A chapter of my life remembered and revealed (1904 hits)
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Submitted by Adamdidit2u (View user info) at 2005-02-09 12:41:26 EST
I present to you a rare "true" story about me.
Generally I stick to humor and randomness but today I feel a bit sentimental.
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Well here's a little story.
About a girl named Melissa. The first "serious" girlfriend I ever had.
I met Melissa back in the winter of 2000 (cue swirling time machine effect). She was a good chick all in all, and we got along famously from the moment we met.
But over time things change and people do too. Subtlety at first, but by the time you notice it's way too late.
Now if you asked me to pinpoint the exact moment that everything changed, I don't think I could ever tell you, and to this day I don't even think about it because the memories only get foggier and foggier as the days go by. My recollection of all the things between us is more like a series of clips and photos jumbled into a mass of memories.
I do know what the straw that broke the camels back was though.
It was when she had an abortion.
Go ahead and say what you will about our decision to destroy another life. Go ahead and weigh down moral judgment on me. After all you don't know me. You didn't know us. And you probably have never been faced with a decision like that before. So it should be easy for you to tell me I deserved everything I got.
This isn't the real point though.
After "it" had happened, everything went sour quickly, but still seemed to happen in slow motion. We weren't physically intimate anymore, which led to arguments. We spent the night together less and less. We left the party together less often. We started going places independently of each other more and more.
Then one day, "things" changed.
She showed up to a party at my best friends house with another guy.
It's easy to say how you're going to handle those things when you're talking with your friends, or even now speculating while you read this. But one day things will go unexpectedly pear shaped, and you'll spin round and round in your minds eye trying to figure the right thing to do.
Now I am a very laid back person. I'm proud of the fact that most of my closest friends have never seen me lose my temper. It makes the few times much more profound, at least for me.
When I first saw them I tried my best to keep my composure. I was a rock, an island. I acted like I didn't care because I couldn't let her think she was getting to me. I couldn't let myself think it either. About an hour passed and she said nothing to me. My mind was awash with thoughts. Fond memories of us were permeated by mistrust and doubt. I guess it was just a mutual unspoken agreement to ignore each other. Or maybe neither one of us could come to terms with what was happening.
But like I said, things change.
She always had to one up me, and she knew me far too well to not win this one.
So she kissed him out on the rear porch within sight of me and twenty of my friends.
A few hours of drinking and watching your life turned upside down have "interesting" effects on a person. So I did what any of you would have done had you been in my position.
I let the rage pour out.
I ran at them and swung as hard as I could.
They were still locked together, and she took the brunt of the blow. It's kind of funny how that happened; I bet Freud would have an explanation involving genitals and my mom for that one.
He and I rolled around fighting for a few moments before everyone else decided to show him what friends are for. Friends are for turning your enemies into piñata's.
I didn't see her around for a couple of months after that.
I guess she was upset at my lack of finesse.
When I did finally see her again it was at a local bar, and he was nowhere to be seen. I blame the alcohol for what happened that night, God knows I need someone to blame for my mistakes. Of course we got drunk, and I took her home. It didn't occur to mo the huge mistake I was making. We just both said our mumbled apologies and had marathon make up sex.
Things changed around on me again, just like that.
The next day I told the girl I was seeing that I had hooked up with someone last night. I wanted to be honest because she really was a great girl. Thinking back on it I probably ruined something that could have been really great, at least for a while. When I apologized and she was actually ok with it, but I suppose she thought she was getting me back by immediately dating a friend of mine.
She never told him what happened. It turns out I was just a convenient substitution for that night; a warm body with a familiar touch.
After that night I talked to her a few times sporadically. A casual "How are you" when out with friends; the occasional acknowledgement of living when passing each other in public.
Then months of nothing.
The next time I saw her she was with his friend Dan. He was an alright guy, and I probably could have been friends with him if the circumstances were different.
I tried my best to still not let it bother me.
I dated other people but always came back to wanting what I couldn't have. But I'm not one to beg, so I waited.
I waited patiently believing that all things meant to be will happen.
And I waited.
She came out to see me on my birthday, well technically the night before my birthday, and she was with him of course. I had plenty of things to keep my mind off her that night, and I was just happy she showed up. I was happy that somewhere the memory of me still existed in her mind.
It's funny how things happen sometimes.
It's funny how things change all of the sudden.
I woke up that morning, Christmas Eve, to my phone ringing at 8:00am.
It was Missy's parents, and they were calling to tell me she had been in an accident.
Apparently they were driving along the Baltimore beltway when he fell asleep at the wheel. He veered off the highway where an exit forks off, effectively splitting the fork, and careening into a concrete bridge embankment.
They estimate their speed to be around 70mph.
She broke her right femur right where it forms into the ball joint that inserts into the hip. A couple of titanium screws to fix that. Her right femur is also snapped about half way down. A titanium rod gets inserted in there. Her left tibia is broken and gets a rod put in as well. Lastly she broke her left patella (knee cap) and had to have screws to hold that together.
So I get up and head down to the hospital, at 8:30 Christmas Eve, my birthday, to see my ex girlfriend.
I remember listening to "A long December" by Counting Crows on the Radio. To this day I still can't listen to that song without it tearing the memories back into my mind.
As I walk into the Shock Trauma unit, I just go numb. Not in a physical sense, but like an emotional state of nothingness. I hate hospitals. The last time I was in one was to visit my grandfather as he slowly died from Parkinson's a few years back.
I see her mom, and she tells me about how when she woke up she just wanted to see me.
I couldn't even smile.
She didn't ask for him in the next room, she asked for me, and I came.
Things changed all of the sudden right there. I though I had been riding an emotional rollercoaster up to that point. Little did I know this was the point where the chain stops clinking.
The point where you just hang there.
The point before things go roaring out of control.
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To be continued...
User Reviews
Submitted by YoMikeyA (user info) at 2006-12-08 14:07:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
wow, man, i have occasionally thought, well, fantasized (it is sadistic, i know) of something catastrophic like this to happen to make her see what she truly wanted, so i hear ya
Submitted by MyNameIsTim (user info) at 2005-05-17 14:01:05 EDT (#)
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you're a good writer...
Submitted by Soley_Trinity (user info) at 2005-02-11 04:48:33 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Things happen for a reason.
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2005-02-10 16:45:46 EST (#)
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great!
.... i mean the writing, not the fact that the girl was in a crash
Submitted by ariseymour (user info) at 2005-02-10 16:29:26 EST (#)
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Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2005-02-10 16:23:07 EST (#)
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Now I am a very laid back person. I'm proud of the fact that most of my closest friends have never seen me lose my temper. It makes the few times much more profound, at least for me.
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I relate to this so much.
Great tale now to read part 2.
-Dave
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-10 11:06:09 EST (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/59217
PART II is done
Submitted by TimeCop (user info) at 2005-02-10 10:03:29 EST (#)
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Good. But I thought Evans had left...
Submitted by mrwolf (user info) at 2005-02-10 09:35:22 EST (#)
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Wow, shit... ermm... shit. Wow.
Submitted by Jungle_Jimanee (user info) at 2005-02-10 08:49:56 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-10 08:43:54 EST (#)
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Submitted by PoloboiGC (user info) at 2005-02-09 23:25:54 (#)
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adam your a faggot and a loser..
plus you can't hold a bitch... hahhhhaha
sucks to be you!
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Read part II today
Learn something
Submitted by PoloboiGC (user info) at 2005-02-09 23:25:54 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
adam your a faggot and a loser..
plus you can't hold a bitch... hahhhhaha
sucks to be you!
Submitted by BrittInToledo (user info) at 2005-02-09 23:14:09 EST (#)
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Speechless. I want to know what happens, I want more!
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 22:59:23 EST (#)
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Submitted by CanucksFan (user info) at 2005-02-09 18:53:45 (#)
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sounds like a very cliche story to me..but well written
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How is this cliche?
Do you know alot of people this has happened to?
I suggest you know the meaning of words before you attempt to use them.
Submitted by screamfeeder (user info) at 2005-02-09 22:27:39 EST (#)
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Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 21:08:23 EST (#)
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Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-02-09 20:23:16 (#)
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Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:48:08 (#)
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Your ex gets almost dies AND you have to listen to the Counting Crows? Sounds like the worst day ever.
That was funny. But...
Adamdidit2u- Who let you out of your cage and told you that you could write something serious? And then let you write it *well*? Back inside, and don't make me get out the whip again.
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My apologies
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-02-09 20:23:16 EST (#)
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Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:48:08 (#)
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Your ex gets almost dies AND you have to listen to the Counting Crows? Sounds like the worst day ever.
That was funny. But...
Adamdidit2u- Who let you out of your cage and told you that you could write something serious? And then let you write it *well*? Back inside, and don't make me get out the whip again.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-02-09 19:05:23 EST (#)
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Real life sucks big hairy balls.
Keep on keepin' on, dude.
Submitted by CanucksFan (user info) at 2005-02-09 18:53:45 EST (#)
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sounds like a very cliche story to me..but well written
Submitted by JohosaPhaTZ (user info) at 2005-02-09 17:44:26 EST (#)
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Ha! You kicked his ass!
But for the rest,
*Speechless*
Submitted by Duke_Diggler (user info) at 2005-02-09 17:43:06 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
good story man. i like reading about bad shit that's happened to other people, not in a sadistic way, but to know that I'm not the only one who has been shunned by God. it's comforting in a strange way.
cant wait to read part 2.
Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2005-02-09 17:36:52 EST (#)
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Ahahaha! God showed her, right?
I hope there's a 'Ye reap what ye sow, bitch!' in part two!
I'll stay tuned.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2005-02-09 17:23:28 EST (#)
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Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:09:18 (#)
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Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:01:51 (#)
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Your real life sucks. Random crazy fiction humor is more fun.
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More true words have never been spoken
Submitted by Yes (user info) at 2005-02-09 16:55:26 EST (#)
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me = hooked
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 16:32:07 EST (#)
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To anybody who liked this.
Thanks,
Part two tommorrow, it will blow you away.
Submitted by RamJetMax (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:55:46 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Captivating.
Submitted by Falconer (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:32:30 EST (#)
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Keep writing.
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:28:36 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Nvtro (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:26:02 EST (#)
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This is some good stuff.
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:09:18 EST (#)
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Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:01:51 (#)
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Your real life sucks. Random crazy fiction humor is more fun.
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More true words have never been spoken
Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-02-09 15:01:51 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Your real life sucks. Random crazy fiction humor is more fun.
Submitted by thuumblina (user info) at 2005-02-09 14:55:26 EST (#)
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extremely touching.
Submitted by Ballskid43 (user info) at 2005-02-09 14:33:15 EST (#)
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Excellent stuff. I'd be happy to keep your perfect score standing
Submitted by Millie_Grace (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:55:40 EST (#)
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this is the best thing I have read on here in a long
time...oh and I loved this;
"But one day things will go unexpectedly pear shaped"
...rock on.
Submitted by Faithless_Whisper (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:54:14 EST (#)
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Your words are magic. I've been that girl, once. And I'm as lucky as your ex was to have someone who can pick up my pieces when I fall apart. You don't just get a +2 for great writing, but because you're a damn good person.
Submitted by Kre8rix (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:46:07 EST (#)
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<speechless>
</speechless>
Submitted by FilthyAssistant (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:36:11 EST (#)
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Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:25:51 (#)
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Aw, fuck, don't leave me hanging like that!
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:25:51 EST (#)
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Aw, fuck, don't leave me hanging like that!
Submitted by drfeggphd (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:13:52 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by polymorph505 (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:13:27 EST (#)
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Yeah, it's funny how life can take these inexplicable turns, effectively turning entire worlds upside down, all for the pursuit of hot poon
Submitted by L-Gizzle (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:11:23 EST (#)
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You have no idea how closely this resembles something I've been through.
Submitted by Girlwithaclue (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:07:24 EST (#)
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I also am looking forward to the rest. Nice..
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:07:04 EST (#)
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There is a Ben Folds song in this somewhere.
Submitted by girlintheworld (user info) at 2005-02-09 13:02:20 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by WhatTheHell (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:58:12 EST (#)
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14 levels of awesome here, my friend.
now get back to the usual frivolity please, assclown!
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:55:44 EST (#)
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This was incredibly well written.
I'm looking forward to reading the rest.
Submitted by BuckeyesTHEGAME (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:55:00 EST (#)
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Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:52:47 EST (#)
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"A long December by Counting Crows"
+2 Awesome....Awesome song!
I am sorry!
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:50:58 EST (#)
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Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:48:08 (#)
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Your ex gets almost dies AND you have to listen to the Counting Crows? Sounds like the worst day ever.
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It was just on the radio, just one of those things.
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:49:57 EST (#)
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For those looking for my usual antics
http://www.ubersite.com/m/59104
Submitted by knucklesnelson (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:48:19 EST (#)
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Looking forward to the next part.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:48:18 EST (#)
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wow.
I'm sorry, man.
(is that the right thing to say here?)
Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:48:08 EST (#)
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Your ex gets almost dies AND you have to listen to the Counting Crows? Sounds like the worst day ever.
Submitted by ess-arr (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:47:56 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Teephphah (user info) at 2005-02-09 12:47:48 EST (#)
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Daaaaamn. That's some heavy shit.