Disconnected (754 hits)
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Submitted by kL (View user info) at 2004-11-08 04:07:02 EST
Maybe I'm bored. Maybe I'm lonely. Maybe I've been reading too much Camus. Whatever the reason I'm feeling so disconnected with the world, it's blowing my mind. There's fucking billions of people in the world and I've met so few, I've never even travelled. I've been downloading music from all over, Japan, Spain, Sweden, Iceland, India, Australia, China, trying to grasp some of what I'm missing out of. All I've been doing is looking through every god damn page in that Found Photos website while listening to all of this music.
I need to get fucking connected.
Nobody seems to be on the same wavelength as me lately. I even joined some Japanese forum for some foreign contact.
I wonder if the yearning I'm feeling for connection with the world could ever be filled. It's obviously impossible to meet everyone, but just thinking about the billions of people on the internet, so easily reached... I can't get over how a possibly interesting, life-affecting person that I haven't met yet is only a few keystrokes away.
I feel guilty saying person, when I mean girl.
Who knows why I should be impartial in my connections, but I can only imagine meeting a girl online to strike up a meaningful, long distance, magical connection. Who knows.
I don't know why I don't find online roleplaying on a Japanese forum 'geeky' and idiotic. I even know that many of the 'girls' I will be talking to will be old white males, brainless teenagers, or just uninteresting, uninspiring people who I will dislike; somehow this just doesn't deter me.
I hate how I don't find what I'm doing to be 'geeky' but if one of my friends found out exactly what I was saying, I'd be so embaressed. I wish I could be what I imagine myself to be.
I think I just have a faith in the human existance that I can't attribute to anything tangible. Actually, I think I could attribute it to Found Photos. For some reason, the pictures give me so much hope; people all over the world are doing interesting, unique things.
Maybe somehow I've just had a paradigm shift and suddenly the world isn't inhabited by 6.5 billion humans, a statistic. Suddenly the world is filled with 6.5 billion humans who I don't know yet. Humans who each have a brain filled with wildly original and thought provoking thoughts. A whole personal world filled with hope, tragedy, lust, despair and depth.
Maybe I'm just bored, or lonely.
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Submitted by Zoidberg (user info) at 2005-01-02 04:29:21 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
gargle some drano, that'll help
Submitted by Socialist_Joe (user info) at 2004-11-13 05:24:29 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
drink
Submitted by cshape (user info) at 2004-11-10 02:23:37 EST (#)
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Oh man, re-reading this while not completely sleeping, and I don't like it.
Submitted by JenBee (user info) at 2004-11-08 10:50:15 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Exactly. Did you download any Pillows? They are from Japan, they do all the music for FLCL.
Submitted by MyNameIsTim (user info) at 2004-11-08 08:45:14 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
i think its closer to 8 billion now anyway
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2004-11-08 07:46:47 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Go run. Get a hobby. You won't find a girl on the internet. Well, unless you go to www.koreanlovebrides.com.
Submitted by I_Have_a_Kristen_Fetish (user info) at 2004-11-08 07:03:00 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by cshape (user info) at 2004-11-08 06:00:32 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
I know, L'estranger is a big salty pimp. He fondles that breast like no other.
Submitted by Siren (user info) at 2004-11-08 05:40:04 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I liked this very much.
I love chinky babies! They're the cutest!
Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2004-11-08 05:15:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2004-11-08 04:58:03 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Mother died today.
Usually when I read Camus, I lose my desire to connect. Maybe thats because my basic nature is existential. But even the stranger left his house in order to get some from that chick.
Submitted by SPECIALk (user info) at 2004-11-08 04:40:04 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
yeah...leaving your house is key. you should try it some time.hahahah
Submitted by cshape (user info) at 2004-11-08 04:24:00 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Haha, yeah I did come off as a big loser. It's all gravy, and yeah that un-proofread sentence did come out incidentally sweet =P G'morning to you, I haven't gone to sleep yet.
Submitted by mikethescottish (user info) at 2004-11-08 04:22:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Well written. Wish I could offer something more incisive, but i've only just woken up.
Submitted by celine (user info) at 2004-11-08 04:19:34 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 for "thought provoking thoughts." Oh yeah, and try to leave your house sometimes. I've found that to be helpful when it comes to meeting people.