I Love Him and I Always Will (938 hits)
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Submitted by Rachael <strwbryfanatic.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2004-10-20 19:53:18 EDT
My best friend from High School, Dana, found out she was pregnant on March 8, 2004.
Her boyfriend, Mark, just proposed weeks before she found out and they were starting to plan their wedding. They decided to wait until after the baby was born to get married.
This set her due date for November 6, 2004.
Dana and Mark decided not to find out the sex of the baby, despite the fact that I begged them every other day. She just felt it was a boy from the beginning. I wanted a girl.
By the time June came around, and I was back from school, we started shopping for things for the nursery. Her theme was Precious Moments. We hunted down great Precious Moments stuff at rummage sales. Dana, Mark and I spent a lot of time together this summer - watching movies and just hanging out. We talked about names for the baby. We felt the baby kick. The baby had the hiccups quite a bit!
Mid-October was her baby shower. More Precious Moments, more things to get her ready for her much-anticipated delivery.
Once, in late October, I missed a phone call from them at midnight. I called back right away the next morning, thinking there was baby news. It was just a misdial, but I was so excited.
Then, on Wednesday, October 6, 2004, I received 2 phone calls from them. I was at work, but I called back as soon as I got out. She was having little contractions the week before so I thought maybe it was the real deal. When I called, she answered and immediately, I said, "BABY!, BABY?! ?"
Nothing could have prepared me for the words she spoke next.
"Rachael...just listen...I don't know how to tell you this. We had the ultrasound last week and heard the heartbeat. As you know, I lost a pound and the doctor didn't seem concerned about this, but wanted to reschedule the ultrasound for today. We went and they couldn't find the heartbeat. Rachael...the baby passed away. They just induced me and I will be giving birth tonight."
I started sobbing, uncontrollably. I was two hours away from home, but I had to go to be with her. How could this be? Everything was fine. How could this be? She had a healthy pregnancy. What went wrong?
I went back to my room to calm myself down. I called Mark to make sure I could be there.
"Yeah, of course you can be here. She just gave birth a few minutes ago. It's a boy. He's so beautiful. We named him Elijah Matthew."
By the time I got there, it was all but over.
I saw Mark outside. He was a mess. I went to the room to see Dana. She was lying in her bed with Elijah in her arms. He was gone. He was gone forever. But I swear, if you looked at him, if you looked really hard...it seemed like he was breathing. Almost.
I wanted to hold him. I loved him, I still love him and I missed him in that moment and forever will.
I don't regret ever holding him. I wish I could do it again.
I put him in his bassinette. He was so beautiful. He looked just like his father.
I began to cry uncontrollably and went out into the hallway to sort things out. It hit me then...In a hallway at the end of the New Life Center, in a hallway that most people stood in anticipating the birth of a new child...in that same hallway where people cried tears of joy, our tears of sorrow and grief and shock splashed onto the floor.
I love Elijah and I always will. I miss him so much that it hurts me.
Though it will never make things better, I at least know that Dana, Mark, and all those who are grieving, have a precious little angel watching over us.
User Reviews
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2004-11-01 15:52:40 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This brought me to tears. I am so sorry sweetie
and I hope you find solace in those around you
at this time.
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2004-11-01 15:38:27 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Sarah_Lee (user info) at 2004-10-25 00:46:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by DanielH (user info) at 2004-10-25 00:30:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Beautiful. I don't mean to come across like cam-guy from "American Beauty," but how could you neg.-2 something so supernal?
Submitted by DanielH (user info) at 2004-10-25 00:25:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Beautiful. I don't mean to come across like cam-guy from "American Beauty," but how could you neg.-2 something so supernal.
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-24 23:57:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Sepsis,
unfortunately for you, I don't like you enough to click on ANY link you will post.
Submitted by Sepsis (user info) at 2004-10-24 23:14:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/49282
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-24 19:04:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-10-21 22:57:55 (#)
Ranking: -2
Diseased............................
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You're just pissed because I said that you were like a disease. So why do you have to -2 all of my previous posts? You are obviously so mature.
Submitted by FreshPrince (user info) at 2004-10-21 23:09:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I can't plus 2 something like this...
If it is true, I am sorry...
I'm always here for anybody on uber
AIM: FreshPrinceofRP
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-10-21 22:57:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Diseased............................
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-21 21:49:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Shlongy,
What the hell are you talking about?
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2004-10-21 12:30:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I assume you're speaking about me. I don't blame you.
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-21 12:10:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Chill, hidden, I'll get to it...
Thank you to everyone for the support (well, most of you)
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-10-21 04:52:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
you never emailed me, woman.
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2004-10-21 04:09:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-10-21 03:56:37 (#)
Ranking: 1
In real life everything sucks.
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2004-10-21 03:56:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
In real life everything sucks.
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-10-21 02:03:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This same thing happened to my sister during the summer. Never an easy thing to deal with.
Prayers for you and yours...
Submitted by QueenAshlee (user info) at 2004-10-21 01:38:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Actually I do have a comment.
I'm sorry that you had to go through this, even vicariously. I know it's extremely difficult. If you ever need someone to talk to, my email is QueenAshlee.at.gmail.com and my AIM name is missravie.
Submitted by Phallic_Cymbals (user info) at 2004-10-21 01:36:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
"He looked just like his father."
so either the baby was born with a fully-grown face and facial hair and stuff, of there's some middle-aged guy walking around with a baby's head on top of his fully-grown shoulders.
Either way, that's fuckin' hilarious!
Submitted by QueenAshlee (user info) at 2004-10-21 01:31:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Phallic_Cymbals (user info) at 2004-10-21 01:24:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
The baby must have telepathically predicted having to endure your company...
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-10-21 01:24:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
yes, but you can only get it if you email me. i'm not posting it here.
hidden101.at.hotmail.com
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-21 01:12:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
do you have an AIM sn, hidden?
Submitted by Tigre (user info) at 2004-10-20 22:50:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by kai070169 (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:39:07 (#)
Ranking: 2
Babies always get +2.
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They Suuurrre do.
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-10-20 22:49:40 EDT (#)
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i think it sucks a lot more when you don't want to have a baby, but get pregnant anyway. how are you going to go out and drink and get laid every night if you're pregnant or have a child to deal with?
see, that's where abortion comes in.
i keed, i keed.
but seriously, miscarriage sucks. i've seen good friends that would have been good parents devastated by it.
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-20 22:40:03 EDT (#)
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Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:20:13 (#)
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Submitted by TheMidnight12AM (user info) at 2004-10-20 19:56:37 (#)
Ranking: 2
Stories like this make me wonder how anyone can be pro-choice.
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maybe i missed the part about the abortion. let me read it again.
nope. no abortion in this story.
just wondering, if this was about an abortion, who are you to judge?
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I am not sure, but I think she's saying that since life is so fragile that it is difficult to imagine that someone would CHOOSE to give up a life when there are others in this world that do not choose this and still have to deal with the loss of the life. Then again, I could be wrong. It happens frequently.
Submitted by kai070169 (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:39:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Babies always get +2.
Submitted by WookieSuave (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:33:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Very unfortunate, I am sorry.
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:23:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:15:49 (#)
Ranking: 2
Dear SwissCamel,
I hope you have fun in hell!
-Rachael
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ha, reminds me of that Sealab episode where Sparks is hinting about killing Captain Murphy and he doesn't get it. then he realizes Sparks is about to kill him and he's like "oh.... well, see you in hell." and Sparks goes "yeah, probably." and electrocutes him.
ahahaha, i love Sealab.
sometimes.
Submitted by Pringles4eva (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:18:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
in reality she was just constipated for 8 months.
then she lost a pound.
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:15:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Dear SwissCamel,
I hope you have fun in hell!
-Rachael
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:14:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Sepsis (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:06:45 (#)
Ranking: -2
i killed that baby with my mind, bitch.
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I don't even know what to say to you. I would never wish this on you, but you are a hurtful fuckface. And I will say karma is a bitch.
Submitted by SwissCamel (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:13:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Sepsis- he's gold I tell you!
Submitted by Sepsis (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:06:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
i killed that baby with my mind, bitch.
Submitted by youarsoghey (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:03:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow.
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2004-10-20 21:02:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
and mark
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:59:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I am sorry about your friend and her baby.
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:24:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
"My most sincere apologies"
that's more like it
and men like fire because it is destructive. and yes boobies are for milk but that shit's kinda hot...
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:20:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by TheMidnight12AM (user info) at 2004-10-20 19:56:37 (#)
Ranking: 2
Stories like this make me wonder how anyone can be pro-choice.
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maybe i missed the part about the abortion. let me read it again.
nope. no abortion in this story.
just wondering, if this was about an abortion, who are you to judge?
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:19:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
what exactly were the dates? i'm confused...
"Mid-October was her baby shower... Once, in late October, I missed a phone call from them at midnight... Then, on Wednesday, October 6, 2004, I received 2 phone calls from them. "
AHH! Sorry! Mid-SEPTEMBER was teh baby shower, LATE SEPTEMBER, missed the call. Wednesday October 6 is accurate.
My most sincere apologies
Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:14:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by DonkeyOnTheEdge (user info) at 2004-10-20 19:56:04 (#)
Ranking: 2
Kicker of all ass isn't really appropriate
Submitted by tinactin (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:10:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I'm not sure how to rate this.
Submitted by Random Joe at 2004-10-20 20:04:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
WTF?!?!
This shit is lame. =(
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2004-10-20 20:02:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
what exactly were the dates? i'm confused...
"Mid-October was her baby shower... Once, in late October, I missed a phone call from them at midnight... Then, on Wednesday, October 6, 2004, I received 2 phone calls from them. "
Submitted by TheMidnight12AM (user info) at 2004-10-20 19:56:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Stories like this make me wonder how anyone can be pro-choice.
Submitted by DonkeyOnTheEdge (user info) at 2004-10-20 19:56:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Kicker of all ass isn't really appropriate.