple querry totally blew me away. I was completely surprised. Status quo is such nowadays that people just don't care about you personally anymore- ESPECIALLY over some hackneyed chatroom imitation. But upon instinct- I blocked the other 2 "cyber-seekers" and concentrated on this refreshing individual. So I thought about it- and realized to my horror- there wasn't an instant answer..I had to think about it! You should NEVER have to think about what makes you happy, dear readers, and I was certainly upset to find out that I had to. Obviously the notable passage of time without an answer caused this person to send another message. "Still thinking, eh?" he asked- when I sent him a "yes", he replied "u'd be surprised how many people can't answer that."
Well, thanks to him, I decided I was going to figure this one out. I said goodbye, logged off and went to lay in a dark room. I think best when things are quiet and I'm alone- so I stretched out on my bed to have a good long thinking session. I literally sat there and reviewed my life: all that's happened it, the people who have come, and those who have gone- and the one or two that come and go and then come back again. 2 fulfilling hours later I boiled it down to this: I love having a good argument. I like people who have their own mind and aren't afraid to speak. I like the weak of mouth because they balance the extroverted. I love the rain. I love foreign countries- the accents, the people, the culture. I love the beach at night. I like ice-cream, because it makes me feel like all is ok. I love being in love, and realizing that I'll never be out of it. I love to write, and to be in front of people. I like people who are completely different then me, and the one who is just the same. I like laughing, and humor. I like to cry, it's necessary sometimes. I like to vent my anger, and sometimes I even like being angry. Fortunately for me, I found an unending list of things I was fond of, and all thanks to this guy in a chatroom who took the time to ask me such a simple question. I hope that all of you take the same time to think about it, just to see if you are where you want to be, and if you're not- think of how you can get there. Take the time to say hi to your parents and to smell the air after it rains. I know how corny it may sound- but I assure you, it makes ALL the difference.
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Submitted by elvis at 2002-11-15 00:37:42 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
No Comment
Submitted by StrongInMind (user info) at 2002-11-14 12:11:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
lay off there buddy- that sock did nothing to you!!
Submitted by DonMecca (user info) at 2002-11-12 13:54:36 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
"I said goodbye, logged off and went to lay in a dark room. I think best when things are quiet and I'm alone- so I stretched out on my bed to have a good long thinking session. I literally sat there and reviewed my life." - Sounds to melike your a crazy old black crack head. Or a phsyco. You lay alone in a dark room, thinking aboutall the people you need to seek revenge on for hurting you, sharpening yourk nife, and talking to a sock. Your crazy.
Submitted by yidele (user info) at 2002-10-18 19:53:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I was hoping that you'd finaly say what does make you happy - he was probably waiting for an answer the likes of long, hard, turgid, tumescent but all you've managed to squeeze in was your soul. The sad truth is that there probably was a lonely lesbian on the other end of your chat - no man worth his testes talks about such mush when hard, fast & anonymous nookie can be had. Men will make amazing sacrifices for poon, some ( i've heard) will even sink so low as to fake sincerity & sensitivity, but waiting with one hand on the glans for your response for 2 1/2 hours beats anything I've heard of. It must have been a lesbian, or an italian castrato on tour. Don't spill your soul when a little seed wil do - go to a bar, drink yourself stupid & announce to all & sundry that you're on the pill - this should be enought to elicit an response from even the drunkest cretin.
P.s
It helps if you have teeth & your own car.
Submitted by lodnem.at.yahoo.com at 2002-10-18 16:19:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
i would give it a 0, but only if there were at least two paragraphs.
Submitted by Razor (user info) at 2002-10-18 14:04:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You're almost as eloquent as snoop pup!
Submitted by Hank at 2002-10-18 12:41:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
awww ur so cool! I really like ur work, u remind me of my ex gf..she's very good at telling stories and stuff. Plus she sorta sounds as if she'd say sumthing like that, know wot I mean?