It's a start. (555 hits)
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Submitted by lessthanfour <ossum.at.ossum.dot.net> (View user info) at 2005-01-21 13:51:33 EST
I can look at her picture without breaking down.
It shouldn't be a triumph—it's been ten months, after all—but it is. A photograph of the girl I loved—the girl I love—doesn't cause me to cry, to break things, to hate myself. I can look at it and return her smile, frozen in time, and remember happier times.
She's still gone. She's forever gone. I'm not happy about that, but I'll live. I think she still loves me, or some idea of me, and probably always will, but we're not right for each other.
I'm not happy about that, either.
But I'll live.
She told me she's in love. And that she's happy. I told her that I'm happy for her, but she didn't believe me. It's too bad, too, because it's true. All I've ever really wanted for her is to stand up for herself, and to be happy, and to be secure. I'm sorry I didn't, or couldn't, help her in those endeavors. Yes, I'd rather she be happy and in love and secure with me, but it's not meant to be. So I'm happy for her.
I'm not in love. I'm not even in like. I'm not that happy. But I'm not miserable anymore, either. And I'm fairly secure.
I'll consider that an even trade. I told her once that I'd give up all my happiness if I could take away her pain. And it's true.
I'll consider it an even trade.
She wants to be friends, as do I. I'm just not capable of it. Not now, maybe never. If I could, I would.
But I can't.
I can look at her picture without breaking down.
...It's a start.
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Submitted by Walrus_King (user info) at 2005-02-25 21:25:32 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
You -2'd a post of mine....
To be fair it was for the same reason that I would have -2'd I posted a link that I found on Fark knowing that most the users of this site probably go there or at least no about it. I did explain about the photo, that was the main reason for the post, I also explained my writers block that i#ve had recently.
I then looked at your user, ready to reply and have a go at you for having the audacity to ask me when did ubersite become.... when I had been here longer, I then found that I had only been here a couple of months longer, being but a humble late user myself I realised that this row held no-grounds, it's not about user numbers, it's about how good you post is, despite my constant attempts to write better posts nothign I seem to do attracts attention.
I then looked through your posts ready to -2 you for something shitty, I read your first post and it all sounded so familiar, I had been there and done it. I knew exactly how you felt from how it was portrayed in the post. I then read through your last post which was a follow on and again it was exaclty how I felt/feel....
How can I -2 my own feelings
(except because their shit)
Submitted by TheJedi (user info) at 2005-02-15 09:00:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
You're right.
It's a start.
I've been there.
Good Luck.
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-02-15 08:44:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by BuckeyesTHEGAME (user info) at 2005-02-13 17:55:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
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Submitted by lessthanfour (user info) at 2005-02-12 20:42:52 (#)
Ranking: -2
Shennanigans. "we just got them developed" when that's clearly a digicam pic. -2 die etc.
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Like I said in a review of the post: I was using a picture from EBaumsworld to provide a backstory. So you can take your -2 and choke on it, etc...
But I'm not vindictive or petty, so have a +1 for a decent post.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-02-09 19:50:13 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2005-01-28 06:09:04 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-01-21 14:01:56 (#)
Ranking: 2
Yeah, it's cliche and sappy, but it's true.
Therefore, +2.
Submitted by Soley_Trinity (user info) at 2005-01-22 07:43:26 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by engine13 (user info) at 2005-01-21 16:58:02 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
No Comment
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2005-01-21 15:28:01 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by OnlyBigbear (user info) at 2005-01-21 15:14:13 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I swear to God man, this could have been my post. Been there, am there.
Fuck, we're pussies
Submitted by MandaPanda (user info) at 2005-01-21 14:10:21 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I want to pet you.
Submitted by knucklesnelson (user info) at 2005-01-21 14:02:28 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
pussy
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-01-21 14:01:56 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Yeah, it's cliche and sappy, but it's true.
Therefore, +2.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-01-21 13:55:09 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
Yawn.
Submitted by WhatTheHell (user info) at 2005-01-21 13:54:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
ahhhhhhhhhh..........
Fuck her.