The Missing Word (959 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: 1 on 16 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Stan<juggalo44.at.mad.scientist.com> (View user info) at 2005-01-11 14:11:44 EST
I met her at a party at my friend's house a few weeks ago. We had some drinks and talked all evening about people, music, and relationships. I had no idea that she was so much younger than me. She had the charisma and eloquence of someone that worked in a profession of networking. I found out that Kara was only eighteen years old, five years my junior. It had been a long time since I felt anything for anyone. I had been floundering through meaningless relationship after meaningless relationship and wanted to give up on love all together; that is, until I met her.
Adam, Kara, and I became quite the trio of friends. Adam was throwing the party the night we met and had been good friends with Kara for a long time. He had also been good friends with Andy, the manipulative son of a bitch that had dated Kara through high school. After the split, she felt a little unstable in the world of dating. Adam had developed a crush on Kara slightly before I met her. We called ourselves a club. The three of us spent many days and nights drinking and getting stoned. We all grew into a tight knit group.
I had often thought that my feelings would be impossible to confide to Kara because I knew her current position on dating. On top of that, I was worried how Adam would take it if I told him about my feelings. Then one night it came up in conversation.
"Look Sam, it's written all over your face. I know that you have feelings for Kara. I am ok with that." Adam said to me
"Well, let me ask you on a hypothetical level, if I were to date Kara; how would you feel about that?"
"I know that you are a good person who will treat her well. I know you will make her smile and her happiness is important to me, so I would be ok with it," he replied.
This conversation did not lead me to do anything in particular. Just because I had his permission didn't mean that I knew for sure if she was interested in me or not. I kept getting mixed signals from her. Flirtation, friend, flirtation, friend, I didn't know what to make of it and I didn't want to chance making our friendship awkward by announcing my feelings to her.
"Hey, do you want to come over and smoke with me tonight after you get out of band practice?" She asked.
I told her I would love to and informed her that I was actually about to leave practice. I headed to her apartment and it was about midnight when I got there. She was wearing a night gown and kicking back. I came in and we spent 2 hours engaged in a stoned conversation. She explained to me that she cuts herself sometimes to relieve emotional pain. It had not been the first time that I cared about someone who was a self mutilator. I told her that I was obsessive compulsive about the remote control to the t.v. and about germs. She jokingly told me that was hot. We also discussed my problem with snoring and how self conscious I am to sleep around other people. She became very interested in the subject and inquired further. I explained the disorder of sleep apnea and how it works.
"That's very interesting. I think we should sleep togeth....I mean, we should sleep in the same room sometime...I don't want to sound like I am coming on to (too).....oh, never mind." She said to me in a somewhat apologetic tone.
I left her apartment that night at 2:30 am. As I drove home, I thought to myself about the one word she was missing and what it could have meant.
"I don't want to come on to you," means that she has no interest in me.
"I don't want to come on too strong," means she does but doesn't want to scare me away.
That night I laid in bed and pondered what tomorrow might hold for us. Maybe I am finally justified in being able to care for someone again or maybe I am destined for more rejection.
(To be continued)
Peace,
STREETPUNK
User Reviews
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2007-11-23 14:03:00 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
i didn't know you live in dallas.
i'm in houston nowadays, if you ever come here hit me up for some beers
Submitted by Axolotl (user info) at 2006-03-18 17:26:53 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
One day, Stan.
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-01-11 17:11:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
You!
Cool.
And this is an interesting story, especially if it's fiction.
Submitted by streetpunk (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:53:16 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
We have spent about 16 hours in the studio working on our EP. We don't have anything finished yet but when we do I will hook you up. If you want to check out our website, it has audio with the old singer, go to
http://www.headshotsymphony.com
It's not the best recording. The EP that we will put out will blow all the older stuff away. I hope you like and if you ever want to put our music in one of your movies, we would be honored.....send me an email sometime!!!
Submitted by JMG114 (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:48:33 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I finished work on my feature film and now I'm just waiting on the composer to finish with the score. I think it came out very well. This season, I'm working on another book which will hopefully be done by the spring so that I can thereafter work on a new movie. Send me some audio of your band's latest stuff.
Submitted by streetpunk (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:44:58 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Yeah, I knew I was up there....infact, there was a time when I was actually in the top 10. That was back in the day when I Ubered everyday.
Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:42:04 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
If you haven't been around for a while, then you might not know you were on the MVA for a little while, back in early October. Just in time to make way for Smurfs and Tuesday.
Submitted by mikethescottish (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:35:14 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I thought you were dead.
Submitted by streetpunk (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:33:27 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Hey JMG,
I have been busy as a mother fucker. I am going to school, working, and my band is starting to get fairly successful in the DFW area. I haven't written anything besides lyrics in a long time. My writing seems lacking now but I just thought I would swing by and brush up on it a little. I wanted to go to the uberbash thing but there was no way I could afford that right now.....how are things with you. Working on any cool projects?
Submitted by tuesdaydelay (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:27:49 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
"Submitted by Method (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:18:54 (#)
Ranking: -2
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Peace,
Method"
Haha. I always thought the "peace" thing was far too queer to avoid criticism.
Submitted by JMG114 (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:25:16 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Holy moly, where've you been?
I was thinking about you earlier today, no joke.
Sexually, of course.
Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:23:00 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
rejection. friends don't let friends get feelings for women-friends who will reject you even if they have feelings for you to save their self-worth. Jesus I thought everybody knew this.
Submitted by streetpunk (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:22:51 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
This is actually fictional but I wrote it from the character's p.o.v.
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:18:54 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
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Peace,
Method
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:17:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
She belongs to me
Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-01-11 14:16:42 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Streetpunk? Wow.
If she invites you around, and you alone, I'd guess you were on to something. But what do I know.