My favorites are the lies and secrets that you have to bring to the grave. (863 hits)
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Submitted by Chronic (View user info) at 2005-01-09 23:46:41 EST
Aren't those delightful? You know it right away, too. Some shit goes down or some stuff comes flopping out of your mouth and you know that you're forever stuck with it. Sometimes you think ahead and make your choice because you analyze it and it is the choice that needs to be made. Other times, not so much. Sometimes it's to protect someone from being hurt or persecuted, or even prosecuted in certain situations. Other times it's to take advantage of someone's youth or ignorance or beliefs. At the end of the day, there are a million different lies told by a million different people in a million different places for a million different reasons that they now have to live with; Good or bad.
Ex-KGB Interrogation specialist staring me down? Get out of my face.
Chinese water torture? Fuck off with that faggotry.
Electro-shock while I'm hung from the rafters? You gotta do better than that.
Michael Madsen cutting my ear off and dousing me with gasoline? Okay, even I can admit that this one's close, but I'm still hanging tough.
I'm not talking about that time in the 6th grade when Mary made out with Bobby when she was really dating Tommy and then they hid it. I'm talking about the real shit. Like that time that you were all in someone's basement playing videogames and definitely not burying a pregnant hooker. That thing you did goes straight to the vault. The fact that all your statements about that night are lies goes straight to the vault.
Right or wrong, good or bad, happy or said, these lies are truth now and these things didn't fucking happen as far as the rest of the world is concerned. The fact of the matter is that once you tell them, that's it. That's what happened and those people who learn to believe these lies, well, they're frightening, but this isn't about them. This is about the rest of us. The ones who have dropped these mistruths and hid these misdeeds and stand by them to this day. Giving full internal acknowledgement to a lie's complete lack of validity or protecting a secret that rests deep in your soul just becomes part of the normal routine.
In my time on Ubersite, I've observed something interesting. You people sometimes tell the world the things that are supposed to be taken to the grave. This worried me at first. Dark fantasy, misdeed, corruption, lies for the sake of seduction. Whatever it may be, you seem to tell. I think it starts with the anonymity that the Internet brings, which then couples with the basic human response to things that aren't supposed to be widely known, the need to tell. In the end, anonymity and an audience of thousands lends forum to more secrets than quiet moments between lovers. It's fascinating, really.
Half of the criminals get caught because they tell on themselves in one way or another. They tell a friend who tells a friend. They keep a diary that's a little too personal. They make a private video that remains stowed away in a drawer, only to be discovered by a cleaning lady. They confess. People just need evidence. They want to tell. What's interesting about Ubersite is that not only do you have the need to tell, but you actually do it. Then, as quickly as people come here and share something incredibly personal, they often disappear silently into the night. Some get drawn in and stay. Some even find themselves at Ubercon and befriend one another. Then, they're forced to deal with the fact that the anonymity they discovered isn't so anonymous anymore. It's a community. Is this more personal, or less?
I'm not sure I want that to happen to me. I don't want to lose the edge. If this becomes too real, I'll want to bite my tongue on certain bits of myself to protect myself or to protect others. However, as long as I'm a little bit mysterious and force you to sift through my words pondering whether I speak the truth or speak lies or speak a little of each or speak a mixture of both, then I'm free to be as real as real can be. The fact that you don't know if it's the truth means that I can actually tell the truth. It's empowering, I think.
No, sorry. This post doesn't actually have any deep dark secrets I'm supposed to die without sharing, just some observations about them and the crazy bastards reading/writing them.
Maybe next time. Maybe not. Maybe I'll just talk about the weather, instead...
"Clowns to the left of me. Jokers to the right. Here I am, stuck in the middle with you." -(Reservoir Dogs)
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Chroniclysmically Conceptualized
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Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2006-04-04 06:38:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Interesting.
-Dave
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2006-01-22 16:25:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This is why I don't say too much, most of the time.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-12-27 16:12:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Still awesome.
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2005-08-08 17:09:46 EDT (#)
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Haha. Yeah, I certainly did.
Submitted by Siren (user info) at 2005-08-08 01:58:36 EDT (#)
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I like you.
Have you ever seen 'Very Bad Things?'
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2005-08-08 01:33:30 EDT (#)
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agreed
Submitted by Rads_wife (user info) at 2005-06-04 03:09:45 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2005-01-15 04:06:30 EST (#)
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I like that I made someone come back.
Submitted by CJRipley (user info) at 2005-01-14 09:53:17 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Fantastic! (for reasons I won't mention)
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-01-13 19:00:21 EST (#)
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I've come back to this because it's been playing on my mind. I'm glad I got what you meant out of it. Have another +2 for getting my grey cells going.
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2005-01-10 14:27:07 EST (#)
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Exactly.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-01-10 05:19:35 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
That really made me think.
I put a lot of myself out on Uber, and I don't think anything of it. They're things I don't talk to the people around me about, but I will tell to complete strangers. Those who have met me in person, I didn't feel weird with, or talking to about anything, because the platform of intimacy is already established.
I'm just thinking out loud, so I'll stop rambling and leave you this +2.
Submitted by Banga3386 (user info) at 2005-01-10 01:30:11 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2005-01-10 00:56:27 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
It's good to leave them wanting more sometimes.
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-01-10 00:42:00 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
+2 for awesome start.
-1 for cockteasing.
Submitted by Joemama (user info) at 2005-01-10 00:40:24 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Its best, but hard, to stop making
deposits in the "vault.
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2005-01-10 00:08:56 EST (#)
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I never actually said that there was a dead hooker in my past, either. It was an example.
Completely unrelated, I will now be leaving Ubersite forever...
Submitted by Lisa (user info) at 2005-01-09 23:59:30 EST (#)
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No dark secrets? Goddammit, SHITFUCKASSDAMN!!
Submitted by kai070169 (user info) at 2005-01-09 23:58:15 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Similar in sentiment to this: http://www.ubersite.com/m/51117 'cept that there are no dead hookers in my basement. Honest.