DoaM 25. Genocide. (1114 hits)
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Submitted by Bigmike (View user info) at 2004-10-14 23:44:01 EDT
I was laying in the center of the yard today.
It was alive.
I could hear it; feel it moving beneath me like a slow moving train lumbering to the next station. I could feel that train, filled to capacity with people, off to the gas and the ovens of Auschwitz-Birkenau, Belzec, Chelmno, Majdanek, Sobibor, and Treblinka. I can see the look of fear in their faces; feel the cold sweat on their brow. I can still sense the confusion and resignation in the ground beneath me.
It resonates with it.
I feel for these lost souls, these martyrs who gave their lives for the truth of a world gone mad; a world yet to see more madness. They were truly innocent. Maybe not completely in their personal lives because we all have skeletons, some real, some not so real, but they were innocent of the crimes they were charged with. Crimes of race, religion, creed, nationality, association.
Still he gassed them. Still he cremated them. I'll bet he never even looked into the eyes of a single soul as they choked on their poison perfume. Never saw the hate, the fear, the anger, the pride.
I have seen it. I have smelled it. Fear has a genuinly unique smell to it. It is sickly sweet, musty and thick. It is pungent with some and creamy smooth with others. It's electric and sometimes makes the hair on the back of your neck stand at attention. I like that feeling. It is the feeling of superiority and domination. The smell of fear leads to the agony of desperation. In its latter stages, desperation is energy encapsulized. It is the fight for the last strand of life. It is the reaching out to save the last glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel.
Did they see it. Did they reach for it as they were reaching for their throats, shocked at the pain the gas created with each laboring breath? Did they see it extinguish as the last vestige of life drained out of their bodies, soul vapor expanding on the floor inside the chamber? Souls mingling with each other, confused as to what just happened, wondering whether or not there was an afterlife to look out for. What about the children? Did they cry out for their mommy's and daddy's? Did they try to run or beat down the door? Did they look up at the adults, trying to reassure them as only a child on the brink of extinction can do?
I can feel their tiny heartbeats also.
As I lay there absorbing the vibrations, letting them surge through me with power and gusto, I could not help but feel the exhilaration of life and death. It was an amazing feeling. It was.......no, that's not right.......is, yes, IS the heartbeat of the dead, the intonation of lost souls seeking refuge in a world they cannot quite understand. It filled me up with joy and chaos. It led me on, teased me towards a better way to do it, to seek it, to want it.
It calls to me, death does. It weeps for me, death does. It longs for me to let it out, to spread its word like Krishna's and those damn fake flowers, death does.
As I closed my eyes and felt the thunder I longed to respond to the heartbeat of a billion corpses as it emanated through the ground.............through me.
Will it take me?
Genocide.
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Submitted by sketch9 (user info) at 2004-10-17 20:11:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I, one day, would like to make a weekly tv show written by an entirely different group of people. Shit, yeah.... I'd direct it and all... but the writers would be different every week. I want to make an Ubersite tv show. And I'd like to do all of the Diary of a Madman's as episodes. As well as peices written by Comicbookguy, jimbo, blah blah blah... you know the rest.
This would be the next great evolution in television. A television show that airs what the viewers write. A script is chosen from those submitted, and so on and so forth.
My greatest invention since the Rape Button for video games http://www.ubersite.com/m/43681 .
Anyway, like always, i loved every second of it.
Submitted by gain (user info) at 2004-10-17 19:49:57 EDT (#)
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I love insane writings.
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2004-10-17 19:36:18 EDT (#)
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I figured that you did. Being the obsessive-compulsive little chipmunk that I am, however, I felt a need to complain. New stupidly amusing thing- \o equals grammar nazi. Yes, I'm a twit. Don't rub it in.
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-10-16 10:01:22 EDT (#)
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""mommy's and daddy's"? I am suprised at you, Bigmike."
You know Lady, he's not the best writer in the world. I have had this conversation in the past with other users. I considered this briefly before I decided to leave it in there. What would a diary from a psycho be like if it were grammatically perfect? I choose it not to be. Not that I don't make mistakes but some of them I leave in there on purpose.
Some of them I make just because I'm stupid.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2004-10-15 21:17:06 EDT (#)
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I liked this, as always. You kick ass. You hated my UM post, but I still like you. Mostly.
Just out of interest (I was ever trying to improve myself) what did you dislike about it so much? I'd really like to know.. Balancing Act, Entry 1, by the way.
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2004-10-15 16:39:03 EDT (#)
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"mommy's and daddy's"? I am suprised at you, Bigmike. Disappointed as well. Tut. Try this web site-http://www.apostrophe.fsnet.co.uk/
I'm joking. I love you. In a non-stalker fashion. Like you were a big cuddly vampire-teddy bear.
Submitted by DeathJester (user info) at 2004-10-15 11:14:13 EDT (#)
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If you keep writing this well i'm going to have to recommend you to do my friends' English dissertation.
Submitted by Dervel (user info) at 2004-10-15 04:18:24 EDT (#)
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Awesome.
Except for "death does" which isn't awesome.
Submitted by sparkle_pink (user info) at 2004-10-15 02:42:27 EDT (#)
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Max power. I should be doing my harmony homework. But no! People like you just have to go and post!
Submitted by Durae (user info) at 2004-10-15 01:20:49 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by GodChicken (user info) at 2004-10-15 00:38:11 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Rainer (user info) at 2004-10-15 00:18:11 EDT (#)
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You don't get enough ratings on these. They're awesome, never stop.
Unless you die. That'd be a good excuse.
Submitted by DanielH (user info) at 2004-10-15 00:00:35 EDT (#)
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Way nice Big Mike. This reminds me of Henry Miller in his "Rosy Crucifiction" trilogy, the books "Sexus," "Nexus," and "Plexus.} You probably know of his 1934 book "Tropic of Cancer" which was banned in the U.S. for 29 years. Way nice writing. -d
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-10-14 23:58:14 EDT (#)
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Submitted by DanielH (user info) at 2004-10-14 23:52:54 (#)
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Meant to say you remind me of Henry Miller in his "The Rosy Crucifiction" trilogy--the books Sexus, Nexus, Plexus. (You probably know him for having written "Tropic of Cancer" in 1934, which was bnned in the U.S. for 29 years.) You have a handle on that demimonde style. Way sweet. Sincerely. -d
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Submitted by DanielH (user info) at 2004-10-14 23:44:41 (#)
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nice big m
Thank you, DanielH.
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2004-10-14 23:57:10 EDT (#)
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I had to repost this because I screwed up the title.
Damn me all to hell.
Sorry. I guess I'm just particular about crap like that.