Past Times (717 hits)
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Submitted by PAS (View user info) at 2004-09-29 19:22:29 EDT
Nostalgia is a wistful emotion, which pulls at your heart strings, making you smile fondly at cherished memories of long ago. It also makes me want to drink shots of Baileys, rest my head on my arms, and drunkenly slur with tears in my eyes about how things were so much better then.
Young, optimistic, finding my feet in college. Those two years were possibly the happiest, most content and fulfilled years of my life and I hate being old, looking back and realising those adages were true, "your school days are the best days of your life"..."shut up old bag" the young me would have snapped in reply before kick boxing her in the stomach, garroting her with cheese wire and dancing on her back until the brittle bones snapped beneath my feet.
Wait, I'm no Maddox. I was quite nice when younger only even more naïve and idealistic. Those hopes, those dreams have been fried out of my mind by my fast food pragmatist. "If you study real hard, then McQuickly you'll gain success and financial security to boot".
I'm 27 with no pecuniary worries but I'm awake at midnight reminiscing about better days with good friends who accepted me for who I am. I may well as be a transexual at work, I fit in with everyone about as much as Barry 'Brenda' Jones would. I like to accept differences but I may as well rub mine out and 'play the game' to get anywhere at work. Or not even to advance my position, just to fit in.
I think the problem is: at college & at Uni there were lots and lots of people the same age and inevitably you would attract & harmonise with similar sorts. In the finance department what hope do I have of finding true friends? Or even colleagues I can trust a little without worrying everything I say will be passed on in gossip.
I feel like the goth kid in high school who wanders the corridors alone. 'I wear black on the outside 'cos black is how I feel on the inside. And if I seem a little strange, well that's because I am'.
And to top off the miserableness my outlet is to blub on a website to Joe Public. Well odds are if you have bothered to read this far you are a fellow sadsack. Welcome to my town - Loserville. Pop 1 (and growing).
Shelley, Zoe, Jo my college friends and even Jason my ex-boyfriend. Thank you for those years.
I will quit my job next year. Time to move on. Maybe one day I'll look back at the 6 years spent at my current employer and be wistful. Maybe one day.
User Reviews
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2004-09-30 09:10:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You have got to find a new job. What you are describing is exactly what I was up against at my old job. All I can say is, there is someplace out there where you fit in, the trick is to find it.
Submitted by Judoka (user info) at 2004-09-30 08:57:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Women who smoke cigars are hot.
Submitted by JMG114 (user info) at 2004-09-29 23:31:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Reading your stuff always puts a smile on my face. You rock.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-09-29 22:03:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by KoolMang (user info) at 2004-09-29 21:34:27 (#)
Ranking: -2
Most vile urine supply in the entire world.
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How would you know, 'mang?
Submitted by cigar (user info) at 2004-09-29 22:02:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
women with cigars get me HARD.
And I do believe I have had that woman on the left, or her fucking twin.
Submitted by KoolMang (user info) at 2004-09-29 21:34:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Most vile urine supply in the entire world.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-09-29 21:21:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
How is bottle filling coming along? http://www.ubersite.com/m/34911#574222
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2004-09-29 20:39:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
If you enjoy swallowing the pole, I'll be your friend.
And trust me, I am awesome. Ask around.
Submitted by DonkeyOnTheEdge (user info) at 2004-09-29 20:29:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Good times.....good times.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-09-29 19:52:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Have I mentioned that you rule?
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2004-09-29 19:42:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Those are fat ass cigars. Gotta love english women feminity.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-09-29 19:31:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
#1 and still no +2? http://www.ubersite.com/m/46365
-2s forever.
Submitted by comicbookguy (user info) at 2004-09-29 19:26:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-09-29 19:25:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Auto PAS +2