The insane thoughts of a madman - How everyone will suffer at the hands of him (2001 hits)
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Submitted by Tubbs<thebrokenboy.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2005-02-17 10:48:00 EST
I'm going to kill someone one day, I know it.
I'm one of those quiet, shy people. I keep most things to myself and prefer to be left alone most of the time. I get so annoyed at peoples faults really easily, but mostly it's just plain stupidity and lack of common sense that gets my so angry.
If someone really pisses me off, I usually just put what happened in the back of my head, grind my teeth and clench my fists and get on with it.
I may look calm on the outside, but the thoughts in my head are far from calm. One day I will unleash this fury on some poor unsuspecting person. And they will pay. I'll probably end up in jail for a long time. But I'll feel complete.
For example, this morning I was woken up at 9:30 (for me this is very early, as I suffer from Insomnia and didn't get to sleep till 7) by my cousins girlfriend who is 17, he is 16 and I am 18. She was shouting at my cousin, not in a bad way but in a way you'd think she was either going deaf, or had headphones on. He in turn, was also shouting back.
I woke up pissed off, but my lack of confidence stopped me from telling them to shut up. My room has no door because it's in the attic, normal stairs were fitted on to it so it's easy access.
They then decided to come up into my room to use the computer (we have two, mine and his) and She started whispering to my cousin "Shall I jump on him?" and "Go on, let me jump on him". Now my cousin does have respect for me, but didn't stop her. He just said nothing.
At this time, I had thoughts of how I'd kill her, not hurt her. Kill her. Kicking her face until She died, snapping her neck, I thought of it all. She started coming closer, I heard the floor boards squeek.
Brain: I'm gonna snap your little neck if you touch me!
Me: I am awake you know
Brain: Nice one, I wanted to get bloody
Her: (as loud as She could) JAMES YOU LEFT MEEEE, JAMES YOU LEFT ME
Brain: Go on, fucking kill her. Argh how can I take this anymore. KILL KILL KILL
Me:....sleep
Her: Are you pissed off at me?
Brain: Yes, as a matter of fact I am, you've woken me up, disturbed my sleep, come into my room and started shouting your head off. Now shut up while I stab you to death, you little bitch.
Me: No, it's ok.
I swear one day.. I will snap. Badly. I've only ever had 3 proper fights in my entire life, I won them all. The last one I had was in school, in year 10 (4 years ago) when I threw a table at someone then kicked him in the face a few times.B ut for that few minutes when I'm pounding the face of somebody, nothing will stop me.
Each punch is like an angry thought being released by anger. All I'd need to do to look cool, would be to paint myself green and rip all my clothes off except my shorts and start talking like a caveman.
I hate people. It's a fact. I hate the old people who sit next to me on the bus, smelling funny and making weird noises. I hate the "mentally challenged" (fucking retarded) people who try and hug my whilst I'm taking a piss. I hate my Auntie's dog, that barks all the fucking time and makes my ears bleed. One day, just one day, She will find herself chowing on a bowl of food enticed with a high doseage of rat poison. This is a plan I've had for a long while.
My thoughts to kill people are not just spontaneous, I plan them, how I'd do it, where and when, how I'd get away with it, where I could hide the bodies ect. I should be worried but I'm not. There must be something wrong with me. I mean how many people (when they're alone in the kitchen) pick up a big cutting knife and start stabbing thin air? I do. All the time. I do it to my sister sometimes, She just runs away crying.
The worst thing is, my family are stupid. No common sense or manners, never tidy up after themselves, have no consideration for other people. I really do hate them. Sometimes they can be alright, others, they just do plain stupid things which I don't understand. Which leads to me hating them just a little bit more and me wanting to kill them just a little bit more.
I don't know how long it will be until you see me on the news being arrested for a mass murder spree. But when the time comes, Remember you first read about why it happened here.
On the wonderful Ubersite
User Reviews
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2006-07-24 15:40:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
HAHAHAHA
YOU GOT IN TROUBLE FOR THIS.
Submitted by clumeister (user info) at 2005-05-02 18:29:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Not exactly Harris and Kliebold but it'll do...
Also now that you've stated your intentions, you could be tried for premeditated if you actually go through with any of this.
So have a goood alibi :P
Submitted by kai070169 (user info) at 2005-05-02 17:21:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Your parents should take your computer away!
Submitted by shadowofthedivine (user info) at 2005-02-21 20:02:04 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
this is me
likewise, shy, keeps self to self, irritated by stupidity
had but one real fight in life.
threw guy 2/3 times my weight about 10 feet through a table.
goddamn, is it catching.
Submitted by Degreeless_Capibara (user info) at 2005-02-21 19:50:15 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
B@W
Submitted by DonkeyOnTheEdge (user info) at 2005-02-21 19:47:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Homicidal Mania. Catch it.
Submitted by sword (user info) at 2005-02-18 14:52:04 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels that way. I try to reduce the constant strain of wanting to murder people by yelling and cursing loudly, it is suprisingly theraputic and soon people will learn to stay away from you.
Submitted by DemonJack (user info) at 2005-02-18 14:44:30 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
You can belive me, I know so well how you feel. You have no idea. I'll kill someone very, very soon too if I don't win something cool.
Submitted by Wazza (user info) at 2005-02-18 14:39:08 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
yesssss
Submitted by kwame_johnson (user info) at 2005-02-18 14:29:44 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Do shut up.
Submitted by Parkinsuns (user info) at 2005-02-18 06:17:46 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Stabkill (user info) at 2005-02-18 06:08:54 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Make sure you kill alot of people...and people who deserve it. Like cops.
Submitted by Delora (user info) at 2005-02-17 23:41:26 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
ok,+1 but only because you're paying me with sex. no, i didn't mean to say that. how much ARE you paying me anyway?
Submitted by Delora (user info) at 2005-02-17 22:51:48 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
well, you asked for my rating. the first three sentences really did make me smile because you just described my husband ...yeah but then i read the rest and got a little scared about my future. not really..but it did make me smile fort a short while. good luck controlling your inner demons.
Submitted by Fleadh (user info) at 2005-02-17 11:26:02 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Yea, When I do loose it whatr normally happens is everything goes a buy red and blurry and mad and when I start thinking straight bad things have happened.
Dont worry tho, just accept the fact that your bottling of rage and the rare cataclysmic outbursts are going to wreck you life and a lot of your friendships, best to just not worry about it.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-02-17 11:21:43 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
I doubt you'll ever do anything, other than slip deeper into despair and deprression anyway. Your too introspective. Just think of your feelings as like a laser, boring a big deep hole into you. It's what'll make you better than 'normal' people.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-02-17 10:57:35 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
I have moments like that too.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2005-02-17 10:53:39 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Entertaining to read in a fucked up "oh look at the train wreck kids" way