You Decide (725 hits)
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Submitted by INIX (View user info) at 2005-02-11 10:17:10 EST
For the past couple of days now, I've been thinking about it a lot. It's kind of hard to let go of. I can't really recall something like this ever happening to me before. But thank God for my past experiences, or I'd be in trouble.
So I guess that it's not that bad, but it still sucks though. I still can't believe how much I think about it, and it's weird because this is one of the only times I have written something like this, like a journal. And to tell you truth, I feel much better now that I have.
You see the thing is, I feel like a piece of dirt, a nothing, and I can't even explain why, or what I did. Did I even do anything? I wish I knew. People say that I should just let it go, which I think I'm starting to, but for some reason I can't let go completely. And I don't know why. I guess, as much as I really want to, I really don't. The strange things is though, I have a strange gut feeling that I am wasting my time and energy, because I'll just never know. But even having said that, there's still some force that won't let me give up.
I wish there was a way that you could let someone inside your head. Because after all, no one really knows what you are thinking or feeling. They say they do, but how is it possible for them to truly know what it's like for you? It isn't, unfortunately for me.
I've prayed to God plenty of times about this, so I know that what's happening to me is for the best. Maybe that's why I'm taking this as easy as I am. I still hope that I get my chance to explain myself. I look forward to that day, because no matter what the outcome, at least I'll be able to lie this to rest.
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Submitted by Nvtro (user info) at 2005-02-11 14:02:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
You decide
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-02-11 13:47:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
What the fuck are you talking about? I need some more info here...
Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-02-11 12:29:05 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
8300's
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2005-02-11 11:17:38 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
what the hell man if they are comin at you , means they want somthin ,more better you look after them and care for them ,than they get on the street uh?
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:45:08 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
Umm... maybe if there were more substance to this...
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:38:46 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
You should burn down McDonalds
Submitted by phuzzygish (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:32:56 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
You're looking for sympathy here? At Uber? Now thats just silly...
Submitted by Mitchapalooza (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:28:06 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
it's better to have loved and lost, than to be ghey like you.
I suggest sleeping pills, and keep taking them til you feel the cold hand of death.
Submitted by knucklesnelson (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:24:52 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
No Comment
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:22:38 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
It's OK, I get aroused when I look at gay porn too. It's perfectly natural.
Submitted by Vomit (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:20:20 EST (#)
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I think suicide is the only option.
Submitted by Dervel (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:18:52 EST (#)
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A big mug of warm milk and and off to bed with you sunshine.
Submitted by UberPirate (user info) at 2005-02-11 10:18:35 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
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