I Love You Too Much... (801 hits)
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Submitted by Espo (View user info) at 2005-02-10 16:53:52 EST
I lay beside you in the dark, both cuddled together into one ball of love on your small bed. We had just finished watching a movie, snuggled up together in between your sheets - you not caring if you could see the screen, and me not wanting to spoil our last few hours together.
The TV lay dark and silent at the foot of your bed, and we both looked into each other's eyes.
God, how do I tell you?
I still love you. I love you more than anything, but I don't want to hurt you. I love you too much to risk hurting you that much.
"What are you thinking about?" I ask, in an almost whisper.
"Oh, just about how perfect you are."
The words cut like knives in my heart. Christ, why were you always so truthful? Why did you have to say that? Not here. Not now.
"Why, baby, what are you thinking about?"
"Oh...well...I was just thinking...about...why you haven't hooked up with more guys here..."
It sounded ten times worse than it reads.
I looked into her eyes, and saw the slight crack I had just put in her heart.
"Baby, you know why...I love you. I don't want to be with any other boys."
She wasn't going to give me anything here. She was going to make me do all the work.
I was going to have to take a sledgehammer and break this beautiful girl's heart and I'll never forgive myself for doing it.
"Baby, I've been thinking...we're not going to be able to see each other very often for the next year. Hardly at all, in fact."
Her big, beautiful eyes, usually shining with love, started to glaze over.
"And I don't think I can do this long distance thing anymore. Not if we're not going to see each other that often."
She pushed me away in one, swift motion and curled up in a little ball against the wall. The tears started to flow like a river of broken love, straight from her heart to her rosy cheeks.
"C'mon, baby..." I cooed, trying to sound as soothing as possible. But we both knew that anything I said from then on would just be a blur of pain in her memory.
"It's not that I don't love you anymore, baby. I love you too much to drag this on anymore. I don't want to hurt you more in the future.
I'm so sorry, baby.
I'm so sorry."
Espo
User Reviews
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2005-02-11 00:04:23 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by ellsmall (user info) at 2005-02-10 21:42:37 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
"It's not that I don't love you anymore, baby. I love you too much to drag this on anymore."
Oh for christsake what a fucking cop-out, were you lying to her or to yourself? Be a MAN, or at least a Big Boy you wanted what you wanted, what she wanted of felt didn't mean shit to you.
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-02-10 21:10:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Very sad indeed.
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Submitted by peckerhead (user info) at 2005-02-10 20:09:18 (#)
Ranking: 2
What a lot of teenagers and young adults don't get (understand) is that relationships are like physical lives; they are born/start... they live or go on for awhile... and then he/she/they die. Once I fully understood this, the pain of breaking up - on both sides - was not nearly so bad. I concur that this is not Espo's best story but combined with the cool puzzle at the bottom (I'm a chess player) it's worth +2. Keep em coming.
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Interesting take on relationships. I don't think anything stops the first one from hurting, but I agree that relationships sometimes just have to end when people change. My first big breakup changed from "God I miss her" to "God I hate her" to "Who the fuck is she now?" to "What the hell was I doing with her in the first place...?"
Submitted by peckerhead (user info) at 2005-02-10 20:09:18 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
What a lot of teenagers and young adults don't get (understand) is that relationships are like physical lives; they are born/start... they live or go on for awhile... and then he/she/they die. Once I fully understood this, the pain of breaking up - on both sides - was not nearly so bad. I concur that this is not Espo's best story but combined with the cool puzzle at the bottom (I'm a chess player) it's worth +2. Keep em coming.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-02-10 18:22:33 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by AlwaysAnEagle (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:59:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Well, I came into my room because I was upset about something in my romantic life and it was needling me...and I have this. Thanks asshole.
Good post though.
Submitted by espo (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:51:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:36:43 (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:11:50 (#)
Ranking: 2
Let me balance out my rating a bit, because your stuff is always a better read than half the shit on this site.
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Well then, get to writing something already. Ssshhh make us wait this long.
Espo,
I love this.
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Thanks, tigerlilly.
Submitted by espo (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:49:33 EST (#)
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Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:11:50 (#)
Ranking: 2
Yeah, Espo...I get that. The line just seemed a little trite and somewhat cliched to me.
Let me balance out my rating a bit, because your stuff is always a better read than half the shit on this site.
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The line was definitely cliched...but i appreciate your honesty. Thanks.
Submitted by drfeggphd (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:38:36 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
thank you for posting this
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:36:43 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:11:50 (#)
Ranking: 2
Let me balance out my rating a bit, because your stuff is always a better read than half the shit on this site.
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Well then, get to writing something already. Ssshhh make us wait this long.
Espo,
I love this.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:28:26 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:18:52 (#)
Ranking: 2
If you love someone that much, you find a way to be with them.
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I agree with that 100%.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:18:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
If you love someone that much, you find a way to be with them.
Or at least I did. +2 anyway because love fucking hurts.
Submitted by Girlwithaclue (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:11:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Oh those words still hurt.....
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:11:50 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Yeah, Espo...I get that. The line just seemed a little trite and somewhat cliched to me.
Let me balance out my rating a bit, because your stuff is always a better read than half the shit on this site.
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:08:43 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
So sad...and this is my biggest fear.
Submitted by espo (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:05:17 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:02:53 (#)
Ranking: 0
"The tears started to flow like a river of broken love, straight from her heart to her rosy cheeks."
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Are you kidding me with that?
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I'm just trying to bring some closure to the whole situation, and that's the metaphor that came to mind. Take it or leave it.
Submitted by bob (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:03:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
im coming up this february break biznatch.
in 2 weeks or so.
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:02:53 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
"The tears started to flow like a river of broken love, straight from her heart to her rosy cheeks."
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Are you kidding me with that?
Submitted by Faithless_Whisper (user info) at 2005-02-10 17:00:49 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
-1 for breaking a girls heart and posting about it. I'm not against heartbreak...but why would I want to read about your guilt?
Submitted by Sassmasterr (user info) at 2005-02-10 16:59:56 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
"It's not that I don't love you anymore, baby. I love you too much to drag this on anymore. I don't want to hurt you more in the future."
been there before
Submitted by lush (user info) at 2005-02-10 16:59:54 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
So... you're gay?
Submitted by DonkeyOnTheEdge (user info) at 2005-02-10 16:57:09 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Jesus, what's with all this gay love shit on Uber? I hate February.