My Life In The Bush Of Ghosts (438 hits)
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Submitted by Just Passing By (View user info) at 2004-11-27 15:53:11 EST
Everything is very literal. Once I start filming, I let everything go. I try to forget everything I've done and be as simple as possible. In simplicity there is truth. Making movies, weather I'm directing the shortest scene in the world, weather I'm acting as a crazed lunatic taking a girl hostage, it just feels so good, it's such a great escape. It really is. It's such a great fantasy. It has nothing to do with the idea of movies, it's just getting lost. Having an excuse to get that far out of your head is just a really good feeling. You see to me, I sleep and I work and that's it. I don't do anything fun for myself. I have to immerse myself or else I feel false. I have no hobbies, I have no real social life, I just love to work. I used to tell people I wanted to change the world and they used to think, 'This kid's really weird'
I won't lie to myself, I may not get anywhere in life, but I'm enjoying what I'm doing at the moment. Filming every night, not having a minute's free time, everyone lives for something and why then is it considered sad for me to enjoy what I do. I'm not like everyone else, I hate party's, I admit I never used to, but aren't they just pointless, they don't fit in with my plan to be a thinking man, so I won't go, I'll work. I'll do what I want to do and not what I'm told I should do. Ideology is such a big word, I don't know if I like it, but I certainly try not to conform to it.
I want to contribute something to the world, not to take or to abuse the position I'm lucky to be in. I'm in no third world country, and I do what I love. I feel blessed. I have a solid good background. I grew up without strife in the family, in an honest environment that had no manipulation, and with the ability to express myself, and I hopefully still do, I know I do. Although we disagree more now, for instance to the where I want to change my name, for my own reasons of course. My belief is I should choose my name and no one else. I should be able to change my name whenever I wish; it shouldn't matter, after all as they say to me 'it's just a name'.
There's the optimistic side of me, too, which believes that we live in an incredible time and that if we all came together on the important issues and stand up for our rights, as Bob Marley said, we could really accomplish a lot. In my mind, I have all these utopias and fantasies, but I believe they can work, I really do. In my mind I can live in a forest by myself, and it won't be told differently. Let people dream.
It's strange fruit! This life, just let it be, I've just proved were all different right? Some work, some play, some live, some die, some fall, some rise, don't be so judgemental, and let forever be...
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Submitted by Iago (user info) at 2004-11-27 16:40:38 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Sanctimonious liberal-hippe BULLCRAP.
But just because i dont aggree, dosent make it a bad post.
Fairly well-written.
Submitted by Metal_Immortal (user info) at 2004-11-27 16:01:25 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
"I should be able to change my name whenever I wish; it shouldn't matter, after all as they say to me 'it's just a name'. "
if it's just a name, why do you care so much, you damn hobo!!! keep dreaming, you reggae fan.