Fitful dreams (538 hits)
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Submitted by girlintheworld (View user info) at 2004-12-07 14:49:18 EST
I started writing this after you left. I keep repeating what you said to me, that I meant nothing to you, at least "not in that way". What a cold, cruel deceitful phrase.
I go to sleep and I wake up after a night of fitful dreams. To find you, staring at me. Then I realize that it is a specter of my imagination.
I think of this book I read once, and the girl in it, she says, "I found myself talking to him in my head... even if we were friends, couldn't we maybe have sex again?"
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I met her when I spent the weekend up in New York. She was waiting for a taxi, and I was waiting for my life to begin. But it was never meant to be with her. Don't believe what she tells you. It's a lie.
I had come to prove to myself that I could make it on my own, in a big city. My parents were really proud of me, of who I'd become, and one day they took a drive and never came back. The steering wheel locked and their lives ended when they drove into a ditch. The car blew up.
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You told me about your parents, about how your dad was an asshole, and your mom slept around. You told me how they died, how you never got to say goodbye and carried that guilt around for years.
Why would you share those things with me if I meant nothing?
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The weekend turned into a month. I couldn't go back home. But I never meant to spend all that time with you.
And my confessions were out of guilt. But the sex was good. So I stayed a little longer than intended.
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I started writing this after I killed you. I keep repeating what you said to me, that I meant nothing to you, at least "not in that way". What a cold, cruel deceitful phrase.
I would have kept your secret for you—how you killed your parents because you hated them. But then you threatened my life as well. I did what I had to.
I go to sleep and I wake up after a night of fitful dreams. To find you, staring at me. Then I realize that it is a specter of my imagination.
User Reviews
Submitted by Viciousriffs (user info) at 2005-06-30 19:21:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
What I said, only again.
Submitted by Viciousriffs (user info) at 2005-04-13 01:57:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow, you do seem to have some non-believers here on the Uber.... Kinda rough, I like a lot of your work though. Maybe you have to BE fucked up to UNDERSTAND the fucked up.
Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2004-12-26 23:50:51 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Not bad. I liked what you were doing with the writing style. Though I had a little trouble following it, but what can I say...I'm easily confused.
Submitted by darko (user info) at 2004-12-07 20:14:09 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
meh.
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2004-12-07 16:25:08 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
Meat is murder too!
Submitted by xenon (user info) at 2004-12-07 15:11:58 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
I hate these kinds of posts.
Submitted by WhatTheHell (user info) at 2004-12-07 15:04:53 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
I thunk it suckeded.
Submitted by knucklesnelson (user info) at 2004-12-07 15:04:05 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
gave me gas
Submitted by KillerTofu (user info) at 2004-12-07 15:03:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Sort of interesting, Seems to be reaching out if I do say so, but what do I know about psychology?
Submitted by girlintheworld (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:58:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Zandy1123 (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:54:13 (#)
Ranking: 0
are you ok?
No, actually I write all these posts from a mental hospital. Free drugs though.
Submitted by ICO (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:57:56 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Murder Rocks. Something was missing, though.
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:56:20 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Not big on the story, but I'm HUGE about the comments...
Submitted by BillsSBChamps (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:53:23 (#)
Ranking: -2
I didn't like it but I'm also an asshole so go figure.
Submitted by MyNameIsTim (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:54:31 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
mediocre
Submitted by Zandy1123 (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:54:13 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
are you ok?
Submitted by BillsSBChamps (user info) at 2004-12-07 14:53:23 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
I didn't like it but I'm also an asshole so go figure.